Uploaded March 2019 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago
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It never gets easier to lose people.
However, it never means that we can't be grateful for what they've given us. People change. Plans change. People grow at different rates. The point is that gratitude is all that is left when the anger and sadness melt away. The love, the laughter, and the kindness that the people we love have given to us are the most valuable parts of character. I will never regret being kind, and opening my heart to someone who needed it. Sometimes all a person needs is someone to believe in them.
(And I hope I've done that for you.)
Figuring out the rest of my life amidst so much change has been challenging. But I'm finally okay. I know I will be okay, no matter what. I've shouldered my way through the darkness and learned what it means to be good. To be kind. I've learned how vast and endless my heart is, and that it has so much to contribute to this world.
I don't quite know where I'll be or where I'm going. I'm afraid. I've lost those I've loved. But I'm thankful for all of it. Thankful to have loved such a kind and wonderful human being, even if we aren't meant to stay in each other's lives.
In the end, I know I did good. I know I gave everything.
And all I have left to say is thank you.
I hope you live beautifully.
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It never gets easier to lose people.
However, it never means that we can't be grateful for what they've given us. People change. Plans change. People grow at different rates. The point is that gratitude is all that is left when the anger and sadness melt away. The love, the laughter, and the kindness that the people we love have given to us are the most valuable parts of character. I will never regret being kind, and opening my heart to someone who needed it. Sometimes all a person needs is someone to believe in them.
(And I hope I've done that for you.)
Figuring out the rest of my life amidst so much change has been challenging. But I'm finally okay. I know I will be okay, no matter what. I've shouldered my way through the darkness and learned what it means to be good. To be kind. I've learned how vast and endless my heart is, and that it has so much to contribute to this world.
I don't quite know where I'll be or where I'm going. I'm afraid. I've lost those I've loved. But I'm thankful for all of it. Thankful to have loved such a kind and wonderful human being, even if we aren't meant to stay in each other's lives.
In the end, I know I did good. I know I gave everything.
And all I have left to say is thank you.
I hope you live beautifully.
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Tomorrow I start a new chapter of my life.
Tomorrow I move away to university, where I will likely spend the next 8-9 years studying. A huge chapter of my life is closing today.
These horses have changed my life. I would not be who I am today without them. This video is a celebration of all the love and triumph Ive experienced in the last 6 years. Ive edited in my proudest moments, and the moments where Ive felt overcome by love and joy for these beautiful animals.
Getting involved with horses is what made me realize my true purpose in this world, and helped me realize what I was born to do. I know that no matter what, I will spend my life being with horses and helping to change their lives for the better.
I am so thankful for everything. For these horses, and for my life. They have always made me the best version of myself. They have been my dearest teachers and closest friends. There are no words to eloquently express just how much they mean to me.
The most heartbreaking part of this is leaving my old life behind. There is no going back from this, no way to reverse the clock and go back to how everything used to be. Cheyenne and Blackjack will be pieces of my past. And Ill be leaving Willow for a whole year.
But if theres anything Ive learned from these horses, it is how to be brave. Even when Im scared. Theyve taught me that I am so much more than I believe. They showed me the value of my life on the days when I didnt want to wake up. I am strong enough to move forward with the rest of my life because of them.
But oh, I owe the most to my beautiful Willow. My irreplaceable heart horse. Willow has made every single one of my dreams come true. He is the best part of me, the part that has learned to have patience and kindness, the part of me that has learned to be brave and have courage even when my legs are weak. He was the best thing to ever happen to me. I have to have faith that well be together forever, no matter what obstacles we face going forward. It is because of him that I know I can do this, even if were apart. No matter what, Ill always come back to him.
Thank you, for your honest support and love over the last 6 years. I cant say Ill have much new content for awhile. Ill still make videos of course, but I think its important I step away a little bit to focus on my future. This is truly the end of an era for me. If all goes like I hope it does, then Willow and I will be reunited next year and hell come live with me in my new life.
These horses are home.
I am going to miss them all so much.
Thank you, and I hope you all dont forget about us ♥")
