Uploaded September 2016 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago
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I really felt the need to try and make an uplifting and inspiring video, more for myself than anything. When I heard this audio it just really resonated with me and I thought it worked perfectly for conveying what I wanted.
I've had an extremely difficult and draining year that has me just praying the next 4 months fly by. I've given in to a lot of negative emotions and feelings such as anger and hatred. Unfortunately, my entire year was determined to go downhill back in February and it all just sort of continued to spiral. It started with things I couldn't control, but somewhere along the line I started calling some of the shots and making decisions that will forever haunt and affect me. I don't know that I'd change them now. But as a result I've had to force myself to grow up a bit more and make sacrifices that I don't necessarily want to make anymore. But I know I have to.
I don't know if the choices I made this year were the right ones, but I think they were the best ones. I know eventually they'll have repercussions but I just hope when they do happen I'll be strong enough to face them. I also know I've been looking at my life from a pretty negative standpoint for a long time now and perhaps its time to try and look at it all from a different, more positive angle. I guess it all just comes down to the desire to change myself. Hopefully I'm strong enough to get there someday.
I miss horses immensely, but given my life at the moment I don't know when I'll be able to go back to them. I apologize for the overuse of these clips but I work with what I have.
Seeing as school has started my frequent uploading should dwindle now. Inactive summer = lots more uploads.
Hopefully I'll find a way to invite horses back into my life soon. Time will tell.
Kudos to you if you read this whole thing, I know its a lot of personal mumbo jumbo. :')
{ hd makes things pretty }
I really felt the need to try and make an uplifting and inspiring video, more for myself than anything. When I heard this audio it just really resonated with me and I thought it worked perfectly for conveying what I wanted.
I've had an extremely difficult and draining year that has me just praying the next 4 months fly by. I've given in to a lot of negative emotions and feelings such as anger and hatred. Unfortunately, my entire year was determined to go downhill back in February and it all just sort of continued to spiral. It started with things I couldn't control, but somewhere along the line I started calling some of the shots and making decisions that will forever haunt and affect me. I don't know that I'd change them now. But as a result I've had to force myself to grow up a bit more and make sacrifices that I don't necessarily want to make anymore. But I know I have to.
I don't know if the choices I made this year were the right ones, but I think they were the best ones. I know eventually they'll have repercussions but I just hope when they do happen I'll be strong enough to face them. I also know I've been looking at my life from a pretty negative standpoint for a long time now and perhaps its time to try and look at it all from a different, more positive angle. I guess it all just comes down to the desire to change myself. Hopefully I'm strong enough to get there someday.
I miss horses immensely, but given my life at the moment I don't know when I'll be able to go back to them. I apologize for the overuse of these clips but I work with what I have.
Seeing as school has started my frequent uploading should dwindle now. Inactive summer = lots more uploads.
Hopefully I'll find a way to invite horses back into my life soon. Time will tell.
Kudos to you if you read this whole thing, I know its a lot of personal mumbo jumbo. :')
