Uploaded May 2025 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
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After many months, it is once again that time of the year! It's been ten whole months since the last one... this really shows how little I am editing lately tbh. If I keep this up then these really will turn into a once-a-year occasion. You probably haven't seen the last of me yet though, how else am I supposed to crash out about my toxic doomed yaoi after all?
As usual I have not much to say about these parts editing wise, I'm honestly just vibing at this point. Some are nice, a lot of them are meh - it is what it is! Anything to ignore the dread of an unknown future that's waiting for me post graduation in four months... god, help. Absolutely insane to think about that when I post the next of these collections I might be (hopefully) employed, someone get me out of here please-
(also for some reason some of these parts rendered kind of crusty, I don't know why and I don't have the energy to render this again so let's just all pretend we Do Not See)
Information: docs.google.com/document/d/14dYIbxYV1inC01soLINBpbZxbzJbst9Uv4c9_GK3QNE/edit?usp=sharing
Art credits: docs.google.com/document/d/1h-359qbS-pZqqI-oOIIPzQpROouutjWwbSJpDlOSAMg/edit?usp=sharing
MEP List:
01: youtube.com/watch?v=oA-D3hOMVrI
02: youtube.com/watch?v=_ua60css0f0
03: youtube.com/watch?v=Ri5JH3SxjoE
04: youtube.com/watch?v=Nc9496ulNFE
05: youtube.com/watch?v=PpNN7XM72zw
06: N/A
07: youtube.com/watch?v=esrj4KC3q4U
08: youtube.com/watch?v=0JPB9RXbvXo
09: youtube.com/watch?v=0JPB9RXbvXo
10: youtube.com/watch?v=OFptHvIp-4o
11: youtube.com/watch?v=QIc71GjhVnE
12: youtube.com/watch?v=1RdpoXLczEM
13: youtube.com/watch?v=EJ7siIrswis
14: youtube.com/watch?v=9vuhug4lnxw
15: youtube.com/watch?v=0Q1dEr2hA6o
16: youtube.com/watch?v=Ewj06AZibjU
17: youtube.com/watch?v=1grUZDLYYlg
18: youtube.com/watch?v=QinYrx_AbqE
19: youtube.com/watch?v=nhg_jfH-z1I
20: youtube.com/watch?v=qmd410J3gms
21: youtube.com/watch?v=YIBfRn9Qzh8
22: youtube.com/watch?v=ueEoad3V4-U
23: youtube.com/watch?v=J8pLPY2Gnd0
24: youtube.com/watch?v=dIYnFeeARo8
25: youtube.com/watch?v=gyzztx7clts
26: youtube.com/watch?v=IUw58hwDXjc
27: youtube.com/watch?v=L1OGBzLKyDs
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After many months, it is once again that time of the year! It's been ten whole months since the last one... this really shows how little I am editing lately tbh. If I keep this up then these really will turn into a once-a-year occasion. You probably haven't seen the last of me yet though, how else am I supposed to crash out about my toxic doomed yaoi after all?
As usual I have not much to say about these parts editing wise, I'm honestly just vibing at this point. Some are nice, a lot of them are meh - it is what it is! Anything to ignore the dread of an unknown future that's waiting for me post graduation in four months... god, help. Absolutely insane to think about that when I post the next of these collections I might be (hopefully) employed, someone get me out of here please-
(also for some reason some of these parts rendered kind of crusty, I don't know why and I don't have the energy to render this again so let's just all pretend we Do Not See)
Information: docs.google.com/document/d/14dYIbxYV1inC01soLINBpbZxbzJbst9Uv4c9_GK3QNE/edit?usp=sharing
Art credits: docs.google.com/document/d/1h-359qbS-pZqqI-oOIIPzQpROouutjWwbSJpDlOSAMg/edit?usp=sharing
MEP List:
01: youtube.com/watch?v=oA-D3hOMVrI
02: youtube.com/watch?v=_ua60css0f0
03: youtube.com/watch?v=Ri5JH3SxjoE
04: youtube.com/watch?v=Nc9496ulNFE
05: youtube.com/watch?v=PpNN7XM72zw
06: N/A
07: youtube.com/watch?v=esrj4KC3q4U
08: youtube.com/watch?v=0JPB9RXbvXo
09: youtube.com/watch?v=0JPB9RXbvXo
10: youtube.com/watch?v=OFptHvIp-4o
11: youtube.com/watch?v=QIc71GjhVnE
12: youtube.com/watch?v=1RdpoXLczEM
13: youtube.com/watch?v=EJ7siIrswis
14: youtube.com/watch?v=9vuhug4lnxw
15: youtube.com/watch?v=0Q1dEr2hA6o
16: youtube.com/watch?v=Ewj06AZibjU
17: youtube.com/watch?v=1grUZDLYYlg
18: youtube.com/watch?v=QinYrx_AbqE
19: youtube.com/watch?v=nhg_jfH-z1I
20: youtube.com/watch?v=qmd410J3gms
21: youtube.com/watch?v=YIBfRn9Qzh8
22: youtube.com/watch?v=ueEoad3V4-U
23: youtube.com/watch?v=J8pLPY2Gnd0
24: youtube.com/watch?v=dIYnFeeARo8
25: youtube.com/watch?v=gyzztx7clts
26: youtube.com/watch?v=IUw58hwDXjc
27: youtube.com/watch?v=L1OGBzLKyDs
![[AMV] world class piece of art. || Makoto Kikuchi](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fOH7eH1H6uo/mqdefault.jpg "[AMV] world class piece of art. || Makoto Kikuchi
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBY!~
This is actually only a wip but I have no time because of school so yeah.
