Ex-Fundie Diaries
Halloween is Evil, Demons are Real, and other “Hocus Pocus” I was Taught to Believe 🎃
updated
To my longtime subscribers, thank you so much for all of your support! ❤️
To anyone new to my channel, please enjoy this archive of videos and my favorite faith deconstruction resources below.
[Faith Deconstruction Starter Pack]
"Faith Unraveled" by Rachel Held Evans: rachelheldevans.com/faith-unraveled
"Give Me Sex Jesus" by Matthew Barber: vimeo.com/groups/832851/videos/137784146
"Straight White American Jesus" by Bradley Onishi: straightwhiteamericanjesus.com
"White Evangelical Racism" by Dr. Anthea Butler: uncpress.org/book/9781469661179/white-evangelical-racism
"Jesus From Texas" by Semler: youtube.com/watch?v=aK22n2Vr7Jo
Fundie Fridays: youtube.com/c/fundiefridays
Gabs with Abigail: youtube.com/@UC2bHBm1vlLGdDZdNZxobyHg
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My story
04:30 - Faith deconstruction resources
07:15 - The next chapter
My current channel: https://m.youtube.com/@Elly.Trevisan
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, brown hair, and wearing green glasses, talks to the camera in front of a desk with twinkle lights and pictures on the wall.
#LastVideo
CW: religious trauma
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Introduction
04:32 - VBS performance
Image description: In the intro, Elly talks to the camera in front of a desk with flowers, candles, and pictures on the wall. Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair and is wearing green glasses and a teal tank top. The rest of the video is a home movie of a group of kids dressed in different shades of purple performing on a church stage.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChildIndoctrination #HomeMovie
CW: religious trauma
My new channel: youtube.com/@Elly.Trevisan
Operation Olive Branch: gofund.me/baf2de02
[Timestamps]
00:00 - A worship dance I remember
01:02 - Modest culty tunics
03:28 - Christian dance studio
05:25 - Veggie tales dance
07:22 - Pro-dance for the Lord
12:50 - My love of dance continues
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair in a ponytail, is wearing a black cropped tank top and green shorts and talking to the camera while standing in a bedroom with twinkle lights, a bookshelf, and a black dog on a bed.
#Exvangelical #PurityCulture #ReligiousTrauma #FundieSnark
Content warning: brief mentions of religious trauma, child ab*se, and DV
Check out my new channel: youtube.com/@Elly.Trevisan
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing blue scrubs and green glasses and talking to the camera on a sunny neighborhood walk.
Content warning: religious trauma, including discussions of hell
The original video: youtube.com/watch?v=VSVyVKn2cTk
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Dav's deconstruction cinematic universe
03:11 - The doctrine of hell & losing my best friend
11:33 - Bethy and Dav's mixed-faith marriage
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is taking a walk on a sunny evening while wearing green glasses and maroon scrubs.
#GirlDefined #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #FaithDeconstruction
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro
02:37 - Reaction
Image description: Jen and James from Fundie Fridays are on the upper left side of the screen, Bethany and Dav from Girl Defined are on the upper right, and Elly from Ex-Fundie Diaries is in the bottom middle.
#GirlDefined #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #PurityCulture #Modesty #FaithDeconstruction #ReactionVideo
Image description: A christian music video called "Modesty is Hottesty" is playing. Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, wears an orange sweater and green glasses while lip syncing and doing silly dance moves to the song.
#PurityCulture #ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #Modesty
My new YouTube channel: youtube.com/@Elly.Trevisan
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Christian erotica excerpt
01:48 - Purity culture and masturbation
04:43 - Marriage Heat website
11:28 - Loopholes: porn and technical virginity
14:36 - "A culture of biblical hot monogamy"
16:53 - Announcement: Patreon and new channel
[Background Music]
Title: Smooth Sailing
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing green glasses and a teal long-sleeve shirt. Behind Elly is a desk with a small plant and pictures and twinkle lights on the wall.
#PurityCulture #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma
Also, thank you to @DamonGarcia for the reminder yesterday that “we don’t have to be educational in order to speak up.”
#FreePalestine #CeaseFireNow
My TikTok: tiktok.com/@exfundiediaries
00:00 - Stepping out of my comfort zone
02:10 - Mental health meds + a new job
05:21 - A painful breakup
07:15 - Learning to be alone
Imagine description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing green glasses and sitting in a car
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Before the class
06:02 - After the class
Image description: Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair. They are wearing green glasses and a pink tank top, talking to the camera in their car.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #Modesty #PurityCulture #PoleDance #Vlog
[Content mentioned]
Attachment Styles: attachmentproject.com/blog/four-attachment-styles
"Positive Affirmations for Self Love, Self Esteem, Confidence" by Lavendaire: youtube.com/watch?v=yo1pJ_D-H3M
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Living with my mom
01:09 - Dating for the first time
06:24 - Anxious attachment
08:58 - Shame from childhood
13:20 - Self-love and self-acceptance
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing a blue tank top and sitting in front of a desk as they talk to the camera. In the background there is a string of lights, art on the wall, and a green plant with small bisexual and genderqueer flags.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #AttachmentStyles #AnxiousAttachment #Dating #Shame #MentalHealth #Queer
[Content Mentioned]
"Fuck Purity Culture" playlist by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLP6QdQRBTLO6D5EqycNPytzXkHi_4QHBr
"Older Than I Am" by Lennon Stella: youtube.com/watch?v=-KBh3fm6gFo
@Soladarling_ tiktok video: tiktok.com/@soladarling_/video/7216731160561454378
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Favorite movies & TV shows
04:37 - Favorite songs & music artists
06:14 - What brings me joy
07:00 - How I'm doing mentally, emotionally & spiritually
11:04 - Would I ever collaborate with Fundie Fridays
12:18 - My vet receptionist job
17:02 - Do I still journal
18:35 - Would I ever write a book
21:15 - Childhood chaos: fundie upbringing vs. parents' problems
27:26 - Defining my gender
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing a blue t-shirt and sitting in front of a desk as they talk to the camera. In the background there is a string of lights, art on the wall, and a green plant with small bisexual and genderqueer flags.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #MentalHealth #Queer #NonBinary
CW: child abuse, SA, christian patriarchy, religious trauma
[People Mentioned]
Heather Heath: heathergraceheath.com
Eve Ettinger: eveettinger.com
Kristin Kobes Du Mez: kristindumez.com
Jen from Fundie Fridays: youtube.com/c/fundiefridays
[Timestamps]
Introduction: 00:00
Doc Reaction: 01:04
Final thoughts: 30:13
