trainerlyra | ask for more || mep collection 19 [2021] @trainerlyra3 | Uploaded 2 years ago | Updated 5 hours ago
lol yes this is all the mep parts i've done this year. lol yes the title is cheeky commentary about that. as always, you can find any completed projects in my playlist on my channel if you're curious

this year i really struggled with my relationship to editing, the community, and mep parts.... i really love editing, i will always love editing, it's been one of my main creative outlets for a really, really long time. i started before i hit double digits age wise lol. i've been at this since youtube was a thing, basically, so it was really weird to take a step back in such a strong way. but in doing so, i got to rediscover my actual love and passion for editing - notice how many long fx-ish videos i put out this year! so in truth, it was a good thing. almost all of these are birthday parts, and that's probably how it will be for the rest of forever - just joining public meps and doing birthday parts and collabs with friends, and that's okay with me. if i want to edit something, i feel like i just...can, now, instead of it having to be in an mep. which is a very freeing feeling!! i do love editing! i do love making things with my own hands that i'm happy with!! and i want to do that more. just for me.

other than that, 2021..... glad it's over lol. no hopes for 2022. my hope is to survive. i'm cutting back my working hours, no more 6 days a week every week. gonna try really hard to just..... be a person again lol. the last two years, esp working in a medical facility, have been so draining. i am so drained orz. and i think that's a large reason i took such a step back.. meps, while fun, are also stressful as HELL, man. and i just... did not have the patience for it this year. and that's okay!

that said, i was able to write a lot this year, which was really nice... if you like any ships that i like, feel free to check them out (shameless self promo archiveofourown.org/users/trainerlyra/). played a lot of fun games. read some great books. hoping to carry that energy with me into the next year!!!! no more sadness. no more weariness about the state of the world. only love and good things!!!!!! that's my goal. lots of games!!! lots of books and editing and writing and doing the things that i love for me and me only!!!! i worked hard on creating things that i wanted to see out in the world in this year, and i'm hoping to continue doing that next.

i hope you all have a wonderful new year's eve and hopefully 2022 is even just. slightly nicer to us all. i hope you get to spend time with the people you care about, and get to laugh and smile and enjoy life, even if it's only for a bit. i hope we can all find some time to take a much needed rest this coming year.
and with that, i bid you adieu.