![[IO2M] 34. Diabarha - Grow Up @Diabarha](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Zxkz4Op1EdM/maxresdefault.jpg)
Uploaded November 2024 | Updated September 2026, 6 days ago
=== _GROW UP ===
It's the thing that people tell you when they want you to quit fun and focus on problems instead.
Ilda got older only physically, but mentally is still a little kid. Spends all day long with her dolls and puppies, writing different scenarios for them. And she's okay with that, in opposite to anyone else.
The thing people say, when they feel jealous that "you don't have any problems".
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2M's general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Autism youtube.com/watch?v=DdxvXxwZ8cc
~~~
Title: Grow Up
Track number: 34/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Supertone 22000 BPM
Used scale(s): F# Minor N
YT playlist: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.
=== _GROW UP ===
It's the thing that people tell you when they want you to quit fun and focus on problems instead.
Ilda got older only physically, but mentally is still a little kid. Spends all day long with her dolls and puppies, writing different scenarios for them. And she's okay with that, in opposite to anyone else.
The thing people say, when they feel jealous that "you don't have any problems".
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2M's general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Autism youtube.com/watch?v=DdxvXxwZ8cc
~~~
Title: Grow Up
Track number: 34/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Supertone 22000 BPM
Used scale(s): F# Minor N
YT playlist: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.
![[IO2M] 34. Diabarha - Grow Up](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Zxkz4Op1EdM/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 34. Diabarha - Grow Up
_GROW UP
Its the thing that people tell you when they want you to quit fun and focus on problems instead.
Ilda got older only physically, but mentally is still a little kid. Spends all day long with her dolls and puppies, writing different scenarios for them. And shes okay with that, in opposite to anyone else.
The thing people say, when they feel jealous that you dont have any problems.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Autism https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DdxvXxwZ8cc
~~~
Title: Grow Up
Track number: 34/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Supertone 22000 BPM
Used scale(s): F# Minor N
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[Extratone] 06. Diabarha - Flesh Falling Apart](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/_88eSLAIzTY/mqdefault.jpg "[Extratone] 06. Diabarha - Flesh Falling Apart
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
CRIMINAL RECORD 18.10.2022
Female, 24, medicine student, arrested for stealing corpses from crematory, accused of desecration of a corpse and causing risk of disease transmission.
The suspect was detained by security guard from her workplace while attempting to load suspicious crate into a car trunk; the crate contained a single stolen corpse of man, died at age of 45. Suspect was arrested after Police has arrived to the place of event.
Investigation at suspects home found two mummified full bodies, 17 preserved body parts including hands, arms and feet; an industrial refrigerator filled with sorted and precisely arranged dissected internal organs. All human parts were coming from the crematory. Suspect was collecting anatomy and medicine textbooks. Further investigation of electronic devices showed large history of browsing anatomy-related materials and several links to organ trafficking websites from Darknet that are known to Police. Investigation not found any traces or signs that suspect was ever murdering people.
During interrogation, the suspect testified that shes been only gathering important materials for study, and has not sold nor bought any internal organs or body parts. She also admitted she has been spending a couple of wonderful nights at crematory and that she liked the smell of the oven there.
The expertise confirmed many traces of suspects DNA found on corpses and stored body parts. One stored hand was equipped with engagement ring that was not recognized by the crematory.
Opinion of psychiatrist is needed to proceed with charges.
~~~
Title: Flesh Falling Apart
Track number: 06/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Splittercore 840BPM
Used scale(s): D# +40c Superlocrian bb7
Module: Delusional/Night
Background image: https://www.peakpx.com/en/hd-wallpaper-desktop-annyg
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5")
![[IO2M] 11. Hold The Imagination](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/a7_XftLXQ3s/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 11. Hold The Imagination
_HOLD THE IMAGINATION
...and what happens when you quit imagining things? Like, at all?
You become empty? As if the snail dies, evaporates and only shell is left.
Can feel the void already, and its not the most pleasant thing. It doesnt matter anyways.
