Uploaded May 2009 | Updated September 2026, 22 hours ago
"I'm not fit to help anyone. Not my family, not my friends. Nobody."
Kind of a personal one. :/ I usually don't finish these- I try and distract myself if things get heavy for me.
Maybe that's my problem. I never face up to anything that I know will hurt.
"I'm not fit to help anyone. Not my family, not my friends. Nobody."
Kind of a personal one. :/ I usually don't finish these- I try and distract myself if things get heavy for me.
Maybe that's my problem. I never face up to anything that I know will hurt.
![Broken F A I T H. [Trailer]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/XM5ISGROpXE/mqdefault.jpg "Broken F A I T H. [Trailer]
So much masking. So so much bad masking. T-T
I havent got the hang of moving masking yet... STILL.
So some of this sucks, where I get desperate and turn to the chroma keyer to neaten up my crappy masking.
Ehheh.
Anyway...
Since I got Vegas Pro, I was thinking about remaking my last (and, um, only xD) Yuna/Zack video, which was my last video of 2008...
But thatd be boring. And I decided it was fairly pretty to begin with, and Id only ruin it with a remake...
And so, this was born.
Well, at the moment the actual video is only ten seconds of random dying scenes. And I used them here in the trailer. xDDD
The actual video might be a while, so I decided against a preview, no matter how proud I might be of some of the masking in the video xD, and made a trail instead.
FYI, Cloud is one of four summons who are vital for the plot and ending... =P
I think the others are gonna end up being Noctis (def.) Tidus/Shuyin (maybe) and Sora/Roxas/Riku. (Maybe.... I might use one as the third summon, too.)
Im writing the story now. xD Theres a specific reason Im using four boys/men/whatevers, too. =D Its an old rhyme, and I think it MIGHT be vaguely religious... but I dont listen in RE (or any other lesson for that matter) so I cant really be certain.
S o n g;; Shattered
A r t i s t;; Trading Yesterday
Copyright shit goes here, but Im too lazy to put it up as I think this song is safe from youtube doom. ;D")
![I Dont Deserve You [IC with France ♥]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/XTSR7zA9qrE/mqdefault.jpg "I Dont Deserve You [IC with France ♥]
...France is so going to win, because hers is gorgeous and mine is boring and depressing.
Check it out; :3 Good luck, France~
(Even though you really dont need it. xD)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KjyMWh1UM60&feature=channel
The gorgeous swirly thing I got from Blue. xDD
Its a vent, which is why I pushed out so much in an hour.
(And I swear, I didnt want to be the one who had to live without you. Thats why I ran away- so I could break my own heart before the cancer broke you. But now... I think Im ready to stop being so selfish. Im not saying Ill be less bitchy or insecure. But know where I want to be, and thats right beside you. Even if the worst happens, I want to be able to say I was there for you, right until the end.)")
![if stars shouldnt shine. [happy birthday, laurin!]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/XitBCeb93b8/mqdefault.jpg "if stars shouldnt shine. [happy birthday, laurin!]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LAURIN!!!
I hope you have a really lovely day!! This is pretty simple but I wanted to put something Clerith together for you for today!
colouring: starstruckbromance (of course it is)
song: stars - the xx")
![P s y c h i c. [Burials and Betrayals]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Y1sjntO_Du0/mqdefault.jpg "P s y c h i c. [Burials and Betrayals]
First off first off first off.
I dont wanna be first. DD: But I also dont want someone to steal Riku.
So, sorry to anybody who was planning on using Riku... But I WAS gonna use Cloud, Sora or Yuna at first, but I thought theyd be more popular... :/ So I didnt.
I wasnt sure how to go about starting this, to he honest. xDDD Its most likely wrong.
