Ex-Fundie Diaries | Songs I Wrote as a Fundie Kid | The Religious Trauma of Evangelizing Loved Ones @ExFundieDiaries | Uploaded October 2022 | Updated October 2024, 3 hours ago.
In this video, I sing and read songs I wrote while growing up in christian fundamentalism. I share what it was like to have a worship pastor dad and about the burden I felt to evangelize my loved ones so they wouldn't go to hell.
CW: child indoctrination, religious trauma, pet sickness & death, child ab*se
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My 2nd grade to 8th grade songbook
01:30 - Song #1: "Just You and Me" (worship)
04:30 - Growing up with a worship pastor dad
06:28 - Leading family members in the sinner's prayer
09:14 - Song #2: "Please Consider This" (evangelism)
12:18 - The burden of evangelizing loved ones
14:16 - Song #3: "He's Knocking at Your Heart" (evangelism)
16:40 - My guinea pig being put to sleep
20:39 - Song #4: "The Lord Protect You and Keep You" (grief)
22:18 - Song #5: "The Trial I'm Goin' Through" (lament)
23:59 - Song #6: "Dear Mom and Dad" (anti-college)
27:02 - Song #7: "Love You So?" (kissing/love song)
28:48 - Song #8: "Make Me Forget" (sin/shame)
29:30 - Fear of hell creates religious trauma
[Background Music]
Title: Hold Your Hand
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a yellow flannel. On the desk is a green plant, a small bisexual flag, a lit candle, and a garland of orange and red leaves. The room is softly lit, and there is a string of twinkle lights hanging against the wall.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChildhoodTrauma #ExHomeschooler #CultSurvivor
In this video, I sing and read songs I wrote while growing up in christian fundamentalism. I share what it was like to have a worship pastor dad and about the burden I felt to evangelize my loved ones so they wouldn't go to hell.
CW: child indoctrination, religious trauma, pet sickness & death, child ab*se
[Timestamps]
00:00 - My 2nd grade to 8th grade songbook
01:30 - Song #1: "Just You and Me" (worship)
04:30 - Growing up with a worship pastor dad
06:28 - Leading family members in the sinner's prayer
09:14 - Song #2: "Please Consider This" (evangelism)
12:18 - The burden of evangelizing loved ones
14:16 - Song #3: "He's Knocking at Your Heart" (evangelism)
16:40 - My guinea pig being put to sleep
20:39 - Song #4: "The Lord Protect You and Keep You" (grief)
22:18 - Song #5: "The Trial I'm Goin' Through" (lament)
23:59 - Song #6: "Dear Mom and Dad" (anti-college)
27:02 - Song #7: "Love You So?" (kissing/love song)
28:48 - Song #8: "Make Me Forget" (sin/shame)
29:30 - Fear of hell creates religious trauma
[Background Music]
Title: Hold Your Hand
https://www.hooksounds.com
Image description: Elly, who is white with brown eyes, is sitting in front of a desk as she talks to the camera. Their brown hair is down, and they are wearing a yellow flannel. On the desk is a green plant, a small bisexual flag, a lit candle, and a garland of orange and red leaves. The room is softly lit, and there is a string of twinkle lights hanging against the wall.
#Exvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChildhoodTrauma #ExHomeschooler #CultSurvivor