Do not leave it forever, Ilda. Hold it.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Leave The Imagination https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmuCeUOz6NY
~~~
Title: Hold The Imagination
Track number: 11/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 350 BPM
Used scale(s): A# Phrygian, D# Minor N
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[Cold LP] 05. Diabarha - Palliation A](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/aFHWxEDnMlU/mqdefault.jpg "[Cold LP] 05. Diabarha - Palliation A
INFO/DISCLAIMER
This song and the entire album are artistic studies exploring the psychology of fear, specifically its different emotional aspects: horror, terror, and creepiness.
All content is created for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not intended to shock, disturb, or promote harm.
All people, places, and events depicted are entirely fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or real events is purely coincidental.
Background story
A patient in hospital, recently diagnosed with cancer, and nightly as the ache treatment has stopped working.
Shes trying to stay composed, but the experience isnt mild. She knows whats happening - and that clouds her conscious.
This track is the artistic audio representation of body aches.
Artistic Fear Scale (subjective)
Horror: 9.5/10
Terror (emotional): 6/10
Creepiness: 2/10
Info
Title: Palliation (part A)
Track number: 05/15
Release title: Cold (LP)
Genre(s)/BPM: Splittercore 740 BPM
Used scale(s): G# Phrygian/D# Locrian
Release info: https://speedcoreabyss.net/releases?id=22
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbDoWuSP18FuAIHhDY9xE0fQ
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records (SAR)")
![[LOVECORE 4] Diabarha - Underneath the Blossom](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/aX03z3pNiDg/mqdefault.jpg "[LOVECORE 4] Diabarha - Underneath the Blossom
Another picture of love, its another, yet common face - two people on a romantic walk, enjoying the moment, they are on a date. Chilling, talking, enjoying their life, having fun - whatever it means. They can count on each other.
With or without obligations, they live either together or separated, meeting when they want... once a week? Twice a month? Every three days? Doesnt matter; they are thinking mostly about themselves, which sounds fine...
Is this what we need? Havent we forgot anything?
Answer is yours.
~~~
Genre/BPM: Speedcore 300BPM
Scale(s): C Minor N (Aeolian)
Release: Lovecore 4
Download link: https://archive.org/download/SplitterkorRekordsDziwko/ - select 137.zip
Background image: https://wallpapercrafter.com/95734-anime-girl-anime-artist-artwork-digital-art-hd-4k-5k-umbrella.html")
![[Cold LP] 11. Diabarha - Perfectly Normal.](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/aXCSgfW1yGU/mqdefault.jpg "[Cold LP] 11. Diabarha - Perfectly Normal.
INFO/DISCLAIMER
This song and the entire album are artistic studies exploring the psychology of fear, specifically its different emotional aspects: horror, terror, and creepiness.
All content is created for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not intended to shock, disturb, or promote harm.
All people, places, and events depicted are entirely fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or real events is purely coincidental.
Background story
Yes.
How was your day? Good.
I was at work. Perfectly casual one.
Haha. You also like the temperature outside? Its average.
The food is good today. The breakfast, lunch. The dinner.
I feel great. Exactly.
Yes. Yes, I am normal.
Artistic Fear Scale (subjective)
Horror: 1/10
Terror (emotional): 2/10
Creepiness: 9.5/10
Info
Title: Perfectly Normal.
Track number: 11/15
Release title: Cold (LP)
Genre(s)/BPM: Gabber 240 BPM
Used scale(s): C Major
Release info: https://speedcoreabyss.net/releases?id=22
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbDoWuSP18FuAIHhDY9xE0fQ
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records (SAR)")
![[PURGE EP] 03. Diabarha - Genocide II 2023 (Extratone)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/bIA8s6N6vvw/mqdefault.jpg "[PURGE EP] 03. Diabarha - Genocide II 2023 (Extratone)
Disclaimer
The audio & video in the above publication are predicted entirely for education, research and/or entertainment purposes, and must not be considered as a manifestation or promotion of any views, ideas or any immoral behaviors and actions.
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At least youve named it properly for the first time, that means you realize its no good.
Think of what they have left - or rather, from who have you taken them - before you literally multiplied their count and left in the crops.
So, are you going to go deeper?