The nub and gist of the story, however, is already in the description for the prolouge. So I built off of it and made up some relationships and such. The idea was that Riku sorta got the psychic power from nowhere, as neither his parents or his older brother Zexion (they look alike! Dont judge me! D:) had any kind of abilities. (Well, yeah, Zexions ability in the KH series is illusion, which I didnt realise at first, so Riku has that ability, and Zexion doesnt, okay? xD) So they hid him away, pretending he was normal, even to the extent as to when the hunters came to visit, trying to convince the boys to come with them, when Zexion joined them, so did Riku, hoping to carry on hiding. In the end, Zexion betrayed him and tried to capture him, not succeeding but forcing Riku to live a life on the run in the end.
That all made him grow very very bitter. xD So hes gonna be the angry angsty one with a bit of a temper, the one who has a tendency to resort to violence, without really caring or thinking too hard. Oh, and also, Riku believes that, because he thinks of himself as a monster, and outcast, mainly because the hunters treat him as such, hell never be able to face his parents again, especially since he and his bro turned on each other. He gets the message from Namine whilst on the run after trying to murder one of the hunters (hence why he appeared to Roxas as Heartless!Ansem... illusion, get it? xD) and decides to find out what the other psychics are like... Even though he swears he doesnt care about anything anymore, maybe... a tiny little part of him really just wants to not be alone anymore...
Sometimes people put up walls just to see who cares enough to tear them down.
Lovely happy, charming little story there. =D
The song is the very very very beautiful acoustic version of The Kill by 30 Seconds To Mars. Cut and editted by me, of course; like it could ever be that short. xDDD
x")
![Beautiful Day [Effects, effects, effects...]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/YXKYibvULpg/mqdefault.jpg "Beautiful Day [Effects, effects, effects...]
This is why I refrain from using flashy-ish effects. -points to the middle-
And how I somehow make a dance song boring... -points to start-
And also how I miss out a huge chunk of the song because Im not sure whether to use another Yunie dance clip or balance it out with Tidus. And I cant find many maskable actiony shots of him. -fails, whilst pointing toward the end-
Basically just a test of effects I dont normally use (making certain things black and white, flashy masked colours, etcetera) with a style of song I usually dont even go near with a bargepole. Not sure whether or not this denotes as a preview; I cant bear masking so much, it really hurts my wrist and it doesnt even look good in the end. D:
I dont know who the song is by, or why it was on my computers hard drive under the name of SOKAI 8DDDDDDDD when it clearly doesnt have anything to do with the damned pairing. I thought it might have been voices or something when I opened it. ^^;;")
![Seeking Out the Danger [ CLS ♥ ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Z9xPEklxbyE/mqdefault.jpg "Seeking Out the Danger [ CLS ♥ ]
I finally uploaded somethin!
...But its an MEP part. Sorry.
Christmas has been... hectic to say the least. The last week or so has just been panicking, buying presents, wrapping countless things, family on christmas day, visiting more family on boxing day, more family the 27th, my brothers birthday yesterday...
Plus I have two papers to write over xmas which I have forgotten about.
...And more MEP parts and a BBT entry I have barely opened in Vegas.
But, anyway, most of this is a mistake. The first ten seconds are totally wrong for the story, but I was working on them without my ZIP file extractor thingy and although I had my part couldnt get at the story. I was too stubborn to ask for the story again, I figured I had it all in my head...
Lightning isnt supposed to be there. Doh. But the masking for her took so long I didnt want to delete it, so I plopped Yuna in there as well (I got them mixed up, but at least I remembered Tifa and Cloud- and, on second thought, at least I remembered Noctis and Garnet. xD)
I messed around with some flashes and stuff to attempt to cover up some bad editing. I think I made it worse, but Im nearly out of time and I have let everything pile on top of me again and I have SO much to work on before 2010.
I missed my usual xmas video, too. T-T Im sorry! I just totally ran out of time and basically didnt manage even a second of the damned thing in Vegas. Maybe I can do a quickie for New Years...?
-dies-
Download;;
http://www.filefront.com/15242731/Aquarius.wmv")
![Afraid To S t a r t [ Heart In a Headlock ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZDMxI1IaZ9E/mqdefault.jpg "Afraid To S t a r t [ Heart In a Headlock ]
This is old. REALLY old.
