![Judai Yuki ;; [ All of my anxiety; ] @RockOnRatchet95](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hnmvkJNwghQ/maxresdefault.jpg)
Uploaded May 2019 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
Please watch in HD!
So, course 1 of art school is almost over. More courses to come, and more stress too, I'm sure.
The stress isn't quite over yet, as we still have end-school-year showcases coming up, as well as another thing happening in June that I will have to go to. Not quite sure what it's called in English, but it's a smaller praxis, I suppose.
I've come to a point where I'm quite tired mentally, but I'm still willing to pull myself together and be as productive as I can, this last week, or second-to-last week of school!
All these emotions that this school has made me feel were pretty much the reason I began making this project you see here. I began making it on October 15th 2018, when I was still in my old program at school. I am thankful that I was able to transfer over to the program I am in now, as that was able to lift quite a bit of stress off my shoulders. This new program lets me express myself more and mostly enjoy my lessons more. I've found some favorite teachers, and my classmates seem nicer and more calm than my previous ones, despite that...I do feel like they sometimes ignore my existence. I do like being alone, but I don't like feeling like I'm just non-existent. Although, I was able to befriend a nice person from another class with whom I share a lot of interests.
When I began editing this, I felt like I strongly related to this song, especially this part of it that I used in this video. Although I was inspired by one of FlameyWest's videos when making this, I wanted to add my own emotions into it and visualize the song in my own way.
The editing process of this project was very dispersed, and I hadn't gotten much done with it last year. Eventually its process halted bc of school and other projects of mine, but I still kept this one, with the hope that I might continue it sometime, even if I slowly began to feel like I didn't relate to the song as much anymore.
I finally returned to this barely-started project yesterday, and I deduced that I could still relate to this song in a very lowkey way.
I wanted to show Judai's depression and anxiety in this video, and basically put myself into, I suppose, most these clips. For some of the clips I didn't bother trying too hard to make them fit bc i didn't feel enough motivation to. Some of them I added as a contrast between his happy self, and basically him through the majority of season 4. Some of them are meant to be seen as ''nervous'' or '''trying to stay happy when not''. And others could have a hint of innocence to them.
Also, the clip I added at the ''diluted'' part - I added it bc it's generally my favorite moment in that episode, and I personally think that it's really cute ^^
From a project that I thought would be filled with ambitious effects, I ended up making this project much more simple, buuut I did so deliberately. I wanted a bit of a ''build up'' to happen in the effects, leading up to the chorus. When editing this yesterday, I felt like I wanted this project to be relaxing to make, and to be something I could come back to when I don't feel like doing big effects, or when I just don't feel very well. It actually did feel calming to make, and I'm glad that I could continue working on this again, after so long ^^ It's very uncommon for me right now to use so little movement, hardly any zooms in my edits like I did at the start, but that's exactly why I wanted to do that. I didn't want to try too hard, and if I'm tired, I didn't want to force myself to do a lot. Sure, it was strange for me to look at, at first, but I like it nonetheless. I wanted to keep it simple for what it's supposed to represent. I experimented with s_blurmocurves a little in this project ^^
I rendered this twice fully and there was a 3rd render which I cancelled when I saw the mistake I had left in. I fixed it again after the first render because the chorus was too bright, and I think that near the end it's still a bit too bright, but I don't feel like rendering this again. The first time it rendered, it took around 30 minutes, and the second time it took 33 minutes, so yeah.
What did surprise me tho, is that I managed to do the majority of the video yesterday and today.
I kind of feel like, me finishing this towards the end of the school year is great, because I guess it could show the span of one school year in a video, but mostly the end of the year.
I would like to also add in that it felt nice to edit with anime media again ^^
Ah, and a fun fact about this video that I would like to mention is that I once tried to remote control my laptop through my phone while I was away from home, aaand I tried to edit this project, and eeerr, it was hard XD I added only one piece of text, but later removed it bc I didn't like how it looked XD
I suppose that's all I have to say for now, so I hope that you all enjoy this video, and have a very good/night as well :3
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Song: Bad Suns - Transpose
Program: Vegas Pro 14
Layers: 20
Time taken: ~8 months
Please watch in HD!