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes and brown hair, is wearing a brownish green tank top sitting on a couch as they talk to the camera. Behind them to the right are twinkle lights draped against the wall and a desk. On the desk is a green potted plant with two small pride flags sticking out of the pot: bisexual and genderqueer. There is also a small video of a tv playing the documentary in the upper right hand corner.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #DuggarFamily #ShinyHappyPeople #Documentary #ReactionVideo #IBLP #BillGothard #ChristianPatriarchy #GenderRoles #Homeschool #ExFundie #ExChristian #FundieSnark
CW: grooming, SA, DV, emotional & psychological abuse
[Content mentioned]
“7 red flags that you're being groomed — how to spot the difference between a well-meaning adult and a predator” by Ashley Laderer: insider.com/guides/health/what-is-grooming?amp
“What is EMDR?” by the EMDR Institute: emdr.com/what-is-emdr
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro & grooming definition
03:03 - I was naive and vulnerable
05:37 - An in-person conversation
08:04 - Long, intimate emails
12:50 - Secret phone calls
17:31 - His wife finds out [CW: emotional abuse]
26:15 - Weird dynamics & feelings confused
32:29 - Finding the emails as an adult
34:30 - Therapy & realizing it's not my fault
[Background Music]
Title: Small Emotions
hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as they talk to the camera. Their short brown hair is in a pony tail, and they are wearing a pink sweatshirt. In the background there is a string of lights, a green plant with small bisexual and genderqueer flags, and a vase of flowers on the desk.
Closed captions coming soon!
CW: purity culture, christian patriarchy, religious trauma
[Content Mentioned]
"Casual Misogyny" by Janice Lagata on the BAD WORDS podcast: open.spotify.com/episode/3eAHKWHLIAdcLPZLlcqo1O
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro: gender roles & purity culture
02:20 - Dear Future Husband original song
05:25 - Writing letters to my future husband
08:35 - Practicing to become a "helpmeet"
12:17 - "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge
19:20 - Unlearning damaging messages
[Background Music]
Title: Hold Your Hand
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair. In the discussion part of the video, they are wearing a pink t-shirt while sitting on the couch next to their dog, Nova- a black beagle/lab mix. During the song portion, they are wearing a maroon sweater while playing guitar and singing into a tabletop microphone.
#OriginalSong #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #PurityCulture #ChristianPatriarchy #Helpmeet #Captivating #ExFundieLibrary
#DuggarFamily #FundieSnark #Exvangelical #PurityCulture #Cult
[CW: religious trauma]
Happy Holidays!
[Social Media Links]
Annie's YouTube channel: @jesusismygirlfriend
Annie's instagram: instagram.com/jesusismygirlfriend
Elly's twitter: twitter.com/exfundiediaries
Elly's instagram: instagram.com/exfundiediaries
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro
04:22 - Video reaction
26:27 - Discussion
[Background Music]
Title: Lo-Fi Holiday
www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Two siblings are on a zoom call, reacting to a video. They are both white with brown eyes and brown hair. Annie is wearing a green long-sleeve shirt, and Elly is wearing a purple sweatshirt. Behind each of them are lit up Christmas trees, and there is a fireplace video on the tv over Elly's shoulder.
#Exvangelical #ExChristian #ReligiousTrauma #Reaction #ReactionVideo
CW: racism, child indoctrination, religious trauma, & detailed descriptions of the rapture
Part 1: youtube.com/watch?v=y0i32v9WN4I
Closed captions are coming soon!
Resources to address the way Jerry B. Jenkins and Tim LaHaye handled race in the series, and the way they wrote the character Lionel + his family (and all the other characters):
[White Authors Writing BIPOC Characters]
"Dismantling the White Default" by Renee Harleston: writingdiversely.com/post/dismantling-the-white-default
"7 CASUALLY RACIST THINGS THAT WHITE AUTHORS DO" by Mya Nunnally: bookriot.com/casually-racist-things-that-white-authors-do
"Stop moaning about sensitivity readers – if there was diversity in publishing we wouldn’t need them" by Juno Dawson: theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/mar/08/stop-moaning-sensitivity-readers-diversity-publishing
"Should White Authors Write About BIPOC Experiences?" by Bookish Realm: youtube.com/watch?v=_gi9MxpOBvg&list=WL&index=4
"Should white authors write non-white characters? *A closer look at the Whiteness of Addie LaRue*" by withcindy: youtube.com/watch?v=6BmdcNOBSNo
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Introduction
01:12 - Chapter 7: "Vicki's Sad Awakening"
24:22 - Chapter 10: "Finding Each Other"
[Background Music]
Title: Secrets of the Moon
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting on a blue couch as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a rust-colored tank top and a crown made of autumn leaves. The room is softly lit, and there are small pumpkins and flickering candles on a table next to the couch.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #RaptureAnxiety #Rapture #ChristianNationalism #Halloween #BookReview
CW: christian nationalism, racism, classism, child indoctrination, religious trauma, & detailed descriptions of the rapture
[Video Mentioned]
"Halloween is Evil, Demons are Real, and other 'Hocus Pocus' I was Taught to Believe" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=oE9Ddpv7pJQ
[Book Mentioned]
"White Evangelical Racism: The Politics of Morality in America" by Anthea Butler: bookshop.org/p/books/white-evangelical-racism-the-politics-of-morality-in-america-anthea-butler/15267034?ean=9781469661179
Resources to address the way Jerry B. Jenkins and Tim LaHaye handled race in the series, and the way they wrote the character Lionel + his family (and all the other characters):
[White Authors Writing BIPOC Characters]
"Dismantling the White Default" by Renee Harleston: writingdiversely.com/post/dismantling-the-white-default
"7 CASUALLY RACIST THINGS THAT WHITE AUTHORS DO" by Mya Nunnally: bookriot.com/casually-racist-things-that-white-authors-do
"Stop moaning about sensitivity readers – if there was diversity in publishing we wouldn’t need them" by Juno Dawson: theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/mar/08/stop-moaning-sensitivity-readers-diversity-publishing
"Should White Authors Write About BIPOC Experiences?" by Bookish Realm: youtube.com/watch?v=_gi9MxpOBvg&list=WL&index=4
"Should white authors write non-white characters? *A closer look at the Whiteness of Addie LaRue*" by withcindy: youtube.com/watch?v=6BmdcNOBSNo
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Left Behind is about "the rapture"
01:47 - Halloween & growing up fundie
03:04 - My experience reading Left Behind
06:26 - Racism & christian nationalism
08:20 - Clips of author Tim LaHaye
13:57 - Meet Judd, "The Runaway"
15:03 - Meet Vicki, "The Rebel"
17:08 - Meet Lionel, "The Liar"
18:42 - Meet Ryan, "The Skeptic"
20:15 - Reading Part 3: "The Morning After"
[Background Music]
Title: Secrets of the Moon
https://www.hooksounds.com
Title: Deep Stare
https://www.hooksounds.com
Title: Something is Coming
https://www.hooksounds.com
Title: Nightly Chimes
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a table as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing an orange tank top sweater and an a crown made of autumn leaves. The room is softly lit, and there are small pumpkins and flickering candles on the table.