Im so gay for her man, end me.
Souces: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1mA-7Exz60KguaxO8x3ba1QPkNl54EDrkRSj6NlhTSZY/edit?usp=sharing")
![[AMV] right here. || Happy Birthday Maou!](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fVyJ0eVi46M/mqdefault.jpg "[AMV] right here. || Happy Birthday Maou!
*sweats nervously* okay so as everyone can probably see this is a rushed 2 hour edit because Im terrible at time management and I got home kinda late, but I just had to something for this special day!!
Again happy birthday same soul even though the day is pretty much over now :)) I just love you so much and you video for me made me so happy so I really wanted to return the favor even though you said its alright if I dont.
Its definitely not my proudest edit, but it was kinda cathartic to make something without sweating too much about making it complex and just doing something simple and atmospheric again. I really hope you like it too even though its so simple and rushed! You deserve so much better, you deserve the world actually, but this is all I can give for now.
I know we already said a lot of these things on my birthday, but I am so happy to be your friend even though we dont get to talk that much anymore because uni is a little bitch. I am so glad we actually could talk recently because every conversation with you is so fun and special! You are really such a sweet person and being around you is always delightful and knowing you makes me really blessed. Thank you for being here for me, I really appreciate all you ever did for me and everything you might end up doing for me in the future. Imy so much naked man ♥
SUB THE BIRTHDAY GIRL BECAUSE SHE IS A GODDESS:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCazmM_T1oWkaUQXymkt1yCg
Song: Right Here - Betty Who
Footage: NDRV3, Tales of Zestiria, SDR2
(I love this song so freaking much, its my favourite song of Bettys and Im so glad I could edit it for you!)
Sources: https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=62098604")
![[AMV] with you for the night. || Happy Birthday Kooth!](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fyA9G1FpbPk/mqdefault.jpg "[AMV] with you for the night. || Happy Birthday Kooth!
EYOOO KOUHAI DID YOU EXPECT THIS?? probably not 8)))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE. I hope you had an amazing day with lots of gay owls and presents, sorry Im kinda late actually? But Im pretty busy/tired lately which is also why this thing is rather short. I hope you still like it tho and hopefully its not too lazy! Anyways I hope the gays make up for any flaws in this thing.
Im actually really really bad at birthday messages if you cant tell?? Im so awkward save me. Im so glad to have met you tho and I hope we can talk more soon again. ~ Oh god this is awful #senpout
SUB THE BIRTHDAY OWL, SHE DESERVES IT:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2fDqOfYoQkdqyTVBq63LlQ
Song;; My Kind - Hilary Duff (I hope you like it?? I had no idea what to use)
Footage;; Inazuma Eleven Go Ga(y)laxy
Shipping;; Minaho x Manabe")
![[AMV] the ground beneath your feet. || for Toshi ♥~](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fyvLbCNfqlA/mqdefault.jpg "[AMV] the ground beneath your feet. || for Toshi ♥~
❝I would run through an African desert to meet you at midnight
or dawn or whenever you need. Nothing is to much to ask of me.❞
I KNOW THAT ITS ALREADY THE NEXT DAY IN YOUR TIMEZONE (its not here, I hate time zones) AND THIS ISNT EVEN A SURPRISE ANYMORE BUT I HOPE YOU STILL LIKE IT EVEN THOUGH YOU SAID I DONT HAVE TO MAKE VIDEOS FOR YOU. WELL DAMN, I FUCKING LIKE MAKING VIDEOS FOR YOU SO HECK YEAH IMMA DO IT. Im sorry for the laziness but I said sorry for this plenty of times already, didnt I? Oh well.