So, course 1 of art school is almost over. More courses to come, and more stress too, I'm sure.
The stress isn't quite over yet, as we still have end-school-year showcases coming up, as well as another thing happening in June that I will have to go to. Not quite sure what it's called in English, but it's a smaller praxis, I suppose.
I've come to a point where I'm quite tired mentally, but I'm still willing to pull myself together and be as productive as I can, this last week, or second-to-last week of school!
All these emotions that this school has made me feel were pretty much the reason I began making this project you see here. I began making it on October 15th 2018, when I was still in my old program at school. I am thankful that I was able to transfer over to the program I am in now, as that was able to lift quite a bit of stress off my shoulders. This new program lets me express myself more and mostly enjoy my lessons more. I've found some favorite teachers, and my classmates seem nicer and more calm than my previous ones, despite that...I do feel like they sometimes ignore my existence. I do like being alone, but I don't like feeling like I'm just non-existent. Although, I was able to befriend a nice person from another class with whom I share a lot of interests.
When I began editing this, I felt like I strongly related to this song, especially this part of it that I used in this video. Although I was inspired by one of FlameyWest's videos when making this, I wanted to add my own emotions into it and visualize the song in my own way.
The editing process of this project was very dispersed, and I hadn't gotten much done with it last year. Eventually its process halted bc of school and other projects of mine, but I still kept this one, with the hope that I might continue it sometime, even if I slowly began to feel like I didn't relate to the song as much anymore.
I finally returned to this barely-started project yesterday, and I deduced that I could still relate to this song in a very lowkey way.
I wanted to show Judai's depression and anxiety in this video, and basically put myself into, I suppose, most these clips. For some of the clips I didn't bother trying too hard to make them fit bc i didn't feel enough motivation to. Some of them I added as a contrast between his happy self, and basically him through the majority of season 4. Some of them are meant to be seen as ''nervous'' or '''trying to stay happy when not''. And others could have a hint of innocence to them.
Also, the clip I added at the ''diluted'' part - I added it bc it's generally my favorite moment in that episode, and I personally think that it's really cute ^^
From a project that I thought would be filled with ambitious effects, I ended up making this project much more simple, buuut I did so deliberately. I wanted a bit of a ''build up'' to happen in the effects, leading up to the chorus. When editing this yesterday, I felt like I wanted this project to be relaxing to make, and to be something I could come back to when I don't feel like doing big effects, or when I just don't feel very well. It actually did feel calming to make, and I'm glad that I could continue working on this again, after so long ^^ It's very uncommon for me right now to use so little movement, hardly any zooms in my edits like I did at the start, but that's exactly why I wanted to do that. I didn't want to try too hard, and if I'm tired, I didn't want to force myself to do a lot. Sure, it was strange for me to look at, at first, but I like it nonetheless. I wanted to keep it simple for what it's supposed to represent. I experimented with s_blurmocurves a little in this project ^^
I rendered this twice fully and there was a 3rd render which I cancelled when I saw the mistake I had left in. I fixed it again after the first render because the chorus was too bright, and I think that near the end it's still a bit too bright, but I don't feel like rendering this again. The first time it rendered, it took around 30 minutes, and the second time it took 33 minutes, so yeah.
What did surprise me tho, is that I managed to do the majority of the video yesterday and today.
I kind of feel like, me finishing this towards the end of the school year is great, because I guess it could show the span of one school year in a video, but mostly the end of the year.
I would like to also add in that it felt nice to edit with anime media again ^^
Ah, and a fun fact about this video that I would like to mention is that I once tried to remote control my laptop through my phone while I was away from home, aaand I tried to edit this project, and eeerr, it was hard XD I added only one piece of text, but later removed it bc I didn't like how it looked XD
I suppose that's all I have to say for now, so I hope that you all enjoy this video, and have a very good/night as well :3
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Song: Bad Suns - Transpose
Program: Vegas Pro 14
Layers: 20
Time taken: ~8 months
![Judai Yuki ;; [ All of my anxiety; ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hnmvkJNwghQ/mqdefault.jpg "Judai Yuki ;; [ All of my anxiety; ]
Please watch in HD!
