Uploaded April 2019 | Updated September 2026, 1 day ago
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This video isn’t really edited much, simply because I just wanted it to be a simple representation of all of the beauty I find in Willow.
I went to ride today, but I found him lying down for the first time and decided against it. Sometimes there are days where I find him and I just don’t want to disturb his peace. So I put him in a field and just watched, offered a few treats and pets. I realized that I may not always have the opportunity to experience these moments. I may not get many more chances to just sit and watch him graze and admire everything I love about him. Being as young as I am I’m not really sure where life will take me.
And some days I just really need to sit and watch him be a horse. Riding is one of the least important things I can do for him. I know that riding is for me. There’s more than one way to exercise a horse and keep their mind happy. I ride because I love it, not because he does.
And so there are some days where I just desperately need to sit there and watch him exist, and remember why everything I do is for him. I take a lot of photos of him when I have my camera, full body shots of him grazing usually. They may all look the same but they’re a way for me to look back some day and remember him as he was. To remember how whole and beautiful he was. To remember he existed.
Our days could be numbered, I don’t know. Like I said I don’t know what life has in store for me going forward.
I just need the simple moments now.
{ hd makes things pretty }
This video isn’t really edited much, simply because I just wanted it to be a simple representation of all of the beauty I find in Willow.
I went to ride today, but I found him lying down for the first time and decided against it. Sometimes there are days where I find him and I just don’t want to disturb his peace. So I put him in a field and just watched, offered a few treats and pets. I realized that I may not always have the opportunity to experience these moments. I may not get many more chances to just sit and watch him graze and admire everything I love about him. Being as young as I am I’m not really sure where life will take me.
And some days I just really need to sit and watch him be a horse. Riding is one of the least important things I can do for him. I know that riding is for me. There’s more than one way to exercise a horse and keep their mind happy. I ride because I love it, not because he does.
And so there are some days where I just desperately need to sit there and watch him exist, and remember why everything I do is for him. I take a lot of photos of him when I have my camera, full body shots of him grazing usually. They may all look the same but they’re a way for me to look back some day and remember him as he was. To remember how whole and beautiful he was. To remember he existed.
Our days could be numbered, I don’t know. Like I said I don’t know what life has in store for me going forward.
I just need the simple moments now.
![Home [End of an Era]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/mqdcHq2e2BI/mqdefault.jpg "Home [End of an Era]
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Tomorrow I start a new chapter of my life.
Tomorrow I move away to university, where I will likely spend the next 8-9 years studying. A huge chapter of my life is closing today.
These horses have changed my life. I would not be who I am today without them. This video is a celebration of all the love and triumph Ive experienced in the last 6 years. Ive edited in my proudest moments, and the moments where Ive felt overcome by love and joy for these beautiful animals.
Getting involved with horses is what made me realize my true purpose in this world, and helped me realize what I was born to do. I know that no matter what, I will spend my life being with horses and helping to change their lives for the better.
I am so thankful for everything. For these horses, and for my life. They have always made me the best version of myself. They have been my dearest teachers and closest friends. There are no words to eloquently express just how much they mean to me.
The most heartbreaking part of this is leaving my old life behind. There is no going back from this, no way to reverse the clock and go back to how everything used to be. Cheyenne and Blackjack will be pieces of my past. And Ill be leaving Willow for a whole year.
But if theres anything Ive learned from these horses, it is how to be brave. Even when Im scared. Theyve taught me that I am so much more than I believe. They showed me the value of my life on the days when I didnt want to wake up. I am strong enough to move forward with the rest of my life because of them.
But oh, I owe the most to my beautiful Willow. My irreplaceable heart horse. Willow has made every single one of my dreams come true. He is the best part of me, the part that has learned to have patience and kindness, the part of me that has learned to be brave and have courage even when my legs are weak. He was the best thing to ever happen to me. I have to have faith that well be together forever, no matter what obstacles we face going forward. It is because of him that I know I can do this, even if were apart. No matter what, Ill always come back to him.
Thank you, for your honest support and love over the last 6 years. I cant say Ill have much new content for awhile. Ill still make videos of course, but I think its important I step away a little bit to focus on my future. This is truly the end of an era for me. If all goes like I hope it does, then Willow and I will be reunited next year and hell come live with me in my new life.
These horses are home.
I am going to miss them all so much.
Thank you, and I hope you all dont forget about us ♥")