#ChristianNationalism #ReligiousTrauma #RaptureAnxiety #Rapture #Exvangelical #Halloween #LeftBehind #BookReview
CW: religious trauma and mental health issues
Learn more about DBT here: youtube.com/watch?v=1HMQubkRzx4
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Distress tolerance for going through a separation
02:20 - How I was taught about emotions growing up
04:19 - DBT, CBT, EMDR, & group therapy
06:36 - Workbook intro: big feelings and childhood trauma
10:48 - Workbook exercise: write down 3 unhealthy behaviors
14:56 - Workbook section: there is hope
15:48 - A sunny fall hike with Nova
[Background Music]
Title: Rain Clouds
hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting on a blue couch as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a dark green t-shirt. Next to her on the table are two little pumpkins and a lit candle. During the intro, there are a few clips of Elly crying. The last couple minutes are clips of Elly and their dog Nova (a beagle/lab mix with black fur) hiking on a fall day.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #DialecticalBehaviorTherapy #DBT #DistressTolerance #CopingSkills #MentalHealth #SelfLove #CPTSD #Separation #Divorce #BreakUp #Relationship
CW: child indoctrination, religious trauma, pet sickness & death, child ab*se
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My 2nd grade to 8th grade songbook
01:30 - Song #1: "Just You and Me" (worship)
04:30 - Growing up with a worship pastor dad
06:28 - Leading family members in the sinner's prayer
09:14 - Song #2: "Please Consider This" (evangelism)
12:18 - The burden of evangelizing loved ones
14:16 - Song #3: "He's Knocking at Your Heart" (evangelism)
16:40 - My guinea pig being put to sleep
20:39 - Song #4: "The Lord Protect You and Keep You" (grief)
22:18 - Song #5: "The Trial I'm Goin' Through" (lament)
23:59 - Song #6: "Dear Mom and Dad" (anti-college)
27:02 - Song #7: "Love You So?" (kissing/love song)
28:48 - Song #8: "Make Me Forget" (sin/shame)
29:30 - Fear of hell creates religious trauma
[Background Music]
Title: Hold Your Hand
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a yellow flannel. On the desk is a green plant, a small bisexual flag, a lit candle, and a garland of orange and red leaves. The room is softly lit, and there is a string of twinkle lights hanging against the wall.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChildhoodTrauma #ExHomeschooler #CultSurvivor
CW: religious trauma, christian patriarchy, body image issues, diet culture, and mentions of body weight, shape, & size.
[Video Mentioned]
"Therapist Reacts: Paul & Morgan Saying Fatphobic Things" by Mickey Atkins: youtube.com/watch?v=IMV-OPvly-A
Disclaimer: When talking about PCOS at 20:38, I am sharing my experience with this disorder. I totally understand and respect if your experience is different. For anyone wanting to learn more about PCOS, here are a couple links:
[Polycystic Ovary Syndrome]
"Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS): Symptoms, Causes, and Treatment" by Stephanie Watson: healthline.com/health/polycystic-ovary-disease
"What it's like to have PCOS when you’re trans" by Jen Bell: helloclue.com/articles/cycle-a-z/what's-it-like-to-have-pcos-when-you're-trans
[Timestamps]
00:00 - "Fundie Motherhood" as a construct
01:03 - Thoughts on Paul and Moran having a baby
07:27 - Postpartum body image issues & diet culture
10:26 - Being overwhelmed with early parenthood
13:20 - Daddy issues and charismatic faith
16:33 - Perfectionism and mental gymnastics
19:11 - PCOS, pressure to be thin & disordered eating
25:24 - Loneliness, anxiety & shame
29:58 - Final thoughts and future videos
[Background Music]
Title: Happy Journey
hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting on a blue couch as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is in a ponytail, and they are wearing maroon shorts with a brown belt and a floral yellow tank top tucked in. Next to her on the couch is Nova- a beagle/lab mix with black fur. Throughout the video, there are a few screenshots and pictures to illustrate Elly's points, and they read from a red journal that has "faith" written on the front.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianPatriarchy #PurityCulture #Quiverfull #Cult #BodyImage #DietCulture #Queer #FundieSnark #PaulAndMorgan
Image description: Two siblings are sitting on a blue couch together with a string of twinkle lights against the wall behind them. Annie is on the left. They are white with brown eyes and wavy brown hair and are wearing a blue floral button up shirt. Elly is on the right. She is white with brown eyes and brown hair in an updo, and they are wearing a flowy green top.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #PurityCulture
Image description: The background of this video is purple, and there is white lettering at the top of the screen that says "Air Quote Poetry.” In the middle of the screen are clips of Elly in past videos, gesturing with air quotes. Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #PurityCulture
CW: christian patriarchy & purity culture
Closed captions are coming soon!
