Uploaded October 2021 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
finally mixed this one right
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Tire iron to the face
He drowned in blood so far away
Returned with magic and a cape
Death is an illusion game
Angels, monsters, beer and guns
America, still looking young
Confessions made in different tongues
We’re falling out like dentures son
Now my heart was broken once before
I hid the key and locked the doors
Can’t let you in nor shoulder my way out
I know by now love is not so sweet
Chocolate, cards, or movie scenes
It’s cold and dark and hurts to breathe
If not love, it’s irony
Cause Hollywood got it all wrong
It ain’t roses, sex, or pretty songs
Although those may have beauty in their right
Real true love ain’t on a screen
Art, or dance, or poetry
They’re fragments of a greater thing
Just one step in a couples’ swing
Real true love can’t be seen, or heard, or sung in a song like this
Or heard, or sung in a song like this
I’ll give away all my secrets
If you really want me, here’s your checklist:
Make my heart pound
Make my cheeks blush
Feel heaven bound when you start to crush
My soul, my love, do you live up to that name?
Break me good
Teach me how to cry
And fill me up when I yearn to die
Is it true love if I’m not weeping your name
Do you keep me up past the twilight haze
And when I sleep, do I dream of your embrace?
Come early dawn will I still feel a trace
Is it love or just a phase?
finally mixed this one right
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Tire iron to the face
He drowned in blood so far away
Returned with magic and a cape
Death is an illusion game
Angels, monsters, beer and guns
America, still looking young
Confessions made in different tongues
We’re falling out like dentures son
Now my heart was broken once before
I hid the key and locked the doors
Can’t let you in nor shoulder my way out
I know by now love is not so sweet
Chocolate, cards, or movie scenes
It’s cold and dark and hurts to breathe
If not love, it’s irony
Cause Hollywood got it all wrong
It ain’t roses, sex, or pretty songs
Although those may have beauty in their right
Real true love ain’t on a screen
Art, or dance, or poetry
They’re fragments of a greater thing
Just one step in a couples’ swing
Real true love can’t be seen, or heard, or sung in a song like this
Or heard, or sung in a song like this
I’ll give away all my secrets
If you really want me, here’s your checklist:
Make my heart pound
Make my cheeks blush
Feel heaven bound when you start to crush
My soul, my love, do you live up to that name?
Break me good
Teach me how to cry
And fill me up when I yearn to die
Is it true love if I’m not weeping your name
Do you keep me up past the twilight haze
And when I sleep, do I dream of your embrace?
Come early dawn will I still feel a trace
Is it love or just a phase?

![Masquerade
this was a tricky one but i had a blast making the album art
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Baritone ukulele capo 3
2 0 0 2
5 5 5 0
2 0 2 0
1 2 1 2
1 0 0 0
2 0 0 2
5 5 5 0
2 0 2 0
2 2 1 3
3 2 1 0
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[Verse]
I’m seeing double again
Where did I begin?
Melding into the Earth
Show ‘em what I’m worth
Ooh
I’m forgetting myself
Is this where I am meant to go?
To nowhere in particular
No longer a prisoner
Ooh
I’m seeing birch at the fore
Close behind, a shade of wine
No sight of the coastline
The wind is blowing hard today
I’m being pulled away
[Chorus]
Should I let it go?
Before I fade
Should I let ‘em know?
When I’m unmade
When I end this masquerade?
Ooh
[Verse]
Where have I gone? Where have I–
I forget myself
Who am I now? Who is she?
She’s gone away
Will she ever come back one day?
Where has it gone? Where is it?
The life I saw clutching her hand
From the mainland
God please bring ‘em back to me
God please bring ‘em back
[Outro]
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Oh...
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I?
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Oh...
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Who am I?
Who am I? Masquerade](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/bwrLu2xoVYY/mqdefault.jpg)

![Ghost Boy (revamped)
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[Verse]
There are ghost hands around my body
In a bittersweet embrace
This ghost boy is holding me
But my arms are cold and numb
There’s a ghost girl who loves me
But I can’t love her back
There’s a ghost boy who wants me
But I’m so worn out from this
[Chorus]
Ghost boy you’re killing me
Ghost girl you’re a tempting little thing
Ghost boy you’re a sweet love to taste
I hope I waste away
Ghost boy’s soft fingers in my hair
Ghost girl’s silky voice is in my ears
Ghost boy, your fingers curl around my throat
But I won’t trust false hope
No I won’t trust false hope
[Verse]
There are ghost lips brushing on my hands, my feet, my heart
They’re tearing through my veins
Yet my body stays the same
Ghost boy won’t leave my side
Stuck like gum, underneath my tongue
I’ll pry him out, I swear I’ll try
But he’s holding on so tight
Maybe I’ll keep him here tonight
[Chorus]
Ghost boy you’re killing me
Ghost girl you’re a tempting little thing
Ghost boy you’re a sweet love to taste
I hope I waste away
Ghost boy’s soft fingers in my hair
Ghost girl’s silky voice is in my ears
Ghost boy, your fingers curl around my throat
But I won’t trust false hope
[Chorus 2]
Ghost boy, I knew you’d lie
Ghost boy, it still took me by surprise
Ghost boy, if it’s all right, I won’t put up a fight
Ghost boy, it’s killing me
Ghost girl, please just let me be
Ghost boy, let’s waste away
For just another day
[Outro]
I love you ghost boy
I love you ghost boy Ghost Boy (revamped)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/cQ4_cxVkCaQ/mqdefault.jpg)


![Gods Meanest Angel (feat. Robot X)
hello againnn, finally got around to mastering this baby... really channeled a lot of unresolved heartache in this one, but now its resolved and Im looking back on it like wow. I was whipped
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[Verse]
Momma told me angels can fly
But I haven’t seen a single one in the sky
They’re all here on land
I held one in the palm of my hand
It was the meanest thing I’ve ever seen
The meanest thing I’ve ever seen
[Chorus]
Lovesick, but without the love
For you, my heart, I’ll never be enough
I’d rather stay bitter than blue
Heartache, but without the heart
For you, my love, I’d tear myself apart
But you’ve gone and grown back your wings
[Verse]
Donning his halo
It’s God’s meanest angel
Where does He make them like you?
I am invisible
Torn down to particles and run straight through
[Bridge]
I know better, tell that to my heart
Build me back together, Lord, Lord, Lord
I know better, tell that to my heart
Build me back together, Lord
[Verse]
Spirit inside my soul
Promise I’m not alone
Flicker, my whispering flame
I am a miracle
Blood, sweat, and chemicals
Yet saved
[Chorus]
Lovesick, but without the love
For you, my heart, I’ll never be enough
I’d rather stay bitter than blue
[Outro]
I know better, you know better
Than to wait in the past
My heart, let us move on together
‘Cause together’s the only way home
Together’s the only way home Gods Meanest Angel (feat. Robot X)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/csIGdG8Y_pg/mqdefault.jpg)