So, course 1 of art school is almost over. More courses to come, and more stress too, Im sure.
The stress isnt quite over yet, as we still have end-school-year showcases coming up, as well as another thing happening in June that I will have to go to. Not quite sure what its called in English, but its a smaller praxis, I suppose.
Ive come to a point where Im quite tired mentally, but Im still willing to pull myself together and be as productive as I can, this last week, or second-to-last week of school!
All these emotions that this school has made me feel were pretty much the reason I began making this project you see here. I began making it on October 15th 2018, when I was still in my old program at school. I am thankful that I was able to transfer over to the program I am in now, as that was able to lift quite a bit of stress off my shoulders. This new program lets me express myself more and mostly enjoy my lessons more. Ive found some favorite teachers, and my classmates seem nicer and more calm than my previous ones, despite that...I do feel like they sometimes ignore my existence. I do like being alone, but I dont like feeling like Im just non-existent. Although, I was able to befriend a nice person from another class with whom I share a lot of interests.
When I began editing this, I felt like I strongly related to this song, especially this part of it that I used in this video. Although I was inspired by one of FlameyWests videos when making this, I wanted to add my own emotions into it and visualize the song in my own way.
The editing process of this project was very dispersed, and I hadnt gotten much done with it last year. Eventually its process halted bc of school and other projects of mine, but I still kept this one, with the hope that I might continue it sometime, even if I slowly began to feel like I didnt relate to the song as much anymore.
I finally returned to this barely-started project yesterday, and I deduced that I could still relate to this song in a very lowkey way.
I wanted to show Judais depression and anxiety in this video, and basically put myself into, I suppose, most these clips. For some of the clips I didnt bother trying too hard to make them fit bc i didnt feel enough motivation to. Some of them I added as a contrast between his happy self, and basically him through the majority of season 4. Some of them are meant to be seen as nervous or trying to stay happy when not. And others could have a hint of innocence to them.
Also, the clip I added at the diluted part - I added it bc its generally my favorite moment in that episode, and I personally think that its really cute ^^
From a project that I thought would be filled with ambitious effects, I ended up making this project much more simple, buuut I did so deliberately. I wanted a bit of a build up to happen in the effects, leading up to the chorus. When editing this yesterday, I felt like I wanted this project to be relaxing to make, and to be something I could come back to when I dont feel like doing big effects, or when I just dont feel very well. It actually did feel calming to make, and Im glad that I could continue working on this again, after so long ^^ Its very uncommon for me right now to use so little movement, hardly any zooms in my edits like I did at the start, but thats exactly why I wanted to do that. I didnt want to try too hard, and if Im tired, I didnt want to force myself to do a lot. Sure, it was strange for me to look at, at first, but I like it nonetheless. I wanted to keep it simple for what its supposed to represent. I experimented with s_blurmocurves a little in this project ^^
I rendered this twice fully and there was a 3rd render which I cancelled when I saw the mistake I had left in. I fixed it again after the first render because the chorus was too bright, and I think that near the end its still a bit too bright, but I dont feel like rendering this again. The first time it rendered, it took around 30 minutes, and the second time it took 33 minutes, so yeah.
What did surprise me tho, is that I managed to do the majority of the video yesterday and today.
I kind of feel like, me finishing this towards the end of the school year is great, because I guess it could show the span of one school year in a video, but mostly the end of the year.
I would like to also add in that it felt nice to edit with anime media again ^^
Ah, and a fun fact about this video that I would like to mention is that I once tried to remote control my laptop through my phone while I was away from home, aaand I tried to edit this project, and eeerr, it was hard XD I added only one piece of text, but later removed it bc I didnt like how it looked XD
I suppose thats all I have to say for now, so I hope that you all enjoy this video, and have a very good/night as well :3
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Song: Bad Suns - Transpose
Program: Vegas Pro 14
Layers: 20
Time taken: ~8 months")
![[ [ V A C A N C Y ] ] ; Cloud Strife & Noctis Lucis Caelum](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hwZASyYMWrk/mqdefault.jpg "[ [ V A C A N C Y ] ] ; Cloud Strife & Noctis Lucis Caelum
Welp, why not start off the new year with this set uploads!
