Uploaded December 2012 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
"I was afraid to be vulnerable and I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel."
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One of the promises that I made to myself before I started this next part of my life was that if something scared me, I should do it anyway. If there's a chance that it will hurt, if there is the opportunity of pain to not let the fear of that pain, to not let the fear of being hurt again hold me back from anything. If it hurts then it hurts, more often than not it will be worth it, because it's better to live and feel a little pain that to shut myself off out of fear. I'm scared as hell, and in many ways this has already hurt me but I'm thinking it's worth it. I'm thinking the pros outway the cons, I'm thinking a little bit of pain is the price for the possibility of getting something, or someone, you want. Even if this doesn't end up where I want it to, then at least I can say I tried. I didn't let the fear control me and I can be proud of myself for that. I have made myself more vulnerable than I have ever been, and I am afraid. But I'm also sure that it's worth it. Being scared that something will hurt, letting that something hurt you sometimes, means that it means SOMETHING.
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So a new video has been quite overdue I know, this probably wasn't really what anyone was hoping to see but this video is quite personal to me. So please enjoy~
muchlove,
vee.♥
"I was afraid to be vulnerable and I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel."
----
One of the promises that I made to myself before I started this next part of my life was that if something scared me, I should do it anyway. If there's a chance that it will hurt, if there is the opportunity of pain to not let the fear of that pain, to not let the fear of being hurt again hold me back from anything. If it hurts then it hurts, more often than not it will be worth it, because it's better to live and feel a little pain that to shut myself off out of fear. I'm scared as hell, and in many ways this has already hurt me but I'm thinking it's worth it. I'm thinking the pros outway the cons, I'm thinking a little bit of pain is the price for the possibility of getting something, or someone, you want. Even if this doesn't end up where I want it to, then at least I can say I tried. I didn't let the fear control me and I can be proud of myself for that. I have made myself more vulnerable than I have ever been, and I am afraid. But I'm also sure that it's worth it. Being scared that something will hurt, letting that something hurt you sometimes, means that it means SOMETHING.
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So a new video has been quite overdue I know, this probably wasn't really what anyone was hoping to see but this video is quite personal to me. So please enjoy~
muchlove,
vee.♥
