Sibling Sleepover - Songs and stories from the fundie days + throwback Colbie Caillat cover! jesusismygirlfriend 2022-09-23 | Today my sibling Elly from @ExFundieDiaries and I explore our favorite songs and relationship to music from the past. We talk about fundie rules, "freak dancing," our parents exceptions to their own rule, and even get a Colbie Caillat cover in at the end! Timestamps:Intro: 00:00Elly's Micro Deconstruction: 02:07 Our fight about torrenting 04:42 Our parent's exceptions to their own rule 05:53Exposure to secular music 07:57Elly's original Christmas song 09:19"Yeah" by Usher story 10:45Christian school dances 12:10"The Way I Are" by Timbaland story 15:24"Freak Dancing" 16:27Music I listened to growing up 17:54My "stage name" 19:58 Talking about the song "Bubbly" 21:01Cover of "Bubbly" by Colbie Caillat 22:10Dance break and ending 24:07#exvangelical #exchristian #christianmusic #siblings #siblinggoals #cultsurvivor #religioustrauma #queer #queerartist
Q&A - I’m back! jesusismygirlfriend 2023-01-18 | A long awaited Q&A which felt more like a hangout with friends chilling with me on my bed. Thanks everyone for the questions and for dealing with my technology issues and for overall being such lovely, caring humans. It was so nice to get to know you all better as I shared more about myself. Y’all are the best.
Cult Kid Turned Polyamorous jesusismygirlfriend 2022-10-25 | A succinct overview on non-monogamy and polyamorous relationships, this video will tell you all about my personal experience with multiple partners and how I have struggled with healthfully navigating this dynamic. First, I explore what I learned growing up in an evangelical cult and then go on to discuss my past relationships as a dirty heathen adult. I mainly talk about my experience with hierarchical poly with a sprinkling of solo and kitchen table polyamory. I end with my hopes and dreams of being a relationship anarchist and doing consensually and ethically whatever the hell I want! Timestamps: 00:00 Intro 01:00 Evangelical Monogamy 03:14 Introduction to Polyamory 04:21 My Overview Experience 04:48 Single and Celibate 06:05 1st Hierarchical Poly Relationship 07:49 Solo Poly Phase (the ho phase) 08:55 2nd Hierarchical Poly Relationship 10:04 Codependence 13:11 Self-Love Growth 15:43 What I Want Now 16:50 Poly or Monog - it's all good 18:05 Conclusion #polyamory #queer #nonmonogamy #cultsurvivor #exvangelical #exchristian #religioustrauma #christiannationalism #christianpatriarchy #relationship
All About Love by bell hooks - Part Two: Romance, Loss, and Commitment to Others jesusismygirlfriend 2022-10-15 | We're back with the second installment of a book report on All About Love! A deep dive into the remainder of the book, I reflect upon my own behavior in past relationships and dissect what makes bell's words so different than other author's I've read. Spirituality and love is still at the core of this conversation, however we explore more about power, domination, misogyny, commitment, partnership, and how these ideas are felt from an exvangelical background. Timestamps: 00:00 Intro 01:19 Chapter 4: Commitment 08:06 Chapter 6: Values 12:17 Chapter 7: Greed14:10 Chapter 8: Community 19:51 Chapter 9: Mutuality 25:33 Chapter 10: Romance 29:25 Chapter 11: Loss 31:17 Chapter 12: Healing 35:13 Chapter 13: Destiny 36:36 Conclusion#cultsurvivor #exvangelical #religioustrauma #christiannationalism #bellhooks #allaboutlove #bookreview #booktube #love #queer #christianity #booksreview #spiritualawakening #spirituality #Jesus #godislove
