Uploaded December 2021 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
bad news in this video. like... literally, i get the official bad news DURING this video. why does nature have to be so cruel and give innocent creatures freakin cancer? not talking about just animals, like CHILDREN get cancer. why? what is the point, nature? what is the point on giving an innocent being something that can't be cured and kills that being before it's their time? i've never personally known a human who had cancer. just... fuck cancer.
EDIT: it's not this saturday, it's next saturday. on one hand, aries has to suffer longer. on the other hand, it gives him time to pass away with us. then i'm like, "what if we're making a mistake," but the fact that he's choking on normal food is the thing that makes my logical mind say, "no, he can't live like this, it's inhumane." i hate my mind. i wish i was just sure about everything.
bad news in this video. like... literally, i get the official bad news DURING this video. why does nature have to be so cruel and give innocent creatures freakin cancer? not talking about just animals, like CHILDREN get cancer. why? what is the point, nature? what is the point on giving an innocent being something that can't be cured and kills that being before it's their time? i've never personally known a human who had cancer. just... fuck cancer.
EDIT: it's not this saturday, it's next saturday. on one hand, aries has to suffer longer. on the other hand, it gives him time to pass away with us. then i'm like, "what if we're making a mistake," but the fact that he's choking on normal food is the thing that makes my logical mind say, "no, he can't live like this, it's inhumane." i hate my mind. i wish i was just sure about everything.





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I want to apologize that Muffins still isnt on my Patreon. I struggle with avoidance, which is a response to trauma. its not a healthy way of dealing with trauma. but since all that stuff happened to me on the computer, I am avoiding the computer, not by choice. trauma changes the brain, and what these people did to me was rewire my brain to associate the computer with danger, which triggers my fight or flight response, and forces me to avoid it. I dont know how to deal with this, not even with therapy. but Ive tried to get on the computer a couple times, but it didnt stick. Ive been doing and posting everything from my phone. Ill always be asking why they did this to me, and Ill want a logical answer, but itll always be for the lulz. I just want my brain to go back to the way it was. I dont want to be afraid of even more things. I have projects to do on the computer, Im wasting my life by avoiding them. Im wasting away. hopefully a new baby will bring in some joy. you have no idea the amount of damage youve done.
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