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![Cerussis - What Do I Say? - (Official Lyric Video)
Stream and download What Do I Say?
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This song is about not being able to speak up, either out of fear of confrontation or being backed into a corner and forced into silence.
What Do I Say?
Writing - @cerussis_music
Production - @cerussis_music, @SVTINEmusic
Lead and Backing Vocals - @Cerussis
Background Artwork - @kingpagie
~Lyrics~
[Verse 1]
Sometimes I wish that feelings couldn’t touch me
They burn me like fire
I lock myself behind a wall of glass and cower
I know you’re just a liar
Ah, I put my heart out, only to get knocked back down
Didn’t want any trouble
Ah, I know that if I say word, I risk our seperation
Can’t handle confrontation
[Pre-chorus]
Cell of holding, no one knowing
Finding ways to numb the pain
Keep me hostage, what’s the cost in
You and the words that you say
[Chorus 1]
You tell me that I fucked it up
Hold me down ‘cus I’m still here crying
Was it wrong when you called it love?
Said that you care, now you’re out here whining
That’s just how it is
Yeah, it’s true I tried my best
But I’m locked up in my brain
Got a gun aimed straight at my chest
So I sit here now
Oh, tell me
What do I?
What do I?
What do I?
What do I say?
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I know that I can be a little stubborn
But, you keep making this harder
If you want to show you care,
Show that you’re there (That you’re there)
Don’t make this a problem
‘Cus what am I supposed to do
When you won’t back off?
You say you do this ‘cus you love me
But I know I know that’s bullshit
Please tell me (tell me, tell me)
Show you fucking care (Ah!)
There’s only so much that I can take
Before I break
[Pre-Chorus]
Cell of holding, no one knowing
Finding ways to numb the pain
Keep me hostage, what’s the cost in
You and the words that you say
[Chorus 1]
You tell me that I fucked it up
Hold me down ‘cus I’m still here crying
Was it wrong when you called it love?
Said that you care, now you’re out here whining
That’s just how it is
Yeah, it’s true I tried my best
But I’m locked up in my brain
Got a gun aimed straight at my chest
So I sit here now
Oh, tell me
What do I?
What do I?
What do I?
What do I say?
[Bridge]
Cell of holding, no one knowing
Finding ways to numb the pain
I’ll find a way (What I do I say?)
I’ll hide away…
[Chorus 1]
You tell me that I fucked it up
Hold me down ‘cus I’m still here crying
Was it wrong when you called it love?
Said that you care, now you’re out here whining
That’s just how it is
Yeah, it’s true I tried my best
But I’m locked up in my brain
Got a gun aimed straight at my chest
So I sit here now
Oh, tell me
What do I?
What do I?
What do I?
What do I say?
[Chorus 2]
Tell me how have I fucked it up?
Hold me back, punches out here flying
If it’s wrong, why’d you call it love?
Said that you care, you’re not even trying!
That’s just how it is
Yeah, it’s true I tried my best
But I’m locked up in my brain
Got a gun aimed straight at my chest
So I sit here now
Oh, tell me
What do I?
What do I?
What do I?
What do I say?
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![Cerussis & Nicholas Isaiah - Expectations - (Official Audio)
Stream and download my new album - Habits!!
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Deezer: https://www.deezer.com/album/440426127
Expectations
Writing - @cerussis_music, @NCon-to5wn
Production - @cerussis_music
Lead and Backing Vocals - @cerussis_music, @NCon-to5wn
Background Artwork - @kingpagie
~Lyrics~
[Intro]
(No, I really love you. Wanna get dinner?)
(Sure..?)
(Fucking simp, hahahahaha-)
[Verse 1 - Stephen]
You shoulda had low expectations
You shoulda had them from the start
You shouldn’t be here, confrontation
You gotta get out of my heart
You shoulda picked someone that’s worth it
I seem to be far from the top
You gotta admit that you can do much better
So tell me when you’re gonna stop
[Chorus - Stephen]
You shoulda had low expectations
You shoulda had them from the start
You shouldn’t be here, confrontation
You gotta get out of my heart
[Verse 2 - Nicky and Stephen]
Take a seat and listen to me
Have a cup of tea
Understand the problems
Have become a part of me
Maybe if you squint a little bit
Then you will see
Every single inch
Of my personality
Just open up your eyes
Synchronize with the beat
Never let ‘em know
What your next move will be
Trick ‘em with a sucker punch
Hit ‘em with a knee
Figure out what’s expected of me
I mean
Come on
Do I look like a soldier?
Every expectation
That youre putting on my shoulder?
Check my temperature
I think it’s getting colder
Freezing like ice
Stone cold like a boulder
I’m fine, I can handle the weight
Ignore all the blood that’s rushed to my face
I’m fine, I can handle the weight
Put some more on, see how much I can take
[Bridge - Stephen]
You got me stuck in a pit
Just one fight and that’s it
How long you until admit
This was fuckin’ mistake
Make me into a villain
The one in a million
Yet I still call you mine
I think it’s about time that
I’m not the person you see
Or who you want me to be
This perfect image of me
Is something you need to drop
How else am I meant to show?