Kind of reuploads, too.
Basically, I wont be making new edits with Final Fantasy media, or Kingdom Hearts media, or any media by Square Enix. I havent been making any since late 2019. However, I did decide to finish 3 videos in which I really liked my editing, and I didnt want to drop them for that reason. This is the first that I finished of those videos.
I believe for this project, it had also transformed into something of a vent, a project that I came back to every now and then when I felt bad, but not solely for that reason.
I accidentally used the same clip twice here, but oh well.
I dont remember much of what I had to say about this on Vlare, buuut, yes, I knew I wanted to finish this one.
I think it was fun to make at most points? The points which didnt involve me feeling bad.
Eeeerrmmm??? I really dont have much else to say, so!! I hope that yall enjoy this thing, and also have a good day/night.
I feel scared to say much in regards to this new year.
Last year was terrible and, I believe that things wont immediately become better upon the start of this year, but I do hope that with time, things will be able to heal and improve.
Still, I do wish you all a happy new year!
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Song: Riverkinn - Vacancy
Programs: Vegas Pro 14, After Effects CC 2018
Media: Final Fantasy XV, Final Fantasy VII
Layers: 31 (found the project)
Time taken: 1 year and 1-2 months, I think? (Started in October/November of 2018 and finished in mid-December of 2019)")
![Another low effort thing [ pc test ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/iCTS49vDdg4/mqdefault.jpg "Another low effort thing [ pc test ]
Oof! I decided to take a break from posting (as in, making things public) until i had more time and energy, as i was busy these months, but now i have both of those things again, so im back again :3 And time to post this! I have a couple of videos (or quite a few videos?) in my drafts and i shall publish them periodically. I still need to write a description for some, and others - i just need to make public. And this particular description, i had written previously ^^ This is the first proper edit I made on my pc when I got it a few months back and below you will be able to read my thoughts on this at the time.
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So uh, I wanted this video to be a confusing experience to watch bc my feelings, and later my editing/rendering process with the video, really was a confusing experience XD
Ive been very vaguely wanting to try video editing on this pc for a while, but ive had zero inspiration, time, motivation, or ideas for songs, and so I picked this one bc it was all i had in mind, and i realized that i reeeaaaaalllyyyy didnt want to think about clips and how much they fit the lyrics, i just wanted to slap effects together, and so, ta-da, low effort edit ^^
I recently got that new pc, and its quite a lot more powerful than my laptop was, however I had some stress and small issues with the temperatures of the pc before I understood one thing about a component. Generally Im really enjoying my experience with it now that Ive been put at ease. However this time around, I think the temperatures made things get a bit worse, or just simply, rendering this wasnt pleasant whatsoever.
the editing process was fast and flawless. the render process?... not so much XD
My pcs cpu temperatures got very high, and they were high basically the whole time, it was slow, there were issues with it stopping during rendering, and it was a stressful experience, would not recommend XD
(maybe getting a new cpu cooler sometime would be a good idea, who knows~ XD)
I honestly dont even really care about the result of the video anymore or the little imperfections, im just glad this is rendered out XD
Had to render this at least 5 times, and it all suuuuccckeeedd XD Im really glad that I didnt decide to loop this any more times than I already did XD
Never minding that stuff though, the actual editing process was really good!! It was really speedy and snappy, no lag during usage, and the ram playback was great. The machine also stayed pretty quiet a lot of the time.
