Uploaded September 2021 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARIHA I HOPE YOU DIDN'T THINK I'D FORGET!! sorry this might be a few hours late lol I'm kinda sick and have been sleeping a lot these days. but I COULDN'T MISS THIS FOR THE WORLD!! you are one of the sweetest friends I have ever had the pleasure of getting to know. and ik we don't talk much anymore but you will always always ALWAYS have a place in my heart. just exchanging hellos or seeing you in a comments section will always bring up my mood haha. it's not much but please take this little video as a show of my appreciation for you! I hope you have/had a wonderful day (it's nighttime where you live isn't it?) and that you got cake and lots of good gifts :D
I tried to put together as many of your ships as I could!! I'm sorry some of these are just fanart, anime-raws has been down for god knows how long and I couldn't download hamefura or pokemon episodes ;u;
and for everyone watching, subscribe to the birthday girl!! youtube.com/channel/UCCemw4DbiQw6NH-TUqV4RXg
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pixiv id 12036582, 82348682, 14043116, 1554150, 1083472
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARIHA I HOPE YOU DIDN'T THINK I'D FORGET!! sorry this might be a few hours late lol I'm kinda sick and have been sleeping a lot these days. but I COULDN'T MISS THIS FOR THE WORLD!! you are one of the sweetest friends I have ever had the pleasure of getting to know. and ik we don't talk much anymore but you will always always ALWAYS have a place in my heart. just exchanging hellos or seeing you in a comments section will always bring up my mood haha. it's not much but please take this little video as a show of my appreciation for you! I hope you have/had a wonderful day (it's nighttime where you live isn't it?) and that you got cake and lots of good gifts :D
I tried to put together as many of your ships as I could!! I'm sorry some of these are just fanart, anime-raws has been down for god knows how long and I couldn't download hamefura or pokemon episodes ;u;
and for everyone watching, subscribe to the birthday girl!! youtube.com/channel/UCCemw4DbiQw6NH-TUqV4RXg
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fanart credits:
pixiv id 12036582, 82348682, 14043116, 1554150, 1083472
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cause the light inside my heart will never fade
ive been working on this for a while now. as of today its been six months since hope passed away. i dont really know what to say. the other day rowan told me that hope had left me a note before she died, and it... really stuck with me. so i wrote a response and decided to start work on this vid. i know she technically cant read my reply or watch this, but here goes.
September 4, 2019
Dear Hope,
First I want to thank you for taking the time to write me a note. Rowan showed it to me today. You were in so much pain that night, and yet you still took the time to console your friends. Thats so thoughtful. Im astonished and touched by your compassion and no one can ever replace how special you are.
Its almost been half a year since you left. I want to say Ive been doing okay. I started my freshman year of college and I think you wouldve been in your senior year of high school. (I wish youd stuck around long enough for us to talk about it, but you decided to leave, and I dont like that but I know I cant undo your decision.) Yeah, Ive been doing okay, but when I think too hard about you I start crying again. I know you wouldnt want that, but I miss you so much.
I felt and still kind of feel ...like I failed you. Like maybe if Id kept in touch, or talked more frequently beforehand, or commented on your vids more, it wouldve made just enough of a difference for you to decide not to fall off the edge. Like maybe if we were better friends, youd have one more person in your support network, and maybe I could have saved you, but I didnt, because I didnt put enough effort into being your friend. Thats whats been on my mind since I got news of your passing.
Then Rowan gave me your note, and…
Knowing I brought you joy? Knowing you had fond memories of me? My stupid rarepairs and crackships and glorified-powerpoint-slideshow videos made you smile? Its the highest honor I could ever possibly have. Im so glad our friendship wasnt meaningless to you. Im glad I impacted you enough to bring you a little bit of happiness. You were in so much pain. Id have done anything to ease that pain a little bit. I guess I did.
I still wish Id done better. If Id known I SHOULD have known I wouldve stayed up all night trying to talk you out of it. But I wasnt a good enough friend and thatll always be a huge regret of mine. That said… at least I did *something* to make you happy.
Your final wishes for me were to keep being myself and to keep shipping your amazing crackships and rarepairs okay? So Ill honor that. I always found happiness in my weird niche ships, but now Ill do it with purpose, because you asked me to. I really hope I continue to make you happy in the future, cause I know even if you cant literally watch me, you can feel my emotions and my prayers for you.
Always yours,
Red")
