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Uploaded August 2020 | Updated September 2026, 1 day ago
Track 2 from my album Turbulence
LYRICS
Verse:
Lose 8 pounds in a week
Weight fluctuations
Skinniest I’d ever be
Comfort food
Don’t even taste good
Eat it though, my waist line grows
Sleeping a lot
12 hours a day
Not even sleeping soundly
Depression naps
At least once a day
Bringing the total to 15
Can’t concentrate
So I get bad grades
Drop two classes, it don’t feel great
No energy
During the day
With a lack of feeling
Increased
Agitation
Getting mad at the smallest thing
No desire
To have any fun
No music, reading, or writin
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Verse:
Read eight books in a week
Seven novels and
A book of poetry
More randomness
Than normal
Idea to idea real quick
Thoughts racing fast
Distractibility
Lots of careless spending
Working non-stop
Not taking breaks
Forget to eat during the day
On top of the world
Unrealistic dreams
In my lifetime, can’t be achieved
Jumbled up speech
Like stuttering
Too many thoughts fighting
Anxiety
Tripping me up
Unnecessary worrying
Sensitivity
To touch and speech
More often vivid dreams
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Bridge:
(my favorite things)
I can’t remember
(her color eyes)
I can’t remember
(the day we met)
I can’t remember
I can’t remember
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Track 2 from my album Turbulence
LYRICS
Verse:
Lose 8 pounds in a week
Weight fluctuations
Skinniest I’d ever be
Comfort food
Don’t even taste good
Eat it though, my waist line grows
Sleeping a lot
12 hours a day
Not even sleeping soundly
Depression naps
At least once a day
Bringing the total to 15
Can’t concentrate
So I get bad grades
Drop two classes, it don’t feel great
No energy
During the day
With a lack of feeling
Increased
Agitation
Getting mad at the smallest thing
No desire
To have any fun
No music, reading, or writin
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Verse:
Read eight books in a week
Seven novels and
A book of poetry
More randomness
Than normal
Idea to idea real quick
Thoughts racing fast
Distractibility
Lots of careless spending
Working non-stop
Not taking breaks
Forget to eat during the day
On top of the world
Unrealistic dreams
In my lifetime, can’t be achieved
Jumbled up speech
Like stuttering
Too many thoughts fighting
Anxiety
Tripping me up
Unnecessary worrying
Sensitivity
To touch and speech
More often vivid dreams
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Bridge:
(my favorite things)
I can’t remember
(her color eyes)
I can’t remember
(the day we met)
I can’t remember
I can’t remember
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Connect with me down below!
Website: jltoddwrites.wixsite.com/j-l-todd-writes
Tumblr: jltoddthedictionpuppeteer.tumblr.com
Twitter: twitter.com/JLTodd4128
Instagram: instagram.com/j.l.todd
Goodreads: goodreads.com/author/show/17062705.J_L_Todd
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/4brSyYRxGQ574zoqya16aj?si=daF5b-HNR6SfPFfVK-YMig
Sign up for my newsletter: wixsite.us7.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=70148eaa4da88b5650b8b8d68&id=754b30e27a
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![What Am I [official audio] [explicit]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/glSh6uVA7PU/mqdefault.jpg "What Am I [official audio] [explicit]
Track 2 from my album Turbulence
LYRICS
Verse:
Lose 8 pounds in a week
Weight fluctuations
Skinniest I’d ever be
Comfort food
Don’t even taste good
Eat it though, my waist line grows
Sleeping a lot
12 hours a day
Not even sleeping soundly
Depression naps
At least once a day
Bringing the total to 15
Can’t concentrate
So I get bad grades
Drop two classes, it don’t feel great
No energy
During the day
With a lack of feeling
Increased
Agitation
Getting mad at the smallest thing
No desire
To have any fun
No music, reading, or writin
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Verse:
Read eight books in a week
Seven novels and
A book of poetry
More randomness
Than normal
Idea to idea real quick
Thoughts racing fast
Distractibility
Lots of careless spending
Working non-stop
Not taking breaks
Forget to eat during the day
On top of the world
Unrealistic dreams
In my lifetime, can’t be achieved
Jumbled up speech
Like stuttering
Too many thoughts fighting
Anxiety
Tripping me up
Unnecessary worrying
Sensitivity
To touch and speech
More often vivid dreams
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
Bridge:
(my favorite things)
I can’t remember
(her color eyes)
I can’t remember
(the day we met)
I can’t remember
I can’t remember
Chorus:
(What am I? I’m messed up? I’m crazy?
I need help? I’m lonely. I’m lazy?
I don’t know, how to say, I need help.
What am I?)
What am I?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Connect with me down below!
Website: https://jltoddwrites.wixsite.com/j-l-todd-writes
Tumblr: https://jltoddthedictionpuppeteer.tumblr.com/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/JLTodd4128
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/j.l.todd/
Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/17062705.J_L_Todd
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/4brSyYRxGQ574zoqya16aj?si=daF5b-HNR6SfPFfVK-YMig
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![Turbulence [official audio]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/jcf1xfsVOps/mqdefault.jpg "Turbulence [official audio]
Track 8 from my album Turbulence
LYRICS
Verse:
Hit the ground hard when I fell from the sky
As a part of me from the past lay and died
Dolls and crayons rained down onto my head
Dreams of innocence buried under my bed
Queens and dragons ruled my day dreams
I learned quickly nothing is as it seems
New duties were thrust upon me
No longer could I be meek and carefree
Chorus:
A sorceress gave me a prophecy
“you’ll have a struggle for autonomy
Internal and external demons will
Fight for your progress to stand still
The turbulence will possibly win
Depends partly on who you call kin
If you’re not careful it’ll take you under
Learn when it’s best to surrender”
Verse:
Given a quill and a long scroll
Told to write all that my heart told
All the truths, all the lies, and all the pain
For one day I’d need it when I reign
Travelled to many kingdoms near and far
Discouraged from wishing on a star
Taught the importance of education
One day I would have to lead a nation
Chorus:
A seer gave me some terrible news
“Some difficult things you’ll have to diffuse
Others you’ll have to instigate
Be careful the right side doesn’t obliterate
The turbulence will judge and challenge you
Demand almost daily breakthroughs
The Crown will recruit you as a diplomat
Push you until you’re a social acrobat”
Bridge:
Kingdoms
Across the sea
Claimed that I
Was a banshee
Some said good
Some said bad
But all knew me
As the word nomad
Chorus:
A witch coven welcomed me into their ranks
“use your knowledge for intellectual pranks
Hurt no one but take no shit inflicted
Let your gifts flourish unrestricted
Let the turbulence carry you away
Fight for what’s right to everyone’s dismay
You’re a queen that knighted herself
Resurrect and protect your younger self”
Ending:
Hit the ground hard when I fell from the sky
The world ain’t clear in the Beholder’s eye
Swords and armor rained down upon me
Acceptance, indifference, I’m finally free
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Connect with me down below!
Website: https://jltoddwrites.wixsite.com/j-l-todd-writes
Tumblr: https://jltoddthedictionpuppeteer.tumblr.com/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/JLTodd4128
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/j.l.todd/
Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/17062705.J_L_Todd
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