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Title: Genocide II (2023)
Track number: 03/08
Cat. no/release title: SAR-011 PURGE
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone 1060BPM
Used scale(s): F Harmonic Minor
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCxzKu3PV3xRYUd-VXsuqvq
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=11")
![[CoL] 29. Diabarha - Short Circuit](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/bUNgpkz-eHM/mqdefault.jpg "[CoL] 29. Diabarha - Short Circuit
Socialization
Such a sweet sound of short/electrocution you make, whenever you are trying to make yourself same as surrounding people are; when you are trying to imitate them, when there is one human idol above others. The sound could be lower or higher, quieter or louder, but there always is one. For that it means, we are the same as humankind, but arent the same as characters, even if someone says so.
We all differ - at least its not so boring here.
People dont bite. Usually. But if they do, youre probably not gonna expect it. As of the Murphys Laws, almost always reality works in the opposite way youd think it does. Like a plus and minus on two cables, and if you put the endings togeth- BANG!, and powers off, youd eventual- BANG! ...eventually get shocked too, no tim- BANG! to react.
In too many cases we wont understand each other, or - as I like to put it - the interior cant match the exterior, where the barrier is the bubble that you raised around yourself.
...
Hey babe, my drink has such a voltage that it makes you... electrocute. Hehe, electro-cute, got it?
*slap.*
~~~
Cat./Track number: SWAN-197/29
Release: Confession of Lazarus [CoL] @ Speedcore Worldwide https://archive.org/details/SWAN-197
Module: Fisher
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone/1600
Used scales: D# +40c Minor H
Background image: https://mfiles.alphacoders.com/597/597394.jpg
YouTube playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbBxTjo1PKSdUT709zAhyoaa
Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/people/Diabarha/100063559593503/
Speedcore worldwide FB page: https://www.facebook.com/SpeedcoreWorldwide/
Licensed as CC0 / no rights reserved. Dont mention CC3 below.")
![[IO2M] 17. Diabarha - Dismembership Request](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/bmx35jJ_uaw/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 17. Diabarha - Dismembership Request
_DISMEMBERSHIP REQUEST
That girl I met yesterday, again. She asked me is it done, I am preparing my finger, for I am not worthy to give out the whole hand. Yes, I want to do it this night, curious I am what secrets does that girl know, what knowledge she can share with me.
Hope, such a sacrifice will serve its purpose. Tired of waiting the more I am, the more she talks about her visions.
Greet me in there, oh majestic Pauline. Bid me welcome, I am scared of nothing but ignorance of peasants.
~Ildas diary, written in mental health institution
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Title: Dismembership Request
Track number: 17/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Splittercore/Deathstep 600 BPM
Used scale(s): F# Ultralocrian/G Minor H
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[IO2M] 33. Diabarha - Inner Psycho](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/bp3xQs2l5EQ/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 33. Diabarha - Inner Psycho
_INNER PSYCHO
That internal voice, possibly the person, whos telling Ilda what to do. Not always right. Not always true. Its mostly a sign of isolation and creating a thick wall between surroundings and herself, where all levels of consciousness are getting mixed together.
Listening to these impulses might push Ilda in future towards acting in unexpected way. They are never over.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Check subtitles for lyrics.
~~~
Title: Inner Psycho
Track number: 33/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone 8000 BPM
Used scale(s): C# Phrygian/G# Locrian
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[Speedcore] 14. Diabarha - Everything Will Be Okay](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/c1dcsnK6U9s/mqdefault.jpg "[Speedcore] 14. Diabarha - Everything Will Be Okay
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
Male, 34; notes found in personal diary at clinic of mental health:
*unknown date*
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
*unknown date*
where am I
*unknown date*
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
~~~
Title: Everything Will Be Okay
Track number: 14/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 335BPM
Used scale(s): F# Minor H
Module: Depressing/Evening
Background image: https://img-blog.csdnimg.cn/20210521151056654.jpg?x-oss-process=image/watermark,type_ZmFuZ3poZW5naGVpdGk,shadow_10,text_aHR0cHM6Ly9ibG9nLmNzZG4ubmV0L3dlaXhpbl80MDg1MjUzNA ,size_16,color_FFFFFF,t_70
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5")
