Uploaded December 2023 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
STREAM AND DOWNLOAD HABITS (DELUXE VERSION)
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This song is written as apology to my younger self. I promise I won't make myself miserable any longer.
"Apologies"
Writing - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Production - @cerussis_music
Lead and Backing Vocals - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Background Artwork - @kingpagie
~Lyrics~
[Verse 1 - Steph]
All my life I’ve wondered what will come
‘Cus the future’s uncertain and life’s twisting turning
It’s draining to live feeling numb
Too many years, I’ve sat here wondering why
I’ve been twisting the knife that you jammed in my heart
Lost track, ripping myself apart
[Chorus 1 - Steph]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
That it’s too late for me, sorry
[Verse 2 - Nate]
Through the years, I’ve found it hard to grow
I cut off my support group, it’s safe to assume
There’s no wonder I’m stuck in a loop
I’ve lost count of how long I’ve been gone
When I look in the mirror, don’t know who I see
God, tell me is that really me?
[Chorus 2 - Nate]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
You turned around, left me to drown
Left me stuck in the crowd
[Bridge - Steph & Nate]
Can’t you see?
That you’re dragging us both down
Exposing what’s under our skin
(I let you down...)
Don’t leave me in sadness
Don’t leave me in pain
It’s really not hard to explain
(I’m lost, now found...)
[Chorus 3 - Steph & Nate]
I’m so sorry I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
Is it too late for me, no!
I’m sorry, I let you down
I promise you, I’ll be redeemed
Just you and wait, I’m sorry
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STREAM AND DOWNLOAD HABITS (DELUXE VERSION)
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/6tG0KbtyrXDKc3IqCCNFjG?si=6Pwx7HyhTw64dKojf5RHmA
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/habits-deluxe-version/1719439100
This song is written as apology to my younger self. I promise I won't make myself miserable any longer.
"Apologies"
Writing - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Production - @cerussis_music
Lead and Backing Vocals - @cerussis_music, @mrloudofficial
Background Artwork - @kingpagie
~Lyrics~
[Verse 1 - Steph]
All my life I’ve wondered what will come
‘Cus the future’s uncertain and life’s twisting turning
It’s draining to live feeling numb
Too many years, I’ve sat here wondering why
I’ve been twisting the knife that you jammed in my heart
Lost track, ripping myself apart
[Chorus 1 - Steph]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
That it’s too late for me, sorry
[Verse 2 - Nate]
Through the years, I’ve found it hard to grow
I cut off my support group, it’s safe to assume
There’s no wonder I’m stuck in a loop
I’ve lost count of how long I’ve been gone
When I look in the mirror, don’t know who I see
God, tell me is that really me?
[Chorus 2 - Nate]
I’m so sorry, I let you down
You turned around, left me to drown
Left me stuck in the crowd
[Bridge - Steph & Nate]
Can’t you see?
That you’re dragging us both down
Exposing what’s under our skin
(I let you down...)
Don’t leave me in sadness
Don’t leave me in pain
It’s really not hard to explain
(I’m lost, now found...)
[Chorus 3 - Steph & Nate]
I’m so sorry I let you down
Apologies, I should have seen
Is it too late for me, no!
I’m sorry, I let you down
I promise you, I’ll be redeemed
Just you and wait, I’m sorry
STREAM AND DOWNLOAD MY JUNIOR ALBUM, HABITS - https://push.fm/fl/2txnqxmk
Check out my other stuff here! - https://linktr.ee/Cerussis
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Enjoy!
![Tug Of War - [Official Audio]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/gvpu4iPTJzs/mqdefault.jpg "Tug Of War - [Official Audio]
DOWNLOAD AND STREAM TUG OF WAR!!!:
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Production, Mixing, and Mastering by: Cerussis
Co-written with: Nic
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KNOTS coming late 2021
[Verse 1]
Right or wrong
Cant tell the difference
Am I weak or strong
I’m moving along
Paths of disaster
And here I’m thinking
Should I be going faster
Such a chore
I’m contemplating as I’m pacing the floor
I do not even know what to do anymore
I’m in a tug of war
I’m in a
I’m in a
Im in a
[Chorus]
Tug of war but I feel my grip slippin’
Feet on the ground but I feel myself trippin’
Pulling Harder
(Knees are bout to buckle in)
Need to be smarter
(Cos I never seem to win)
Tug of war but I feel my chest burnin’
Made my mistakes, you’d think by now That I’d be learnin’
How to do this
(But I cannot overcome)
Can I get through this?
(Am I right or am I wrong..?)
[Verse 2]
Left or right
Which way to go
I’m spiralin’ every night
Fight or flight
Something you allow (to happen)
And here I’m wondering
Think this is still a game now?
On the floor
My head is filled with stuff I should ignore
What’s the solution when I’m crying on the floor
I’m in a tug of war
I’m in a
I’m in a
Im in a
[Bridge]
This ain’t a battle I’ll win
That doesn’t I won’t try
Pick up the pieces of what
I think is right
Hard to distinguish
Between the blurred lines
So I’ll take it in strides
Cause this is
[Chorus]
Tug of war but I feel my grip slippin’
Feet on the ground but I feel myself trippin’
Pulling Harder
(Knees are bout to buckle in)
Need to be smarter
(Cos I never seem to win)
Tug of war but I feel my chest burnin’
Made my mistakes, you’d think by now That I’d be learnin’
How to do this
(But I cannot overcome)
Can I get through this?
(Am I right or am I wrong..?)
[Outro]
Tug of war but I feel my head spinnin’
Paid for my faults, I thought this time that I’d be winnin’
But I lose it
(‘Cause it always goes to shit)
When I go through this
(Is this my path to bliss..?)
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![Cerussis - Tug Of War [Remastered] - (Official Audio)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hzLHeCG5pd4/mqdefault.jpg "Cerussis - Tug Of War [Remastered] - (Official Audio)
STREAM AND DOWNLOAD TUG OF WAR (REMASTERED)
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