Uploaded January 2018 | Updated September 2026, 9 hours ago
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A final goodbye to the greatest era of my life.
I know I've made many goodbye-type videos for this horse. But I wanted something concrete and official.
This horse has given me everything. I started off not being able to ride him on the correct diagonal to placing in a show and jumping bareback. He is the most selfless horse I have ever known. The most honest. He has never placed a foot wrong with me. He took care of me and nurtured me into the rider and person I am today. I thought he had no more to teach me, but I was wrong. He taught me selflessness, he taught me a real and honest love. He taught me what it means to give the horse a choice, and to listen. Most importantly, he saved my life.
There were times when I didn't feel connected to him, felt he was better off without me, but every comment on our videos made me see differently. You all saw the love and the trust between us, and it kept me going. It really did. That's why I included some of my favorite comments from people over the past two years, as they have always touched my heart.
He was the first horse to really be in my life since Cheyenne. And his love and friendship meant everything after losing her.
I remember the first night I cantered him bareback, and I was so so afraid. But I let go of the reins, and stretched my arms out, and we flew around that arena. It was one of the purest moments of joy. It is a feeling of love and trust that I wish I could live inside forever. And with him, I could always live like that.
I don't know that I will ever trust another horse as much as I trusted him. He made me so brave. I am turning 18 in a week and I have grown up with him in the last two and a half years. He helped me grow, and made me who I am today.
So, this is finally the end of us. I am on to new horses and new goals that I know I would have never gotten to were it not for him. I may see him occasionally if I house sit for his owners, but I doubt I will capture footage or that I will even ride him. He owes me nothing. I will be happy to enjoy the occasional quiet weekend with him, as he owes me nothing else. He does not owe me his body or his mind or his strength. He has given it all and I will never forget that.
I love him unconditionally, and it breaks my heart to say goodbye to it all. But our story was beautiful and pure and I know it will live on forever in the minds of those who loved and supported us from day one.
With all that said, I hope he lives a long, happy, and prosperous life.
Thank you, Blackjack.
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Since my last video had such wonderful reception, I chose to speak another audio. I wrote this poem for Black a few months back.
Video style inspired by my favorite loneoakgrls in one of my favorite videos of her and Angel.
{ hd makes things pretty }
A final goodbye to the greatest era of my life.
I know I've made many goodbye-type videos for this horse. But I wanted something concrete and official.
This horse has given me everything. I started off not being able to ride him on the correct diagonal to placing in a show and jumping bareback. He is the most selfless horse I have ever known. The most honest. He has never placed a foot wrong with me. He took care of me and nurtured me into the rider and person I am today. I thought he had no more to teach me, but I was wrong. He taught me selflessness, he taught me a real and honest love. He taught me what it means to give the horse a choice, and to listen. Most importantly, he saved my life.
There were times when I didn't feel connected to him, felt he was better off without me, but every comment on our videos made me see differently. You all saw the love and the trust between us, and it kept me going. It really did. That's why I included some of my favorite comments from people over the past two years, as they have always touched my heart.
He was the first horse to really be in my life since Cheyenne. And his love and friendship meant everything after losing her.
I remember the first night I cantered him bareback, and I was so so afraid. But I let go of the reins, and stretched my arms out, and we flew around that arena. It was one of the purest moments of joy. It is a feeling of love and trust that I wish I could live inside forever. And with him, I could always live like that.
I don't know that I will ever trust another horse as much as I trusted him. He made me so brave. I am turning 18 in a week and I have grown up with him in the last two and a half years. He helped me grow, and made me who I am today.
So, this is finally the end of us. I am on to new horses and new goals that I know I would have never gotten to were it not for him. I may see him occasionally if I house sit for his owners, but I doubt I will capture footage or that I will even ride him. He owes me nothing. I will be happy to enjoy the occasional quiet weekend with him, as he owes me nothing else. He does not owe me his body or his mind or his strength. He has given it all and I will never forget that.
I love him unconditionally, and it breaks my heart to say goodbye to it all. But our story was beautiful and pure and I know it will live on forever in the minds of those who loved and supported us from day one.
With all that said, I hope he lives a long, happy, and prosperous life.
Thank you, Blackjack.
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Since my last video had such wonderful reception, I chose to speak another audio. I wrote this poem for Black a few months back.
Video style inspired by my favorite loneoakgrls in one of my favorite videos of her and Angel.
