![{ I dont wanna be late for my t h e r a p y session } [Vent] @RockOnRatchet95](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/S3TA-jAscNw/maxresdefault.jpg)
Uploaded September 2018 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
This is a project that I came back to whenever I felt hurt by my family, my friends, my own thoughts, or life in general.
I began making this in...either late September, or late October of last year. So there is a year's worth of depression shoved into this video.
I finished this and am currently uploading this when I feel not-so-good to keep it consistent.
So, I got accepted into the art school I wanted to go to. And maybe I'm lucky that I got accepted, bc it's a prestige school that's hard to get into. But now...I feel like a bit of a bad package came with all of this.
I was so damn excited to come here, I was excited to finally learn more about the thing I would wanna make a career out of, which is well, graphic design, video editing.
But today I learned some new things. I got our schedule, and I learned that the lessons start at 8:30 AM, sometimes a bit later, and can end as late as 7 PM. I need at least an hour or so to get home, so if I'm home really late, and I then would need time for homework, time to do daily stuff. I'd have only 3 hours of time to myself. I wouldn't really have time to do what I feel like doing, let alone hobbies. I've now decided that I will try to wake up at around 5-6 AM to compensate for that, and also do my homework then, but at this rate, with only one 50 minute break between all of this, I feel like school may run a big part of my life now. Another fact is that at this school, getting sick is more of a curse than a blessing. If you are sick, you cannot come back and simply catch up with what others did. You have to retake all of the same tests they did, do the same contest work, and nearly all of the stuff this school provides, whether contests, tests, are mandatory. It's all very strict, and could take up a lot of my time. I'm really sorry if I won't be able to edit for a while, but I'll try to finish up what I need to, and do the important things I need to for editing when I can.
This is a project that I came back to whenever I felt hurt by my family, my friends, my own thoughts, or life in general.
I began making this in...either late September, or late October of last year. So there is a year's worth of depression shoved into this video.
I finished this and am currently uploading this when I feel not-so-good to keep it consistent.
So, I got accepted into the art school I wanted to go to. And maybe I'm lucky that I got accepted, bc it's a prestige school that's hard to get into. But now...I feel like a bit of a bad package came with all of this.
I was so damn excited to come here, I was excited to finally learn more about the thing I would wanna make a career out of, which is well, graphic design, video editing.
But today I learned some new things. I got our schedule, and I learned that the lessons start at 8:30 AM, sometimes a bit later, and can end as late as 7 PM. I need at least an hour or so to get home, so if I'm home really late, and I then would need time for homework, time to do daily stuff. I'd have only 3 hours of time to myself. I wouldn't really have time to do what I feel like doing, let alone hobbies. I've now decided that I will try to wake up at around 5-6 AM to compensate for that, and also do my homework then, but at this rate, with only one 50 minute break between all of this, I feel like school may run a big part of my life now. Another fact is that at this school, getting sick is more of a curse than a blessing. If you are sick, you cannot come back and simply catch up with what others did. You have to retake all of the same tests they did, do the same contest work, and nearly all of the stuff this school provides, whether contests, tests, are mandatory. It's all very strict, and could take up a lot of my time. I'm really sorry if I won't be able to edit for a while, but I'll try to finish up what I need to, and do the important things I need to for editing when I can.
![{ I dont wanna be late for my t h e r a p y session } [Vent]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/S3TA-jAscNw/mqdefault.jpg "{ I dont wanna be late for my t h e r a p y session } [Vent]
This is a project that I came back to whenever I felt hurt by my family, my friends, my own thoughts, or life in general.
I began making this in...either late September, or late October of last year. So there is a years worth of depression shoved into this video.
I finished this and am currently uploading this when I feel not-so-good to keep it consistent.
So, I got accepted into the art school I wanted to go to. And maybe Im lucky that I got accepted, bc its a prestige school thats hard to get into. But now...I feel like a bit of a bad package came with all of this.
I was so damn excited to come here, I was excited to finally learn more about the thing I would wanna make a career out of, which is well, graphic design, video editing.
But today I learned some new things. I got our schedule, and I learned that the lessons start at 8:30 AM, sometimes a bit later, and can end as late as 7 PM. I need at least an hour or so to get home, so if Im home really late, and I then would need time for homework, time to do daily stuff. Id have only 3 hours of time to myself. I wouldnt really have time to do what I feel like doing, let alone hobbies. Ive now decided that I will try to wake up at around 5-6 AM to compensate for that, and also do my homework then, but at this rate, with only one 50 minute break between all of this, I feel like school may run a big part of my life now. Another fact is that at this school, getting sick is more of a curse than a blessing. If you are sick, you cannot come back and simply catch up with what others did. You have to retake all of the same tests they did, do the same contest work, and nearly all of the stuff this school provides, whether contests, tests, are mandatory. Its all very strict, and could take up a lot of my time. Im really sorry if I wont be able to edit for a while, but Ill try to finish up what I need to, and do the important things I need to for editing when I can.")
![[ Editing a comfort character ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/SulDfIBKENM/mqdefault.jpg "[ Editing a comfort character ]
Im feeling pretty happy with this one!
I was inspired by an edit by an instagram editor, scrqeem, and I decided to make my video have more of a focus on comfort characters ^^ Killua is one of my comfort characters now, (though I cant think of any other major ones atm) so I chose him ^^
Havent finished an AE edit in a really long time!! AEs been giving me some trouble regarding lag, and it just didnt feel very nice to use it, so I didnt, for a while. But I decided to break it out for this, and thankfully, pretty much everything went smoothly ^^
I wanted to make some parts a little smoother, but oh well. It felt a little hard to make some effects go precisely to the beat at points, too XD
But I suppose my main gripe is that, for some reason, the audio is especially quiet at the very start and very end. I didnt want to trim the video and potentially reduce its quality though.
I decided to make the main shakes, tilts, and the position movements in a combination of s_blurmocurves and a camera ^^ I realized I had forgotten about null object as I was editing the camera. Decided to not replace it tho. I realized that I forgot about it when I realized that i couldnt scale the whole video with the camera kajdhasjdha
And I also decided to make this a looping edit because why not.
Im glad that I felt enough motivation and inspiration to finish this in one evening tho ^^ Have been having trouble with finishing video edits lately.
Ah, I also recently-ish finished watching hxh!!! ^^ Dont feel quite ready to write my full thoughts on it here, but I did really enjoy the whole experience and Imma watch the movies and ovas, perhaps even the 1999 version, whenever Im ready ^^
Oh also also!! While making this, I accidentally (bc i mis-pressed) found a keyboard shortcut in ae that feels like p much a lifesaver for me!! Im leaving this here as a mental note for myself mostly, but whoever else finds this useful and doesnt know this can look into this too ^^ If you select a layer in the timeline and press the [ key on your keyboard, the clip/content on the layer automatically aligns/snaps to where your scrubber bar is!! Dudes, I used to literally click and drag AAALLL of my clips, which were cut even like 10+ minutes away from the 20+ second audio that ive set for the edit, and it was so tiring, but Im so glad that a thing like this exists!! Saves me so much time and i have no need to desperately drag the clips to the left constantly!!! You can even select multiple layers and use it and the same thing applies to everything youve selected!!!
Hmmm, I suppose thats the main of what I wanted to say, so I hope yall enjoy this!! ^^
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Song: Øfdream - First Woe (slowed + reverb)
Program: After Effects CC 2019
Media: Hunter x Hunter (2011)
Time taken: ~4 and a half hours to make, ~3 hours to render")