[Content Mentioned]
“Bad Words” podcast by Janice Lagata: open.spotify.com/show/1XXyIeJAcrYU7hGQGFJySA
[Videos about my Marriage]
"Religious Sexual Shame | My First Kiss at the Altar & Vaginismus After Saving Sex for Marriage" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=qvPRPcEXy0M
"My Quiverfull Cult Experience as a Daughter, Wife, and Mother" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=p5kO3tUe-s0
"Q&A | What I Believe Now & Life after Faith Deconstruction: Marriage, Parenting, Family, and Friends" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=U70FKAob9bA
"My Parents Crashed My Honeymoon" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/shorts/vQDhPWLMcZk
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My husband and I are separated
02:09 - How we met & started dating
06:14 - How we got married
[Background Music]
Title: The Key to Love
hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is wearing a light purple t-shirt and blue shorts. Her brown hair is in a pony tail. They are sitting on the floor against a blank wall next to their dog Nova, who is laying on a cushion. Nova is a beagle/lab mix with black fur and a white diamond on his chest. As Elly talks to the camera, she pets Nova.
CW: child abuse and neglect, parentification, domestic violence, religious trauma
Check out Annie's most recent video: youtube.com/watch?v=wedU0fe8B9c
Follow me on Twitter at @exfundiediaries: twitter.com/exfundiediaries
Parentification: psychologytoday.com/us/blog/healing-together/202001/14-signs-you-were-parentified-child
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Annie's new YouTube channel
02:28 - Being creative together
08:18 - Conflict, tension, and rivalry
30:26 - Annie's rebellion & Elly's parentification
51:53 - Reflecting on how far we've come
[Background Music]
Title: Great Possibilities
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Two siblings are talking with each other on a zoom call. Annie, who is on the left, is white with brown eyes and long, wavy brown hair. They are wearing a grey short-sleeve sweater and sitting in front of a green wall with shelves, a world map, and posters. Elly, who is on the right, is white with brown eyes and straight shoulder-length brown hair. They are wearing a green t-shirt and sitting in front of a plant and some twinkle lights. The background of the zoom call is a picture of a bookcase full of books. There are clips and screenshots throughout the video.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #CultSurvivor #ChildIndoctrination #Homeschool #ExHomeschooler #ChristianPatriarchy #PurityCulture
CW: christian nationalism, christian patriarchy, racism, white supremacy, anti-Semitism, religious trauma, mental health issues, rape, incest, & forced birth
[Dr. Anthea Butler's Work]
"White Evangelical Racism: The Politics of Morality in America" by Anthea Butler: bookshop.org/books/white-evangelical-racism-the-politics-of-morality-in-america/9781469661179
"The Surprising History of the Anti-Abortion Movement | The Mehdi Hasan Show" by MSNBC: youtube.com/watch?v=4NAM2IcX8Pw&list=WL&index=14
"For evangelicals, the moral outrage over abortion is about race, gender – and ultimately, power" by MSNBC: msnbc.com/ali-velshi/watch/for-evangelicals-the-moral-outrage-over-abortion-is-about-race-gender-and-ultimately-power-139557445743
[Anti-Abortion Racism]
“Pro-Life Racism” by Tori Williams Douglass & Alice Hamilton: https://anchor.fm/toriglass/episodes/009-Pro-Life-Racism-ej1e1q
“Overturning Roe v. Wade Is About Control | A Pro-Choice Christian Perspective” by Damon Garcia: youtube.com/watch?v=toY4L5xpi2o
"How The Fight To Ban Abortion Is Rooted In The ‘Great Replacement’ Theory" by Alex Samuels & Monica Potts: fivethirtyeight.com/features/how-the-fight-to-ban-abortion-is-rooted-in-the-great-replacement-theory
“Abortion Restrictions Hurt Women of Color” by Nikita Mhatre: nationalpartnership.org/our-impact/blog/general/abortion-restrictions-hurt-women-of-color.html
“Recent abortion bans will impact poor people and people of color most” by Renee Bracey Sherman: vox.com/first-person/2019/5/18/18630514/missouri-alabama-abortion-ban-2019-racism
“Reality Check: The Anti-Choice Agenda Has Always Been Fueled by White Supremacy” by Mini Timmaraju: cosmopolitan.com/politics/a38393953/scotus-abortion-case-white-supremacy-naral
“Patriot Front's anti-abortion advocacy at March for Life sends a clear message” by Renee Bracey Sherman & Lizz Winstead: nbcnews.com/think/amp/ncna1287952
“Policing and Surveillance: How Texas’s Abortion Law Could Add To Systemic Racism” by Candice Norwood: msmagazine.com/2021/09/14/texas-abortion-law-racism-black-people-of-color
“Abortion Bans Pose A Danger To All Mothers. For Black Women, They’re Especially Damaging” by Stephanie Long: refinery29.com/amp/en-us/2020/10/10015405/abortion-ban-racism-black-women-effects
“Overturning Roe v. Wade Isn't About Christian Morals or Protecting Life” by Dante Stewart: parents.com/kindred/overturning-roe-v-wade-isnt-about-christian-morals-or-protecting-life
“What is Reproductive Justice” by Sister Song: sistersong.net/reproductive-justice
“Ayanna Pressley Explores How Abortion Bans Are ‘Rooted In Patriarchy And White Supremacy’” by Forbes Breaking News: youtu.be/SWYHIo_sMPs
“What Happens When You Restrict Abortion?” by AJ+: youtu.be/Sfo4iYQiGt8
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My anti-abortion childhood indoctrination
04:25 - White evangelical racism
08:48 - The "color-blind gospel"
11:30 - Randy Alcorn's "Why Pro-Life" & other propaganda
16:40 - My 9th grade anti-abortion homeschool paper
30:13 - Christian nationalism & the religious right
[Background Music]
Title: Shiny Life
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a blue t-shirt. On the desk are two green plants and a small bisexual flag. There are video clips and screen shots throughout the video.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #CultSurvivor #Quiverfull #Cult #ChristianPatriarchy #ChristianNationalism #ExHomeschooler #Abortion #RoeVWade
Thanks so much for watching!