July 6, 2008 old, to be exact. I never bothered to upload this; I dont know why. Ive got a couple of others taking up space on my computer as well, so (Im warning you now) Im probably putting those up as well.
I didnt do much to the original video- just added a texture, watermark thing and put a white border behind the WEIRD aspect ratio. xD According to my computer, thats widescreen, so imagine how tiny it was before, huh?
Heres my original drabble from 08- guess I typed it all out in advance then gave up and dint upload it. ;D
One horrible, unexpected day, Tidus, Yunas fiancée, committed suicide for no apparent reason. He jumped off the edge of the airship one overcast morning, and was killed instantly. Hed given no warning, or even a sign he felt depressed or suicidal to Yuna, whom hed only spoken with the night before. Yuna was heartbroken, and, as she and her best friend, Rikku, kept travelling, she dreamt more and more of him. Every place they revisited, she remembered, and waited days and days each time for him to return to her somehow. She cried often, and, even though Rikku did her best to cheer Yuna up, it never truly worked.
Growing desperate and worried about her, Rikku went to see Lenne, Yunas sister. Lenne agreed to help Yuna, and suggested the two spend more time together. Eventually, they both started a show together, during which Yuna was able to sing about how she felt, as a way of reaching out to Tidus. She told her story, and touched the hearts of everyone in Spira.
Then, one night, after a particularly successful show, she visited the Farplane, and he was waiting. Tidus was there, and, hearing her singing, had found his way through the millions of lost souls to see her again. Hearing her voice, just the heartbreaking songs she sang, were enough to pull Tidus back into the world of the living again. However, when he found her, he was urgent, telling her to run
It turned out that Tidus had given his life to activate Vegnagun, a deadly weapon. But, now he was no longer just a bunch of pyreflies in the Farplane, soldiers from Bevelle were trying to kill him again, and in doing so would make sure to scatter his soul around the world, so that he could never come back again, and Yuna would never be able to piece him back together no matter how loud she sang, or how far she travelled... The two were trapped, and, as the soldiers were about to shoot them, Tidus put himself between the bullets and Yuna. Although the impact threw Yuna to the ground, she was barely hurt at all. Tidus, on the other hand, was dying fast. He reached out for her, as the life faded from his eyes, and his body faded into pyreflies once more. Unable to move from shock, Yuna lay there crying, knowing shed been so close to him again, and hed slipped away
Trapped behind the soldiers as she tried to run to Yuna and Tidus rescue, Rikku was shocked as, when Yuna got to her feet, trying to put on a brave face, she whispered so quietly it was barely audible, addressing the pyreflies disappearing into the night;
I love you.
[ H E A D L O C K - I M O G E N H E A P ]
:3333")
![sing like you just might drown. [IC]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/_-uvZ__En4Y/mqdefault.jpg "sing like you just might drown. [IC]
Aghhhh the final cut of the song is... not the best, lmao, but I ran out of Alyssa clips entirely and was facing another 15+ seconds of chorus.
This is an AU and has a PLOT because I, Boo Boo the Fool, like to make things complicated and I will NEVER CHANGE.
Alyssa gets roped into the group during XIIIs canon plot, after watching her friend Nena Stein die during the Purge. (Luna/Stella, since XIII-2 never has Nena appear in-game). She splits off with Vanille when the group go their separate ways after Lake Bresha/The Vile Peaks, but eventually finds out Vanilles identity and resentment builds.
Or something dramatic like that. Idk. I just love this song, man.
Other peoples ICs (so far):
France: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-QMJ...
Laurin: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDP3lWE8pKQ
Sunny: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lIccz...
Rae: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poOg3...
Calen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afZg9...
Vale: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLPFj...
Sky: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2173...
Joanna: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rI3Cf...
Shelby: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W27Q1...
Zombie: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWRG9LXtnbI
Myra: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0G-1chuxgk")
