Uploaded September 2024 | Updated September 2026, 3 weeks ago

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chasing my tail
i'm tryna dodge the ditch
finding fixes that’ll stick
no dice

I’m just biting myself
masking up with thrills
that are strong enough to kill
I guess

I’m always falling back to my old ways
laying wasted for days
I can’t fight my nature
got excess in spades

heaven’s just a state of mind
you can put yourself there any time
heavens just a state of mind
you can take that trip anyway you like

I’m always outside
knocking on the door of heaven’s gates
all the time

living for the night
if this is really hell
I’ll make this hell all mine

*quit* blowing my high
I’m running for the hills
it’s on my heels all the time

*ok so* this is my life
waiting for the now
except for now I’m out of time

chasing white whales
building by the brick
to make a world that don’t exist

but I
keep doubting myself
tryna get a grip
as my footing starts to slip

cuz I
I’m always going back to my old ways
always
always

it’s written on my face
I want this all to change

hell is just a state of mind
you can put yourself there anytime
hell is just a state of mind
I’ll feed my sins any way I like
(I drank her piss)

I’m always outside
knocking on the door of heaven’s gate
all the time

living for the night
if this is really hell
I’ll make this hell all mine

*quit* blowing my high
I’m running for the hills
it’s on my heels all the time

*ok so* this is my life
waiting for the now
except for now I’m out of time