trainerlyra | meant to be alone || joongdok @trainerlyra3 | Uploaded 2 years ago | Updated 7 hours ago
OMNISCIENT READER'S VIEWPOINT SPOILERS!!! watch at your own risk. i'll label in the desc when i start talking about spoilers from past where the webtoon is too :)

ANYWAYS, so the webtoon for the disaster of floods huh....... whew. so i had a feeling i would lose it when i saw it drawn out - particularly joonghyuk's face when he was screaming that it wasn't too late or that he couldn't kill kim dokja. and i sure did! oh man. ohhhhh man. also, wow, kdj's injury? idk why in my brain i was like, yeah, just a hole through his stomach when i was reading. that was so much more BRUTAL then i was expecting, oh my god, i audibly gasped while reading the 98 spoilers

this was one of my favorite more early joongdok moments tbh with you... i just loved the way yjh like, could not even accept what was happening when kdj was telling him to just kill him. then there was of course him losing his MIND during the fight, all bc he thought he had lost kdj....godddd. yjh's repeated "IT'S NOT TOO LATE" while kdj's lower half is hanging on by a thread, despite his repeated talk about wanting to kill him......hhhhhhh

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i REALLY wish we were at the dark castle arc bc i wanted to include The Scene as well in this, bc god, "it was really a good story, wasn't it" kills me every time. that's honestly still my number one favorite joongdok scene i think, even after everything. it's just so emotional - kdj's realization that it has to be yjh, yjh cradling him as he dies for what he thinks is for good.... plus what follows is absolutely wild lol the demon realm stuff is so absurd.
but god i just. i cannot WAIT until we finally get the dark castle stuff in the webtoon........ the part where i put quotes in this edit i wanted to include kdj's realization that he killed his father & also the panels of yjh coming to terms with the fact that what he and lsh had should stay in his past regressions, but again i didn't really know how to illustrate the first part without any panels.... i could've used the ones from where he starts to remember what he thinks are his true memories of his mother killing him but ehhh. not as impactful imo. esp bc i read a thing that said that kdj learned the sacrificial thing from his mother and that's the only way he knows how to show his love,
i also really wanted to include stuff about yjh's 0th turn and his decision to regress... to see what kdj saw in him.... but i didn't really know how to do that outside of quotes and didn't want to fully spoil things for people who haven't read lol. esp bc that twist was one of the best imo.... they really are soulmates. they did everything to save the other person (YOU SAVED ME ONCE, NOW IT'S MY TURN TO SAVE YOU), to understand the other.... god. they really make me so emotional
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anyways (2) i heard this song a few weeks back and i really think it's very good for them, especially from kdj's pov. he really does not believe he is lovable, and he really believes that yjh is so far out of his reach he genuinely doesn't understand how much this person cares about him.... and of course there's the fact that he WON'T STOP SACRIFICING HIMSELF for the people he loves..... (whats wrong with my ways? why can't it make sense to me?)
i still can't express enough how much i love orv, it's characters, and joongdok... kdj means so much to me at this point. the only two characters i've ever related to this much are kacchan and rise.... kdj is unfortunately incredibly relatable to me, lmao, which feels like such a personal confession if you're at all familiar with orv and who he is/his back story.... but you know that's just how it be. and joongdok as a ship just....oh my god. ohhhhh my god. i knew i was a goner from the first big moment. "how are you alone? what did i come here for if you're alone? i wanted to see the epilogue of a certain novel"..... hhh. kdj really just wanted to see yjh reach a happy ending. fuck!!!!

i really can't recommend this series enough. give the webtoon a try, or even just go straight for the novel. all my love for it aside, it's just one of the most creative novels i've ever read. the story, the setting, the plot twists.... everything is so perfectly put together. you really have to give it a try if you like fantasy stuff.

thanks for watching as always! i am coming up near a very terrifying 5000 characters so i am going to shut up :) i'll def be publishing some joongdok fic soon soooo....keep an eye out for that ig. peace out