[Background Music]
Title: Lucky Charms
hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly (she/they) is white with brown hair and brown eyes. This video is a compilation of her in the present plus home videos of them as a child and teenager. There are four purple titles over a clip of yellow flowers.
Title #1: Sharing stories of... growing up homeschooled in christian fundamentalism
Title #2: Journal entries, home videos, childhood books, & pictures
Title #3: Discussing topics like... faith deconstruction, PTSD & anxiety, purity culture, christian nationalism, child indoctrination, patriarchy, bi visibility, religious trauma
Title #4: Please like & subscribe
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #BiVisibility #PurityCulture #CultSurvivor
[Content Mentioned]
"Jinger & Jeremy Discuss Courting | Counting On" by TLC: youtube.com/watch?v=ik-ZbP0gkZE&list=WL&index=4
"Talking About Courting | Counting On" by TLC: youtube.com/watch?v=bQqQyxPHo9s&list=WL&index=3
"I Survived I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by DOCS ology: youtube.com/watch?v=ybYTkkQJw_M
"THE BOTKINS" by Fundie Fridays: youtube.com/watch?v=WDcsT1Rc-qE
"The Virgin Daughters (Celibacy Documentary)" by Free iTunes Codes 2018: youtube.com/watch?v=HGD0Jbbjug4
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Courtship versus Christian dating
02:47 - Difference #1: Asking the dad permission
04:28 - Difference #2: Chaperones & emotional purity
06:50 - Difference #3: Physical boundaries
08:48 - Difference #4: Courtship breakups are scandals
10:07 - "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris
11:36 - "Boy Meets Girl: Say Hello to Courtship" by Joshua Harris
15:16 - Courtship advocates that influenced by parents
16:47 - Dads are the authority in christian patriarchy
[Background Music]
Title: Romance
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a purple t-shirt. On the desk are two green plants, a small bisexual flag, and a lit candle. There are video clips and screen shots throughout the video.
#PurityCulture #ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #ChristianDating #Courtship #ChristianPatriarchy #ChristianFundamentalism #Quiverfull #Cult #CultSurvivor #ExHomeschooler #Duggars #19KidsandCounting #CountingOn #FundieSnark #StayAtHomeDaughters #VirginDaughters
CW: religious trauma, public shaming, sexism & sexist bullying
AWANA program overview: youtube.com/watch?v=N7KqeVXtvtc
My AWANA experience part 1: youtube.com/watch?v=TNQ4rcSdSZA
My new pronouns: youtube.com/shorts/Z3bCU9iIIKs
[Content Mentioned]
Veggie Rocks Album: youtube.com/watch?v=UgbM16x4OzQ&list=PLD315AiRJktPzXYvlGhCuLUWZJORaAHS0
"VEGGIE TALES" by Fundie Fridays: youtube.com/watch?v=sq4dVkFD4D0
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Introduction & context
01:00 - Being shamed at a parent appreciation dinner
07:10 - Purity culture, courtship, & friendships with boys
12:01 - Being shamed for "the appearance of evil"
16:33 - Sexist bullying & losing a friend
23:35 - Am I still in contact with the AWANA kids?
[Background Music]
Title: Carefree Childhood
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is half up half down, and they are wearing a black tank top. On the desk are two green plants, a small bisexual flag, and a lit candle. There are AWANA home movie clips in the intro and outro of the video.
#AWANA #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #PurityCulture #Sexism #ChristianPatriarchy #Cult #ExHomeschooler
AWANA program overview: youtube.com/watch?v=N7KqeVXtvtc
My new pronouns: youtube.com/shorts/Z3bCU9iIIKs
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Introduction & context
00:55 - AWANA was an escape for me
06:23 - Toxic environment & bullying
08:55 - Clips of my AWANA book + handouts
09:41 - Bible Quizzing & Game Competitions
11:01 - Clips of AWANA olympics
17:12 - Family camping trips
[Background Music]
Title: Lo-fi Beat
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a purple floral button-up shirt. On the desk are two green plants, a small bisexual flag, and a lit candle. There are AWANA home movie clips throughout the video.
#AWANA #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #Cult #ExHomeschooler
CW: bi erasure, queerphobia, misogyny, & religious trauma. Also, grooming + sexual assault in a book series from 12:35 - 17:09.
My new pronouns: youtube.com/shorts/Z3bCU9iIIKs?feature=share
[Bisexuality Resources]
"Bi+ Info: What it Means to Be a B(ee)" by the Bisexual Resource Center: biresource.org/bi-info
"Bisexual Erasure" by GLAAD: glaad.org/accordionview/bisexual-erasure
"Bisexuality+ and Christianity" by J.R. Yussuf and Rachel Siden: biresource.org/bi-info/bisexuality-and-christianity
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Bi erasure in christian fundamentalism
03:17 - Childhood sign #1: Age 4
07:43 - Childhood sign #2: Age 13
12:34 - Childhood sign #3: Age 16/17 [CW: grooming + SA]
17:09 - Bi & Queer people are valid!
[Background Music]
Title: Still
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a black tank top and a flower crown in the bisexual flag colors. On the desk are two lit candles, two green plants, and a small bisexual flag. Throughout the video, there are screenshots and video clips to illustrate her points. There is also a short clip at the end of their dog Nova (a black Beagador) on a walk.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #BiVisibility #Queer
Here is a wonderful video that helped give me the courage to take this personal step:
"Kristin and Jen Have New Pronouns" by The Kitchen & Jorn Show: youtube.com/watch?v=0NsMdzU6qPc
Thanks so much for watching, and I'll see you in the next video! :)
Image description: Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair. Her face fills up the screen as they talk to the camera.