A Book Review on All About Love by bell hooks - Love and Spirituality from an Exvangelical: Part One jesusismygirlfriend 2022-09-30 | Today I discuss the first section of All About Love by bell hooks relating to my own personal experience growing up in an evangelical cult and a toxic home life. I explore more vulnerable and deeper topics than I have in past videos. I talk about my current relationship with rage, childhood and spiritual abyoose, as well as how I want to relate to the world as a whole, healthy individual now. Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive of this channel and for being so vulnerable themselves, sharing your stories and uplifting others, including me! You inspire me. Timestamps: 00:00 Intro00:51 Thank you to jesusismygirlfriend viewers02:01 Why I'm talking All About Love06:21 My personal life 08:40 My relationship to rage12:30 Chapter One - Clarity: Give Words to Love13:59 My parents love17:44 Child Abyoose 18:48 My parents love23:00 Chapter Two - Justice: Childhood Love Lessons23:41 Child Abyoose25:26 Chapter Five - Spirituality 26:38 Spiritual Abyoose33:11 Conclusion#cultsurvivor #exvangelical #religioustrauma #christiannationalism #bellhooks #allaboutlove #bookreview #booktube #love #queer #christianity #booksreview #spiritualawakening #spirituality #Jesus #godislove
Interview with my Ex - Justins Relationship to Christianity: Part Two jesusismygirlfriend 2022-09-16 | In this video, I am interviewing my ex-boyfriend of five years. We talk about his thoughts on Christianity when he was a kid, his family, and experiences at an evangelical high school. Time Stamps:00:00 Intro00:29 Justin's Christian childhood05:00 Justin's Parent's Rules 05:49 Negative Impacts of Christianity 08:30 Positives of Christianity 10:04 Toxic Christian Teachers11:17 Altar Calls14:14 Doubts 16:54 Justin's experience in Purity Culture 19:15 Conclusion #christiannationalism #cultsurvivor #exvangelical #christianity #exboyfriend #interview #relationship #religioustrauma #queer
Interview with My Ex-Boyfriend - A conversation about Us, Deconstruction and Family: Part One jesusismygirlfriend 2022-09-09 | In this video, I am interviewing my ex-boyfriend of five years. We talk about his perspective on my deconstruction as a fundamentalist, my family dynamics, and influential conversations we had while together. At the time of this recording, Justin was not aware of me using They/Them pronouns. Timestamps: Intro 00:00Meet Justin 00:58How long we dated 01:22Our relationship now 01:54What was my faith like when we started dating 05:17Internal Conflict dating a non-Christian 07:45Justin's perception of my family 09:35Conversations that lead to my deconstruction 11:25Justin's memory of deconstruction conversations 12:1715:21 Come back next week #christiannationalism #cultsurvivor #exvangelical #christianity #exboyfriend #interview #relationship #religioustrauma #queer
Pornography, Sex Before Marriage, and Open Relationships After Evangelical Christianity jesusismygirlfriend 2022-09-02 | In this video I discuss my relationship with sexuality while growing up in a Christian Nationalist cult and where I am now. Timestamps: #Exvangelical #religioustrauma #cultsurvivor #cult #christianpatriarchy #christiannationalism #ExHomeschooler #queer #sex #sexuality #polyamory
TV AND MOVIES FROM A CULT | Ft. Plugged In online movie review jesusismygirlfriend 2022-08-26 | Todays video is about the movies and TV shows I watched growing up in a fundie, evangelical cult plus a dramatic reading of a plugged in online review of Dear John. Time Stamps:Intro 00:00 Fundie Kids Shows 00:19 Family Backstory 01:14 Plugged In Online 06:51Thoughts on Censorship 10:26 Conclusion 11:08#Exvangelical #religioustrauma #cultsurvivor #cult #christianpatriarchy #christiannationalism #ExHomeschooler #queer
QUEER KID IN A CULT jesusismygirlfriend 2022-08-19 | In this video I talk about my experience as a queer kid growing up in a Christian nationalist evangelical cult. Let me know about your experiences in the comments below!#Exvangelical #religioustrauma #cultsurvivor #cult #christianpatriarchy #christiannationalism #ExHomeschooler #queer
I BROKE UP WITH JESUS jesusismygirlfriend 2022-08-13 | Hi everyone! Welcome to my channel where I put my childhood experience growing up in a Christian nationalist evangelical cult on blast. Subscribe for more! {mentioned} Elly my sibling - Ex Fundie Diaries @Ex-Fundie Diaries#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #CultSurvivor #Quiverfull #Cult #ChristianPatriarchy #ChristianNationalism #ExHomeschooler