I’m destined to be alone
I’m sick of living your lies
I’m breaking outside
[Chorus - Stephen]
You shoulda had low expectations
You shoulda had them from the start
You shouldn’t be here, confrontation
You gotta get out of my heart
[Outro - Stephen]
You shoulda had low expectations
I should have moved on, that would have been smart
You put me in this situation
Time for you to get out of my heart
(Oh, well that’s kinda nice. I mean-)
(Lmao, fucking desperate little bitch)
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![Fly Home [Reloaded Mashup] - (Cerussis X Rule The World)
Fly Home [Reloaded Mashup] - (Cerussis X Rule The World) Fly Home [Reloaded Mashup] - (Cerussis X Rule The World)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fhngwIUJwvQ/mqdefault.jpg)
![Cerussis & Violaroo - On My Own - (Official Lyric Video)
STREAM AND DOWNLOAD ON MY OWN (FEAT. VIOLAROO)
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Produced by Cerussis
Written by Cerussis and @Violaroo
~Lyrics~
[Verse 1 - Stephen]
Guess I was wrong, I shoulda known
That you’d be stringing me along
Now I’m on my own
I think I’m better off alone
[Pre-chorus 1 - Stephen]
You think I’m stuck looking back
After all of that, my heart’d begin to crack
But it’s okay because I know in the end
I’ll be fine
[Chorus - Stephen]
On my own, On my own
On my own, On my own
Cus after all this time
Its come for me to move on
And be okay without you
On my own
[Verse 2 - Violaroo]
Although, Ive never been so wrong
To know that its been quite so long
To see you go
I know that Im just on my own
[Pre-chorus 2 - Violaroo]
And through the looking glass, I see
Codependency is what I guarantee
But after all of this, I know I can be
By myself and free
[Chorus - Violaroo]
On my own, On my own
On my own, On my own
Cus after all this time
Its come for me to move on
And be okay without you
On my own
[Bridge - Stephen and Violaroo]
And in the future, I can see
Independency, yeah I’m alone, but free
After all this baggage, I’ll manage to live
(Now, I’m-)
[Chorus - Stephen and Violaroo]
On my own, On my own
On my own, On my own
Cus after all this time
Its come for me to move on
And be okay without you
On my own
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![Here We Go Again - (A Re-written and remastered version of Anyway) - [Official Lyric Video]
I wanted to take a crack at rewriting Anyway because I feel like it could have been a lot better than it originally was.
So, heres the new (and frankly better version in my opinion); Here We Go Again!
AVAILABLE FOR FREE DOWNLOAD ON BANDCAMP AND GOOGLE DRIVE (WITH ACAPELLA AND INSTRUMENTAL)
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[Lyrics]
[Verse 1]
Here we are again
I somehow always find myself here
Where the situation’s dire
And I feel like my heart’s on fire
They are my friend
I tell that to myself, but deep down I know
The constant mockery and drama that they put us through
It’s gone us for way too long
[Chorus 1]
My eyes are open
Now I see quite clearer
To make the choice
Oh, how it seems to much to bear
To wanna fight
And make it all the easier
(Woah)
One wrong move
And I might be sent spiraling
I don’t wanna be the one alone in the end
Close your eyes
And take a leap of faith
There’s no turning back
So here we go, I’ll jump right in
[Verse 2]
So, here we are again
I somehow always wind up right here
Where the tension’s always growing
And I’m sick of always knowing
Of what’s to come
Oh, it’s not fair
To me and them
To always be caught up in this
In situations we aren’t part of
“Can’t we all just get along”
Is that way too much to ask?
[Chorus 2]
It’s always harder than it looks in fiction
It’s life or death
A no win situation
Holding on
Don’t wanna lose my grip on you
(No)
And I keep fighting
Although you still hurt me
It sounds screwed up
But what else can I even do?
Close your eyes
And take a leap of faith
There’s no turning back
So here we go, I’ll jump right in
[Bridge]
My eyes are open
Yet I still can’t see you
Your truths and lies
I can’t distinguish between the two
I wanna fight
But I still think you’re my friend
One wrong move
And I might be sent spiraling
With all these guilt trips
Causin’ all my mood slips
I’ll close my eyes
and take a leap of faith
I could maybe be wrong
But oh, to hell with all this
[Chorus 3]
My eyes are open
I can see the truth now
I’ll make the choice
Even if it’s too much to bear
To cut you off
Even if it hurts me
(Woah)
It’s always harder than it looks in fiction
It’s life or death
Inside this situation
Close your eyes
And take one last deep breath
I’m going down
So listen up
I’ll jump right-
[Outro]
You’re always blind to every single conflict
You turn away and find we’re all astonished
Maybe try figure out who’s wrong
(Oh)
One wrong move
And now we’re all sent spiraling
So, now we’re here
And we all feel like dying
Close your eyes
And take a look around
I hope you’re happy
With what you’ve done
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![Cerussis & Mr. Loud - Apologies - (Official Lyric Video)
STREAM AND DOWNLOAD HABITS (DELUXE VERSION)
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This song is written as apology to my younger self. I promise I wont make myself miserable any longer.
Apologies
Writing - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Production - @cerussis_music
Lead and Backing Vocals - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Background Artwork - @kingpagie
~Lyrics~
[Verse 1 - Steph]
All my life I’ve wondered what will come
‘Cus the future’s uncertain and life’s twisting turning
It’s draining to live feeling numb
Too many years, I’ve sat here wondering why
I’ve been twisting the knife that you jammed in my heart
Lost track, ripping myself apart
[Chorus 1 - Steph]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
That it’s too late for me, sorry
[Verse 2 - Nate]
Through the years, I’ve found it hard to grow
I cut off my support group, it’s safe to assume
There’s no wonder I’m stuck in a loop
I’ve lost count of how long I’ve been gone
When I look in the mirror, don’t know who I see
God, tell me is that really me?
[Chorus 2 - Nate]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
You turned around, left me to drown
Left me stuck in the crowd
[Bridge - Steph & Nate]
Can’t you see?
That you’re dragging us both down
Exposing what’s under our skin
(I let you down...)
Don’t leave me in sadness
Don’t leave me in pain
It’s really not hard to explain
(I’m lost, now found...)
[Chorus 3 - Steph & Nate]
I’m so sorry I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
Is it too late for me, no!
I’m sorry, I let you down
I promise you, I’ll be redeemed
Just you and wait, I’m sorry
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