Uploaded June 2024 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
since everything in me has been killed, it's hard to keep at this, and it's taken many months of... not very much enjoyment. you know, I bet there would be a lot more Muffins stories out by now if you had just let me take that break for my mental health instead of calling me lazy and then orchestrating an attack on me that resulted in my attempted suicide, two mental hospital stays, and forcing me to change my legal name. why couldn't you just leave me alone? by the way, a narcissist would never become so damaged by all this. they wouldn't care. my aunt has been a psychologist for over ten years and has known me for most of my life. when I went to California and told her people online were calling me a narcissist, she laughed and told me why I'm not, which I already knew. she said it was some kind of fad to call people that nowadays, and I think I knew that deep down as well. so that's over ten people in the psychology field that has proven to me that I'm not a narcissist, and actually, they are concerned for the low levels of self esteem I show. but I can't seem to fucking get any self esteem because I'm so afraid of coming off as vain. that's why I can't feel special on my birthday. you ruined it for me. I find it really hard to want to live. I can't enjoy anything. and you don't care.
since everything in me has been killed, it's hard to keep at this, and it's taken many months of... not very much enjoyment. you know, I bet there would be a lot more Muffins stories out by now if you had just let me take that break for my mental health instead of calling me lazy and then orchestrating an attack on me that resulted in my attempted suicide, two mental hospital stays, and forcing me to change my legal name. why couldn't you just leave me alone? by the way, a narcissist would never become so damaged by all this. they wouldn't care. my aunt has been a psychologist for over ten years and has known me for most of my life. when I went to California and told her people online were calling me a narcissist, she laughed and told me why I'm not, which I already knew. she said it was some kind of fad to call people that nowadays, and I think I knew that deep down as well. so that's over ten people in the psychology field that has proven to me that I'm not a narcissist, and actually, they are concerned for the low levels of self esteem I show. but I can't seem to fucking get any self esteem because I'm so afraid of coming off as vain. that's why I can't feel special on my birthday. you ruined it for me. I find it really hard to want to live. I can't enjoy anything. and you don't care.