Though, i added the im tired at the start bc Ive just generally been very tired, physically, and mentally, bc of school mostly. And editing this made me tired too XD I wanted to add hxh too, in the loop, bc I wanted the effects to loop at first, not the whole thing, but uh, look where a lack of energy got me owo
I wanna get used to using Vegas Pro 18, so I used that to make this ^^ I got into it and getting used to the program for this video p much gave me no trouble at all :3
I decided to try the black bar effects again here, and i dont use them much bc i dont really like how i do them, buuut, i suppose they added some uniqueness to this video, a little ^^
Accidentally forgot to add a change in a keyframe on the bars juuust before the loop, but to heck with it XD this wasnt supposed to be a full effort edit ^^
Also forgot to copy most of the overlays into the loops, but oh well XD
I suppose that is all i wanted to say owo i hope yall enjoy this and have a very good day/night ^^
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Song: Sergio Valentino - Drive Forever (/ Скриптонит - Положение) (remix by XKVR)
Program: Vegas Pro 18
Layers: 18
Time taken: ~7 hours (Total render time: 39 minutes, 11 seconds)
Media: Jujutsu Kaisen
Made on: March 19th, 2021")
![SWEATPANTS ; [[ Remake ]]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/jvpNVxdSdCg/mqdefault.jpg "SWEATPANTS ; [[ Remake ]]
Please watch in HD if you can! :3
So this is... a plot twist edit XD
So Ill start off by saying that my girlfriend recently introduced me to Bleach and Ive started watching it as well, and Im really liking the anime!! x3 Im on episode 34 now :3
And thiiis here was the result of me realizing that this song could fit both Byakuya from Danganronpa _and_ Uryuu from Bleach, in a way, so then I figured, why not try to remake my Sweatpants edit of Byakuya? ^^
These two are both some of our faves in their respective series, as well x3
Originally I wanted to edit the audio myself, but after failing to get it the way I wanted it to, I just decided to push this project aside and forget about it ^^ That is, until I found this here edit of it on Soundcloud the other day, and even if this audio isnt like what I had in mind, it still seemed like it could be the next best thing ^^
From there, I opened up Vegas and started setting the Danganronpa clips while I waited for the new Bleach clips I was downloading, to finish downloading, and then eventually for the episode screenshots to finish being taken, so I can remember what happened in the episodes better. First I wanted to remake everything about the original for the start, such as the coloring and the effects I did. But after trying to do the vertical shake again, I realized that it doesnt look the way I want it to, nor the way it did originally. Fortunately, I still have this edits project file saved for reference purposes, and when I opened it again I was able to see that?? I did the shake completely differently back then XD Upon seeing it I was like oh thats an oldie bc it looked the way I used to my spins, back when I still frequently used those lol
Then I literally took and copied and pasted the effects from the project into the Byakuya part here, and tweaked it a bit XD But what I did end up remaking there was the coloring, bc I wanted something a tinge different now ^^ However! For Uryuus part I remade and changed the effects, and at certain parts, simply fixed what I would now like to change in my original video, such as making some pieces of text more dynamic, or extending them ^^ I did want to keep it similar, but still add differences here and there. This time I added in horizontal shakes alongside the vertical ones, sooome more glitchy effects. I also added AE into the mix for the watch a hater text ^^ Aaand I also made some text pieces in the opposite style of how they were in the original ^^
This isnt reeeeally a remake, bc a remake would be if I wouldve used the same material but simply approved upon its usage, thats why I was contemplating adding a ? in the title after remake, but, well, I do suppose I have improved upon certain effects from the original? ^^
To be honest, some text pieces were improved upon like this: I just copied and pasted what was in the original, bc I didnt wanna remake it all over again, and then I fixed what I wanted there. A very apparent example of that is the text for the (know) Japanese part ^^
Welp, in any case, it was fun to look back at this video and try to do some effects like this again, namely the spins ^^
Personally, hmm... I think that this edit is quite good ^^ Not my best work, but its alright ^^
Oh and if anything, I added a liiittle shadow of Uryuu on the right side of this videos thumbnail :3
I would also like to dedicate this video to my girlfriend!! x33
Alrighty, I hope you all enjoy this little remake, and have a good day/night as well! c:
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Layers: 22
Time taken: 2 days")
![: . : D0CT0R 0NLINE : . : [ Collab with @EnchantedNebula ] [ Read Description ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/kUcowrwI6Y0/mqdefault.jpg ": . : D0CT0R 0NLINE : . : [ Collab with @EnchantedNebula ] [ Read Description ]
This project was made to coincide with suicide awareness month: September.