ANYWAYS BBY. I know now that you have troubles with all the birthday wishes so I wont say those two words. See they arent even in the title? But it doesnt matter if Im saying this because of this day or just because its true because I should say it everyday again and again but Im not good with words. Thats also one of the reasons I like to do videos instead because the lyrics can express what I feel better than I can. Omg, just how sad is that? xDD
I love you so much and I wish nothing but the purest luck and happiness for you. I know that Octobers been heavy (sorrynotsorry) and not only last month but the months in general and Im sorry that I cant make it better. I know that you always say that I am helpful and all but I just wish I could make it stop. I dont want to see you sad and your happy mood gave me so much hope and spirit, I was so relieved and just happy myself. I want to stay with you for as long as I can and I wont just give up, so yeah, Im still not going anywhere. cx Annoyed yet? ;D Well too bad then because you wont get rid of me anytime soon.
GDI IM GETTING EMOTIONAL AGAIN I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MYSELF JF C
Anyways, again sorry for this lazy thing but I hope the baes and gays make up for it because Serena is a freaking princess and gays are always amazing. Not as amazing as you though, because you are the number one princess for me~
SO YOU ALL GIVE MY BBY SOME LOVE AND SUB TO HER OKAY
https://www.youtube.com/user/mijumaruchan
-insert huge hug and all of the beans precious emojis-
Stay great, hun. ♥
Song: Just Fall by Anthem Lights
Footage: Pokemon, Akatsuki no Yona, Servamp
Characters: Serena, Jae-ha x Kija, Lawlicht")
![[PEC] love is not a choice. || Day 28](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/g8bQIHp05DM/mqdefault.jpg "[PEC] love is not a choice. || Day 28
Me? Uploading PEC on time without cheating Youtube?? Unbelievable.
Day 28: Biromantic Pride
30 minutes time limit.
I dont have much to say except its not that bad?? Honestly it doesnt even look that much simpler than my regular editing which doesnt say anything good about my usual stuff tbh... But yeah it just proves that Im always lazy and fast because I always do the same effects hoo-fucking-ray!
Honestly Ive been dying to edit Ibuki for a bi-prompt so here we are with our good girl!! She is a true blessing and such a sweetheart and dork, I love her so much aaah! Also she is such a bi icon basically, I mean her hair says it all.
Also I know I edited this song once before, but I will never get tired of it, its the representation in music we deserve, god bless.
PS: those flashes look kinda off, but do I really care?
Song: Girls/Girls/Boys - Panic! at the Disco
Footage: Danganronpa 2
Time taken: 30 minutes duh")
![[collab] forgive me friend. || for Toshi ♥](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hkQXmJkmjS0/mqdefault.jpg "[collab] forgive me friend. || for Toshi ♥
First of all this is a beautiful one day IC with the stunning Shellybean, you did so well and I love you SO much, thank you for everything you do for me! Please sub her, you wont regret it!!
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0XfTzewhLbmKI4ED4iqSlQ
Part 1: xShelly || Haikyuu
Part 2: CosmicSOUL || Hetalia
Part 3: xShelly || Your Lie In April
Part 4: CosmicSOUL || Madoka Magica
Song: Forgive Me Friend - Smith & Thell
This isnt my usual description format but I put the info at the top in case you do not want to read my word vomit essay- I dont blame you but I need this right now so please bear with me fsdhjfkfa
This is a very special project that is really dear to me because it is dedicated to a very good friend of ours. Its been exactly one year without you now. I honestly cant put into words how I feel about this. It doesnt seem that long at all and at the same time it feels longer because the moments of the last one or two years that we did spend together were so far and few in between. It almost feels like you have been out of reach for so long that not much has changed, which is an absolutely terrible thing to think. And I am sorry. I am so fucking sorry. For everything. I know you would say its not my fault and that I did a lot for you but its hard to remember now. Its hard to believe when the end result stayed the same as if I never did a thing. Its so hard to remember anything. Im okay most of the time and I dont really think about you often... Does that make you sad? Or are you glad that I can go on living without hurting? But I do hurt. Whenever I remember, whenever someone or something does remind me of you it still hurts so much. Sometimes even that is fine but other times I just want to curl up and cry for hours. Sometimes its both things after one another. I dont want to forget. You deserve so much better than that, deserve a better FRIEND than that. I want to remember the times we laughed and talked about our interest for hours but those times are so far away now. I want to remember but its so difficult when the only things I do remember are the bad times at the end and my constant worry. I want to remember loving you. I always loved you, even at the worst times and at the end when you were barely around but it doesnt feel