#LGBTQ #Queer #Pronouns #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma
CW: white supremacy, racism, queerphobia, transphobia, religious trauma, & the U.S. capitol insurrection
My AWANA experience, part 1: youtube.com/watch?v=TNQ4rcSdSZA
[Content Mentioned]
“'We the People' - the three most misunderstood words in US history | Mark Charles | TEDxTysons” by TEDx Talks: youtube.com/watch?v=HOktqY5wY4A&t=1s
“Stand-up Comedy | AWANA, Christianity, and Cults | Chelsea Burns” by Chelsea Burns: youtube.com/watch?v=OzsZ_7TRTms
[Christian Nationalism Resources]
“Jesus and John Wayne: How White Evangelicals Corrupted a Faith and Fractured a Nation” by Kristin Kobes Du Mez: bookshop.org/books/jesus-and-john-wayne-how-white-evangelicals-corrupted-a-faith-and-fractured-a-nation-9781631499050/9781631495731
"White Evangelical Racism: The Politics of Morality in America" by Anthea Butler: bookshop.org/books/white-evangelical-racism-the-politics-of-morality-in-america/9781469661179
"White Evangelical Racism with Dr. Anthea Butler" by Blake Chastain on the Exvangelical podcast: exvangelicalpodcast.com/white-evangelical-racism-with-dr-anthea-butler
“Orange Wave, Episode 1” by Bradley Onishi on the Straight White American Jesus podcast: https://anchor.fm/straightwhiteamericanjesu/episodes/Orange-Wave--Episode-1-e1iiqfk
“Keeping Up With The D-List Fundies: The Rodrigues Family and the Capitol Riots” by Gabs with Abigail: youtube.com/watch?v=yVkBsCRMXaA
“Jessa Duggar In-Laws Racist !???” by Gabs with Abigail: youtube.com/watch?v=_FezLn3M3qs
“Christofascists Stormed the Capitol on Epiphany” by Damon Garcia: youtube.com/watch?v=oATeNWHHdew
“Christian Nationalism is Anti Christ - God's Not Dead 4 Trailer Reaction” by Damon Garcia: youtube.com/watch?v=Y4ZP6yGvUNk
“Religious Extremists Mix Trump Worship With Christian Nationalism” by MSNBC: youtube.com/watch?v=zx8tsompfiM
[Christian Nationalism Videos]
"Christian Nationalist Propaganda | Inside my Homeschool "Science" Binder" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=ewalmJTZ7wU
"The War on Christmas | Christian Nationalism During the Holidays 🎄" by Ex-Fundie Diaries: youtube.com/watch?v=CGNK_GVKcw0
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My AWANA experience
01:25 - Approved workmen are not ashamed
03:49 - AWANA flag, pledge, and theme song
05:36 - Christian nationalist child indoctrination cult
07:00 - Original curriculum [CW: racism & white supremacy]
09:39 - Evangelism, scripture memorization, & awards
11:06 - Biblical worldview [CW: queerphobia & transphobia]
11:55 - Training soldiers in the Lord's army
13:18 - The Christian flag [CW: U.S. capitol insurrection]
14:38 - Presentation by an AWANA leader
23:23 - Fundies trying to define "fun"
24:57 - AWANA stand-up
[Background Music]
Title: Presents to Everyone
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Her brown hair is down, and she is wearing a white button-up shirt. On the desk are a lit candle, two green plants, and a small bisexual flag. Throughout the video, there are screenshots and video clips to illustrate her points.
#AWANA #Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #Cult #ExHomeschooler
CW: grief, emotional manipulation, & religious trauma, including discussions of the crucifixion & sin nature.
Subtitles are coming soon!
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Growing up watching Donut Man
03:01 - The Resurrection Celebration
07:19 - Bonnets, puppets, & gender roles
10:14 - The easter story is about Jesus
17:18 - Grief & emotional manipulation
23:13 - Life without god’s love is like a donut
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Her shoulder-length brown hair is down, and she is wearing green t-shirt. On the desk are two lit candles, two green plants, and a small bisexual flag. Throughout the video, there are clips of The Donut Man TV show.
#ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical
Editor's note: At 17:44, I said that I was taught the mechanics of PIV sex. I'd like to clarify that I was given a very minimal description. As a virgin on my wedding day, I still had unanswered questions.
CW: religious trauma, including discussions of the rapture
[Sex Education Resources]
"Beyond the Birds & the Bees - What Comprehensive Sex Education Looks Like" by Education Week: youtube.com/watch?v=aOphfTmwkOE&list=WL&index=18
"Why Early Sex Ed Is Awesome!" by Nadine Thornhill: youtube.com/watch?v=ZulPg8fYu7k
"How To Talk To Preschoolers About Anatomy & Body Safety | Planned Parenthood Video" by Planned Parenthood: youtube.com/watch?v=EinNeciMgpQ
"Where do BABIES come from?!? - Bodies: QUEER KID STUFF #34" by Queer Kid Stuff: youtube.com/watch?v=G3oHkGHz74M
"Updated 'It’s Perfectly Normal' Sex Ed Book: More LGBTQ Inclusive, But Gaps Remain" by Mombian: mombian.com/2021/05/18/updated-its-perfectly-normal-sex-ed-book-more-lgbtq-inclusive-but-gaps-remain
"New LGBTQ-Inclusive Sex Ed Book Will Inform and Support All Tweens" by Mombian: mombian.com/2020/08/18/new-lgbtq-inclusive-sex-ed-book-will-inform-and-support-all-tweens
"Sex Ed For LGBTQ Youth - Five Ways To Make Sex Ed More Queer Inclusive!" by Nadine Thornhill: youtube.com/watch?v=sd-z_SOhPqc
"Trauma Informed Approaches When Teaching Sex Education" by
AFY - Virtual Professional Development: youtube.com/watch?v=Mw-cdL4siEQ
"The Scary Reality Of Sex Education In Alabama | State Of Grace | Refinery29" by Refinery 29: youtube.com/watch?v=j3ej5JBa95E
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Growing up in purity culture
01:59 - Comprehensive sex education
03:19 - How I learned about PIV sex
10:45 - My "rebellious year" & my "testimony"
14:11 - Asking questions & feeling shamed
16:43 - Dream #1: Sex dream with a girl
18:11 - Dream #2: Rapture kissing dream
21:51 - Courtship & I Kissed Dating Goodbye
26:57 - Dream #3: Getting married at 13
31:51 - A quick "paws" for dog content
[Background Music]
Title: Still
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a blank wall as she talks to the camera. Her shoulder-length brown hair is down, and she is wearing a dark blue sweater. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants and a small bisexual flag. Throughout the video, there are screen shots and clips that correspond with the content mentioned.
#ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #IKissedDatingGoodbye #ChristianCourtship #ChristianPatriarchy #BiVisibility #PurityCulture
CW: homophobia, transphobia, biphobia, racism, white supremacy, anti-Semitism, religious trauma, & mental health issues.
[Content Mentioned]
“Lil Nas X - MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name) (Official Video)” by Lil Nas X: youtube.com/watch?v=6swmTBVI83k
Quote by bell hooks: goodreads.com/quotes/295256-the-first-act-of-violence-that-patriarchy-demands-of-males
“Mild at Heart: Sex, Love, and Masculinity After Purity Culture” by Bradley Onishi with the Straight White American Jesus podcast: https://www.irreverent.fm/show/straight-white-american-jesus-1/mild-at-heart-love-sex-and-masculinity-after-purity-culture-intro-and-ep-1/
“Mild at Heart: Series Intro” by Straight White American Jesus Podcast: youtube.com/watch?v=IydqTN6x1us
“Kimberlé Crenshaw: What is Intersectionality?” by National Association of Independent Schools (NAIS): youtube.com/watch?v=ViDtnfQ9FHc
“The Difference Between Atheists and Agnostics” by Learn Religions: learnreligions.com/atheist-vs-agnostic-whats-the-difference-248040
“The story behind the viral photo of Muslim and Jewish children protesting at O’Hare” by Vikki Ortiz: chicagotribune.com/news/breaking/ct-jewish-muslim-fathers-viral-photo-met-20170131-story.html
Tweet by Jo Luehmann: twitter.com/JoLuehmann/status/1154962218082947072
Q Christian Fellowship: qchristian.org
“Lindsay Ellis on Bisexual Erasure & "Straight-Passing Privilege” by SAVY Writes Books: youtube.com/watch?v=RPqvE-kQzV8
“Bisexual Women Discuss: Is Straight Passing Privilege Real?” By SAVY Writes Books: youtube.com/watch?v=pbyDgHH_gEk
“Do Bi People Have "Straight Passing Privilege"? | True Tea Podcast” by Kat Blaque: youtube.com/watch?v=d-6o3u_nxbE
Jane the Virgin clip: youtube.com/watch?v=dfKEeN3lipY
“Meditation for Panic Attacks/Emergency Anxiety Relief” by clean.simple.free: youtube.com/watch?v=sz-cNBAK7Qs
The Sleepy Bookshelf podcast: sleepybookshelf.com
ACEs Quiz: americanspcc.org/take-the-aces-quiz
“How childhood trauma affects health across a lifetime | Nadine Burke Harris” by TED: youtube.com/watch?v=95ovIJ3dsNk
"Dr. Burke Harris and Oprah Winfrey discuss Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) for NumberStory.org" by mynumberstory: youtube.com/watch?v=6In6cnxX28Y
By the Book podcast: bythebookpod.com
“Emily Joy - Thank God I'm A Virgin - Official Music Video” by Emily Joy: youtube.com/watch?v=ChgCOyWp8uM
First Q&A: youtu.be/U70FKAob9bA
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Content warnings & introduction
00:52 - How did my parent restrict the books I read when I was homeschooled? Did I read voraciously?
08:13 - Did I ever go to church camp as a kid? If so, did I ever have one of those intense "final night of church camp" experiences involving rededicating my life?
13:36 - What was the one thing that felt the best to reclaim power over and let myself do when I began my deconstruction process?
15:28 - Have I had trouble letting go of the fear of hell?
17:17 - Do I find myself judging people based on my old beliefs?
18:30 - Do I have any thoughts on how fundamentalist Christianity hurts cisgender men?
23:06 - Why do I say I’m an agnostic atheist?
24:56 - What are my thoughts on other religions?
29:26 - Did I find it a struggle to change my mindset about queer/trans issues after leaving religion?
33:34 - How has my journey with discovering/exploring my sexuality changed, if at all? Do I still find that my old views come in the way of acceptance?
37:20 - Addressing an old video: bisexuality & "straight-passing relationships."
43:33 - What are my favorite self-help resources?
47:22 - How did I get started doing this channel and pick these topics to talk about?
50:25 - Who’s your cute pup back there / what kind of dog is he?
[Background Music]
Title: Lucky Charms
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a blank wall as she talks to the camera. Her shoulder-length brown hair is down, and she is wearing a light purple shirt. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants and a small bisexual flag. Throughout the video, there are screen shots and clips that correspond with the content mentioned. During Elly’s answer to the last question, there are videos and pictures of her dog, Nova. He looks like a mini lab and is black with a white diamond on his chest, wearing a blue collar.
Redeeming Love part 1: youtube.com/watch?v=JNPKhvajrIU
Redeeming Love part 2: youtube.com/watch?v=RnqpeFJPsBQ
CW: Sexism, misogyny, domestic violence, verbal & emotional abuse, spiritual & psychological abuse, kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, sexual assault, pedophilia, etc.