Here you can read some general information about suicide: https://www.ndbh.com/suicide
Here you can find a helpline for your country: https://findahelpline.com/
Please reach out to someone if youre struggling, you are not alone and everyone deserves a chance to be heard and recover.
Below will be a description about the video itself and experiences while making it.
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ITS FINALLY FINISHED. GLORY DAY!
Lemme set the scene for yall: its late July, my girlfriend had mentioned at some point earlier in the year that we could make this Doctor Online GMV of hers a collab, and then the day came. The project was intimidating, but i was willing to do it justice and do my best. She gave me the clips that she had set in 2022 for this (in an hour or a couple, nonetheless holy crap thats amazing owo) and id do the rest (and add some of my own clips along the way!)
Early on, i decided that i want to Physically Study older editing styles - I was particularly inspired by SonicStorm12 while editing, but also mixed in some inspiration from other editors and just my own ideas too, as i wanted to do my own take on dark style while also paying tribute to the style of the olden days, as this video was supposed to be one that is purely 2013 vibes, right down to the fact that only older Sonic cutscenes and clips are used. (if any of you would like, feel free to comment on this video as if its still 2013 - that was one of Enchis ideas ^^)
Next picture this: Im working with two computers at the same time - my main pc for the project, and a separate vegas project file with references and the preview screen made Huge on my laptop next to me - going frame by frame, writing notes in markers about what effects i notice and so on. Sometimes a coffee or tea mug beside me, to drink from ^^
I worked on this rather tirelessly for multiple hours for multiple days, editing it more than i wasnt. A whole bunch of August was spent editing this, and even then, i only finished up until the start of the 2nd verse.
Next up was september, with a new uni year and some unexpected health issues along the way, some which left me decommissioned for a day or two from pain - i simply couldnt edit this, not to mention needing to keep up with uni homework and starting a planner. Overall september left me suddenly a bit more busy than expected, but i still needed to finish this!! I knew i could and i needed to!!
That result in making my sleep schedule EVEN WORSE to get this out- ;w; But i managed to get it done by 1:30 AM on the 1st for me! Id say even with that extra hour, our finishing goal was pretty much completed ^^ NEXT CAME RENDERING.
AAAAA Fellas, folks, I had to render this video 3 times for it to succeed on the 3rd time - but each render time was anywhere from 17-22 HOURS LONG ;W; Yall, i wouldnt say i have a bad pc, its specs are good, BUT THIS VIDEO pushed my pc to its limit, and frankly, this might be my pcs magnum opus - maybe mine too - but definitely my pcs in terms of pushing through, and i hope i never have to render smth for this long again on this pc, not in the foreseeable future anyways. It was genuinely stressful rendering this at one point, and at the same time uploading the project file with all of the clips so my girlfriend can download and render just in case - having smth else on screen for too long made my browser reload, and doing Anything too intensive or using multiple programs at once would cause Vegas to combust and crash - 12 hours into rendering, no less!!! When this one was 18 hours into rendering, i had to treat it like a little baby in terms of protection dskjsa
Thankfully i have a laptop, which i was able to use for other things while my pc was struggling in the background. This render finished at 5:06 AM today, 22 hours and 50 minutes of render time here, folks!!
NEVERTHELESS! Im thankful I have been able to work on this project together with Enchi - she was a massive help with feedback and tips to make things look clean and max 2000s. I couldnt have done it without you, my love! x33 💝 and through our group effort and belief, this project is finally done!
And! Im proud of our result! We have worked hard for a long time, and i really hope you all enjoy watching!! c: While there were struggles making this, there absolutely was enjoyment too, and i hope this creative joy is able to show itself in the video as you watch ^^ To some folks ive told about this video before it was done and showed previews - thank you for your support in the creation process!
(btw you can try watching in 360p for the true viewing experience 💪)
Check out my girlfriends upload to read about her experiences when making this!: https://youtu.be/QEB_fZIwm_M
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Song: Zeromancer - Doctor Online
Programs: Vegas Pro 18, AE CC 2021, UVR
Layers: 200 (HOOOO)
Time taken: 2 years and 5 months (total) / 2 months and ~5 days (for me to edit, on and off)")
