![[Speedcore] 09. Diabarha - By the Choice of Loner @Diabarha](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/kz2y7_ftnus/maxresdefault.jpg)
Uploaded December 2022 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
Male, 25; notes found in personal diary at clinic of mental health:
23.12.2021
"It's a shame we can't access internet over here. I'd love to watch few shows.
Good thing they let me keep some printed images tho. They're wonderful, really. I need to think of a way to get more of them.
I'm often sad, but thinking of them makes me happy at least for a while."
24.12.2021
"Today we've had a special dinner, but I didn't want to go there. I don't like crowds and I'm really happy that good guys could actually move me to the separate room.
Today in the afternoon, the only friend of mine sent me a short letter with 6 prints. Yay I love this padoru. I remember her, long time couldn't see her. She'll be a nice addition to other images."
25.12.2021
"I've just been wondering how has the MxT relation actually ended. (...) In the end, this is definitely to be watched again. Next year they maybe let me out, but it's so rushy outside, so many people. I don't like it."
28.12.2021
"Nobody visited me past week, but it doesn't matter. They could forget, and I always have someone to hug. Shame they didn't want me to spend some time online, I know I can't look there for images. If they only had a printer for public use."
~~~
Title: By the Choice of Loner
Track number: 09/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 352.5BPM
Used scale(s): A Ukrainian-Dorian
Module: Depressing/Evening
Background image: wallpapercave.com/uwp/uwp1695828.jpeg
YT playlist: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
Male, 25; notes found in personal diary at clinic of mental health:
23.12.2021
"It's a shame we can't access internet over here. I'd love to watch few shows.
Good thing they let me keep some printed images tho. They're wonderful, really. I need to think of a way to get more of them.
I'm often sad, but thinking of them makes me happy at least for a while."
24.12.2021
"Today we've had a special dinner, but I didn't want to go there. I don't like crowds and I'm really happy that good guys could actually move me to the separate room.
Today in the afternoon, the only friend of mine sent me a short letter with 6 prints. Yay I love this padoru. I remember her, long time couldn't see her. She'll be a nice addition to other images."
25.12.2021
"I've just been wondering how has the MxT relation actually ended. (...) In the end, this is definitely to be watched again. Next year they maybe let me out, but it's so rushy outside, so many people. I don't like it."
28.12.2021
"Nobody visited me past week, but it doesn't matter. They could forget, and I always have someone to hug. Shame they didn't want me to spend some time online, I know I can't look there for images. If they only had a printer for public use."
~~~
Title: By the Choice of Loner
Track number: 09/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 352.5BPM
Used scale(s): A Ukrainian-Dorian
Module: Depressing/Evening
Background image: wallpapercave.com/uwp/uwp1695828.jpeg
YT playlist: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5
![[Speedcore] 09. Diabarha - By the Choice of Loner](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/kz2y7_ftnus/mqdefault.jpg "[Speedcore] 09. Diabarha - By the Choice of Loner
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
Male, 25; notes found in personal diary at clinic of mental health:
23.12.2021
Its a shame we cant access internet over here. Id love to watch few shows.
Good thing they let me keep some printed images tho. Theyre wonderful, really. I need to think of a way to get more of them.
Im often sad, but thinking of them makes me happy at least for a while.
24.12.2021
Today weve had a special dinner, but I didnt want to go there. I dont like crowds and Im really happy that good guys could actually move me to the separate room.
Today in the afternoon, the only friend of mine sent me a short letter with 6 prints. Yay I love this padoru. I remember her, long time couldnt see her. Shell be a nice addition to other images.
25.12.2021
Ive just been wondering how has the MxT relation actually ended. (...) In the end, this is definitely to be watched again. Next year they maybe let me out, but its so rushy outside, so many people. I dont like it.
28.12.2021
Nobody visited me past week, but it doesnt matter. They could forget, and I always have someone to hug. Shame they didnt want me to spend some time online, I know I cant look there for images. If they only had a printer for public use.
