Uploaded December 2024 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
It's just not okay to mess with someone you know is severely mentally ill and struggling with suicidal ideology. Actually, it's not okay to mess with someone who didn't do anything to you anyway. I really hope karma exists and is just taking its time. Then again, I watch true crime, so I know karma doesn't exist. I've made mistakes, and it's possible I've made mistakes I'm not aware of because no one brought them up. Abuse and neglect as a child on top of untreated mental illness screws with development, especially social development. If I said something "rude" to you when you didn't do anything wrong, there's a 99% chance I didn't even realize it was rude. It's happened to me before. I don't know how to speak, I was socialized AFTER the critical period, if you can even call it socialization. That's why I told people to come to me and sort out misunderstandings, but no one did, which leads me to believe that the only people who think I'm rude or manipulative are the people I blocked for being assholes. That's what the block function is there for. I can't for the life of me figure out how, when, or why I could've been manipulative, that's just not my personality, I have too much empathy to do that to people. So yeah, I'm hurt and frustrated, I can't stand it when people believe things that aren't true. I'm sorry I'm not perfect, but unlike many influencers, I don't play a character for you. Then again, I don't consider myself an influencer. Do you want me to lie to you? Do you want me to play a character? Because I tried that once as a trauma coping mechanism, and my true fans missed me, so... I just wanted to work on my mental health and be better. Why wasn't that okay? I've been watching a lot of videos that mention horrible influencers that did stuff you accused me of and said, "aha! THAT'S what it looks like! I DIDN'T do ANY of that!" Why did I almost have to die because you did a bad thing? You were ableist and you stole from me and lied about it, and then you almost killed me and sent me to the mental hospital twice. I need to be there longer, but I can't afford it because of you. I feel terrible about the people I've accidentally hurt, why don't you feel terrible about the people you've hurt on purpose, knowing full well how much they were already struggling? I wish I could tell your parents what you've been up to. I'm really glad I'm not you. I'd rather make mistakes and feel guilty about them than hurt people and enjoy it. Guilt hurts, but it's that pain that forces you to learn not to do it again. You'll never understand what it's like to have empathy. You were born sick. Shame on you.
It's just not okay to mess with someone you know is severely mentally ill and struggling with suicidal ideology. Actually, it's not okay to mess with someone who didn't do anything to you anyway. I really hope karma exists and is just taking its time. Then again, I watch true crime, so I know karma doesn't exist. I've made mistakes, and it's possible I've made mistakes I'm not aware of because no one brought them up. Abuse and neglect as a child on top of untreated mental illness screws with development, especially social development. If I said something "rude" to you when you didn't do anything wrong, there's a 99% chance I didn't even realize it was rude. It's happened to me before. I don't know how to speak, I was socialized AFTER the critical period, if you can even call it socialization. That's why I told people to come to me and sort out misunderstandings, but no one did, which leads me to believe that the only people who think I'm rude or manipulative are the people I blocked for being assholes. That's what the block function is there for. I can't for the life of me figure out how, when, or why I could've been manipulative, that's just not my personality, I have too much empathy to do that to people. So yeah, I'm hurt and frustrated, I can't stand it when people believe things that aren't true. I'm sorry I'm not perfect, but unlike many influencers, I don't play a character for you. Then again, I don't consider myself an influencer. Do you want me to lie to you? Do you want me to play a character? Because I tried that once as a trauma coping mechanism, and my true fans missed me, so... I just wanted to work on my mental health and be better. Why wasn't that okay? I've been watching a lot of videos that mention horrible influencers that did stuff you accused me of and said, "aha! THAT'S what it looks like! I DIDN'T do ANY of that!" Why did I almost have to die because you did a bad thing? You were ableist and you stole from me and lied about it, and then you almost killed me and sent me to the mental hospital twice. I need to be there longer, but I can't afford it because of you. I feel terrible about the people I've accidentally hurt, why don't you feel terrible about the people you've hurt on purpose, knowing full well how much they were already struggling? I wish I could tell your parents what you've been up to. I'm really glad I'm not you. I'd rather make mistakes and feel guilty about them than hurt people and enjoy it. Guilt hurts, but it's that pain that forces you to learn not to do it again. You'll never understand what it's like to have empathy. You were born sick. Shame on you.