the same as it did and I cant stand it. I also cant stand not knowing what happened. Not knowing is worse than anything, I told you that before and I still mean it. I know it is unlikely that you are still here but sometimes I cant help but hope, even if its not true... I miss you so much. I wish you could see me now and watch me grow even more. I always wanted nothing more than to see a day you would be happy... But that day didnt come, did it? At least not the way I wanted it to... I hope you can finally rest easy now and that you didnt have any regrets. You left a trace in my soul that I will never forget even though my memories are already fading... A wound that might never heal but I dont regret it. I could never regret meeting you and loving you even if it hurt a lot of times. You meant so much to me, I cant put it in words. I wish things had gone differently, that I could have done more and that you could have gotten a chance to live life more fully... I may forget these times but the emotions I felt will stay with me. I am glad that a part of you will always be around me. I hope you can be proud of me. I hope you can forgive me that I can only seem to remember the sad times now. I hope you would still love the person I have become since the last time we REALLY spoke because I know that I would love any kind of person you would have become. Thank you for everything Toshi. I miss you so much. Thank you for being an important person in my life. Thank you for talking to me and making me laugh harder and cry harder than any other person I have ever met. I dont believe in souls or the afterlife but if there is even a slight chance that it exists I hope that you are happy now. I hope we can meet again one day and that maybe you keep on looking out for me. You might even see this video that I made with your lovely kouhai and the things you loved! I hope it makes you smile even though some parts are sad. All I wanted was for you to be happy really and I loved making videos for because it felt like they made you happy, even just a tiny bit. I know now that there was no way this little bit of happiness could have been enough. You also need to find happiness yourself for that. But even so it made me really happy when you said I was one of the reasons you lived and fought for so long. It probably shouldnt have but it did. Thats why I want to keep on living the best way I can too. It is what you would have wanted I am sure. And if we meet again I will have a lot of things to tell you! I dont actually believe it but I can still dream right? I love you always, I hope you knew this at the end. I will always remember it even if I forget everything else.")
![[AMV] pastel fades into black and white. || VERY!!! late 4 Years Editing Anniversary!](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/i7X0cR2MZTQ/mqdefault.jpg "[AMV] pastel fades into black and white. || VERY!!! late 4 Years Editing Anniversary!
V3 spoilers, we die like men. [starts at 0:13 btw]
me: I need so much more cute and fluffy Kiibouma, these children deserve all the good in the world!!
also me: -adds chapter 5 and 6 angst to a perfectly pure and happy edit-
NO BUT HONESTLY THIS AMV MEANS A LOT TO ME?? It feels like its been quite a while since I ever edited this much in one video and FX too? Holy shit man.
No but seriously I love this ship a lot in all the healthy ways, but every upload with them still feels like russian roulette and a confession all over again for some reason...
ALSO I WAS INSPIRED TO TRY THIS SORT OF PASTEL PIXEL STYLE AND I REALLY ENJOYED IT A LOT ITS SUPER FUN! Maybe I will use it again in a mep part with a fitting song or something~
Actually I started this almost a month ago and was like 2/3 done when life got in the way yet again and I wanted to upload this on the 18th February for my anni, but oh well;;
I guess here it is now finally?? Idk its kind of a surprise Im still here, especially considering how dead Ive been lately and how often I thought about quitting, but 4 years is a lot and editing basically was a constant through most of my teenage years so its hard to let go I guess? I hope I can manage to edit a bit more once I graduate though and maybe find some motivation again in the meantime!!
Thank you so much for all the people who stuck with me through this hell of a ride, the studios I used to be in and those Im still with now, old and new friends and friends who arent even editing anymore, I owe you all so much and I wouldnt be who I am now without my experiences here! I know Im not really active anymore, but it still means a lot to me that there are still people willing to watch over me and follow my improvement and all.
So Im basically dedicating this to everyone who has been there and who is still talking to me somehow (yall know who you are), but ESPECIALLY to Maou because same soul is strong and I might not have finished this project without you, sorry for always ranting to you about it xDD
I love you all so much!!~
Song: Dream by JubyPhonic
Footage: Kiibouma (Danganronpa V3)
Time taken: around 5 days?
Layers: 145 IM GONNA CRY
Sources: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1BkbGtIQcTVdfoZaW6nBl7uXdHQJNQICh8pvH-8T9zCs/edit?usp=sharing")