[Content Mentioned]
“Redeeming Love (with Janielle Kastner)” by the Good Christian Fun podcast with Kevin Porter and Caroline Ely: headgum.com/good-christian-fun/redeeming-love-with-janielle-kastner
“Redeeming Love: Assumptions” by Samatha Field: http://samanthapfield.com/2017/10/02/redeeming-love-assumptions
“Redeeming Love: A Book Review Series” by Samatha Field: http://samanthapfield.com/reviews/redeeming-love
“The Cuties conversation is infuriating.” by For Harriet: youtube.com/watch?v=Odm_Eta1VcQ
“Boaz gets ahead” by the Go Home Bible, You’re Drunk podcast with Tori Williams Douglass and Justin Gentry: https://www.irreverent.fm/show/go-home-bible-youre-drunk/episode-36-boaz-gets-ahead/
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro: Content warnings & Recap
02:18 - (Part Nine) Michael kidnaps Angel (AGAIN!) [CW: SA]
13:37 - (Part Ten) Creepy Paul sexualizes 16-year-old Miriam
23:26 - The Unnecessary Love Square (w/ a diagram)
31:12 - A birth, a goodbye, & an escape
43:14 - (Part Eleven) Miriam’s Biblical Plan
52:41 - (Part Twelve) Angel (Sarah) gets saved
01:05:41 - (Part Thirteen) A very godly stripshow
01:14:24 - (Part Fourteen) Affluently ever after
01:16:33 - Discussion guide & the book’s harmful messages
[Background Music]
Title: Warm
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair. She is sitting in front of a blank wall as she talks to the camera. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants, lit candles, and a small bisexual flag. Her hair is down, and she is wearing a blue top with small white flowers and a white cardigan. There are screen shots throughout the video that correspond to the content mentioned.
#PurityCulture #ChristianPatriarchy #ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #ExChristian #RedeemingLove #FrancineRivers #BookReview
Part 3 of the book review is coming soon! Thanks so much for watching! :)
CW: misogyny & sexism, kidnapping & Stockholm syndrome, abuse & domestic violence
Image description: Elly (she/her) is white with brown eyes and straight brown hair. She is wearing a plain white t-shirt tucked into dark jeans with a tan belt. Standing in front of a plain white wall, she is singing and playing her guitar, held up by a brown guitar strap. Sometimes she does goofy dance moves. Throughout the video, there are partly-transparent overlays of clips from the Redeeming Love movie trailers.
#RedeemingLove #SongParody #Exvangelical #ExChristian #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianPatriarchy
You can watch part 1 here: youtube.com/watch?v=JNPKhvajrIU
CW: Sexism, misogyny, domestic violence, verbal & emotional abuse, spiritual & psychological abuse, kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, rape & sexual assault, racism & white supremacy, chattel slavery, pedophilia, incest, forced abortion & sterilization, etc.
[Teen Vogue Article]
"Child Marriage in the United States, Explained" by Ashley Belanger: teenvogue.com/story/child-marriage-in-the-united-states-explained
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Intro: Comments and content warnings
04:54 - Part Four: Meet Paul, another incel
11:21 - CW: rape and sexual assault
16:11 - Part Five: Michael kidnaps Angel (again)
29:28 - Part Six: Domestic hell & an awful road trip
47:10 - CW: racism, white supremacy, and slavery
51:31 - More evangelical erotica
52:20 - Part Seven: Getting cozy with the Altmans
59:15 - CW: forced abortion and sterilization
01:01:32 - These characters have horrible boundaries
01:13:02 - Miriam is only 16!! Too young to get married!!!
01:17:40 - Part Eight: Angel runs away (again)
01:19:55 - CW: incest
01:22:06 - Weird makeup sex
[Background Music]
Title: Warm
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly is white with brown eyes and brown hair. She is sitting in front of a blank wall as she talks to the camera. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants, lit candles, and a small bisexual flag. In the first part of the video, she is wearing an olive green blouse and a light gray cardigan, and in the second part, she is wearing a forest green sweater. Both times, her hair is in a ponytail. There are screen shots throughout the video that correspond to the content mentioned.
#PurityCulture #ChristianPatriarchy #ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #ExChristian #RedeemingLove #FrancineRivers #BookReview
CW: Sexism, misogyny, domestic violence, verbal & emotional abuse, spiritual & psychological abuse, kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, etc.
Redeeming Love Movie Trailer: youtube.com/watch?v=_8RIlIOd_us
[Resources Mentioned]
“Madame Ah Toy - San Francisco's First Chinese Madame” by Malia Miglino: youtube.com/watch?v=Qnwpl-9nkIA
Decriminalize Sex Work: https://decriminalizesex.work/why-decriminalization/
“Toxic Purity Culture” by the Sluts Sinners and Saints podcast: open.spotify.com/episode/38C3tVqZXIaKL1kiCQ31P2
“Girl Defined and the Impact of Denying Your Sense of Self” by the Sluts Sinners and Saints podcast: open.spotify.com/episode/4VS6hn3tX3XTiPzpthE7Dy
[Timestamps]
00:00 - Redeeming Love book + movie
02:41 - My teenage experience reading it
05:13 - Content warning: misogyny & abuse
06:02 - The white perspective of the book
10:04 - The story of Hosea and Gomer
11:27 - Part One: Michael pursues Angel
20:12 - Angel sets boundaries & Michael ignores them
29:30 - Michael's Christian incel rant
33:51 - Part Two: Michael kidnaps Angel
38:17 - Isolation and manipulation
43:26 - Part Three: Evangelical Erotica
47:39 - Michael scares and abuses Angel
51:56 - A super weird sex scene
01:05:06 - Angel runs away & Michael follows her
[Background Music]
Title: Warm
hooksounds.com
Image Description: Elly is white with brown eyes and straight brown hair. She is wearing a dark blue sweater and sitting in front of a blank wall as she talks to the camera. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants, lit candles, and a small bisexual flag. There are screen shots and videos throughout the video that correspond to the content mentioned, including clips of the "Redeeming Love" movie trailer.
#PurityCulture #ChristianPatriarchy #ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #ExChristian #RedeemingLove #FrancineRivers #BookReview #RedeemingLoveMovie