Annie Elainey | I’m autistic [CC] @theannieelainey | Uploaded August 2020 | Updated October 2024, 11 minutes ago.
This feels pretty vulnerable to talk about… This is something that is just simply a part of my life, where ableism/internalized ableism have left me with trauma to work through (and I AM working through it) and that I could've continued to keep private for just those closest to me to know.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣... (cont.)
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What opening up about it now means for me is that I officially claim it, I have taken that step forward out of the shadow of shame & internalized ableism. I will practice not being afraid of asking for the clarifications I need or excusing myself when over-stimulated or fatigued. I will not be embarrassed of my stims or when I need to pause to process something or work on my words…⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
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When I speak, there is so much happening internally to get words to come out. I picture these collections of words and phrases that fly around above my head, and as I speak I am working speedily to try to crochet these words into a proper quilted sentence. Every time I successfully do it, I surprise myself, it feels impossible while it's happening.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
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One time I out-louded this visual because I had to say, “The word⁣s are floating so slowly now... I try to pull them towards my mind but the processing is taking forever. I’ll get half a sentence out and then find that there are no words left.. I lost my thought.”⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
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My friends and my therapist have all been very encouraging and they have motivated me to share this part of myself hoping that it could do some good for someone else. I hope this video and anything that I share about my experiences can be used as a tool to help others.⁣⁣⁣

Autism spectrum graph by https://my.vanderbilt.edu/autismandinnovation/understanding-the-spectrum/

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Annie Segarra (Annie Elainey) creates mainly first-person videos on introspective topics, social topics, sharing her experiences and thoughts on disability, body image, LGBT topics, gender equality, etc, as well as creative content; a variety of music/artistic media and short films. Annie identifies as a queer disabled (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) Latinx woman and uses she and they pronouns.