Uploaded May 2011 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
"i woke up and wished that i was dead, and that aching i my head. i lay motionless in bed."
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this song pretty much sums up how i feel right now, i've always felt a connection with this song and i feel so crap right now i decided to vid it and get my emotions out. i'm not sure it really helped, but oh well. i just feel so tired of everything really. i'm tired of how crap i feel all the time and how inferior i feel to everyone. i'm tired of having absolutely no confidence in anything i do. i'm tired of the fact that i'm failing the subject i love the most because i have absolutely no motivation or energy. and i'm just tired of feeling depressed, all the time.but mostly i'm sick and tired of the fact that these moods seem to always swing around when i need it to most, to screw up whatever semblance of a normal life i've been trying to build for myself these past few months. so far this year has been amazing, but right now i just can't remember that happy feeling. and i want it back so badly. but i'm just to tired to reach out for it, or anything else.
*sigh* i should really be revising or doing some sort of work, or at least sleeping but instead i'm just sitting around being a useless mess. :(
"i woke up and wished that i was dead, and that aching i my head. i lay motionless in bed."
_________________________________________________________
this song pretty much sums up how i feel right now, i've always felt a connection with this song and i feel so crap right now i decided to vid it and get my emotions out. i'm not sure it really helped, but oh well. i just feel so tired of everything really. i'm tired of how crap i feel all the time and how inferior i feel to everyone. i'm tired of having absolutely no confidence in anything i do. i'm tired of the fact that i'm failing the subject i love the most because i have absolutely no motivation or energy. and i'm just tired of feeling depressed, all the time.but mostly i'm sick and tired of the fact that these moods seem to always swing around when i need it to most, to screw up whatever semblance of a normal life i've been trying to build for myself these past few months. so far this year has been amazing, but right now i just can't remember that happy feeling. and i want it back so badly. but i'm just to tired to reach out for it, or anything else.
*sigh* i should really be revising or doing some sort of work, or at least sleeping but instead i'm just sitting around being a useless mess. :(