~~~
Title: By the Choice of Loner
Track number: 09/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 352.5BPM
Used scale(s): A Ukrainian-Dorian
Module: Depressing/Evening
Background image: https://wallpapercave.com/uwp/uwp1695828.jpeg
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5")
![[IO2M] 31. Diabarha - Dust](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/llIYMW3M-Zg/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 31. Diabarha - Dust
_DUST
What scares Ilda is that one day, shell close her eyes for the last time and billions of billions years will pass before you could think. All the way towards the infinity, when even black holes and any matter will no longer exist, goes like nothing within zero time. Because she will be unable to feel anymore.
Ilda has a body too. It will turn into dust as all of us.
The world will continue as usual, and over time Ilda is going to be forgotten.
...like a dust on a desert, where every grain of sand was once a person. How can you find yourself?
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Ultimate Cachexia https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BePa2egY55A
~~~
Title: Dust
Track number: 31/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone 2700 BPM
Used scale(s): F# Locrian + Chromatic elements
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[Splittercore] 27. Diabarha - The Final Rhapsody](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/nBF6FtV3mj0/mqdefault.jpg "[Splittercore] 27. Diabarha - The Final Rhapsody
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
~~~
Male, 42; observation notes from 21.09.2021
Patient was hospitalized on 08.12.2021 around 10AM, reported by family due to lack of nutrition and dehydration.
Sleep time and duration at acceptable level. Patient maintains poor hygiene, refuses any help.
Patient does not want to take hospital meals and drinks, needs to be force-fed. The cause is possibly purely psychological, as patient believes the food/drink he receives from others, including medical staff, can be poisoned or hazardous.
Interview with patient shows delusions and paranoic behavior; believes to be constantly spied and observed by unknown forces that want to destroy the world. Feels endangered and threatened by most peoples, but also lists particular institutions and groups as threatening the world peace. Rarely reports auditory and visual hallucinations, which he refers to as attempts to communication or x-ray effects.
Interview with family shows that patient had similar health issues throughout past years.
Recommended further observation. Medical treatment and therapy is suggested if patient will continue to refuse provided food.
~~~
Title: The Final Rhapsody
Track number: 27/28
Cat. no/release title: SAR-005 Onto Brink
Genre(s)/BPM: Splittercore/Extratone 915/1830BPM
Used scale(s): C Minor H
Module: Anxious/Morning
Background image: https://images.hdqwalls.com/wallpapers/nuclear-fungus-anime-girl-za.jpg
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbAlItXPOb0gNlqCS53tLDEc
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records
Release/download link: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=5")
![[Cold LP] 06. Diabarha - Held by Bed](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/nEyFYY-NhhQ/mqdefault.jpg "[Cold LP] 06. Diabarha - Held by Bed
INFO/DISCLAIMER
This song and the entire album are artistic studies exploring the psychology of fear, specifically its different emotional aspects: horror, terror, and creepiness.
All content is created for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not intended to shock, disturb, or promote harm.
All people, places, and events depicted are entirely fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or real events is purely coincidental.
Background story
When you open your eyes, but cant move. Everything seems like reality and you can think clear. Then, there is someone watching you from the above, and you dont know that person. You may feel a slight touch, or hear their voice, but you cant do anything.
The vision of sleep paralysis, when your mind wakes up, but the body is still asleep, disconnected.
I experienced it twice, maybe thrice. Only a single one with someone standing next to bed. Its pretty interesting, and literally breathtaking during first time - especially if you dont know whats going on.
Artistic Fear Scale (subjective)
Horror: 5/10
Terror (emotional): 8/10
Creepiness: 5.5/10
Info
Title: Held by Bed
Track number: 06/15
Release title: Cold (LP)
Genre(s)/BPM: Rawstyle/Darkcore 150 BPM
Used scale(s): E Phrygian
Release info: https://speedcoreabyss.net/releases?id=22
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbDoWuSP18FuAIHhDY9xE0fQ
Netlabel: Speedcore Abyss Records (SAR)")
![[IO2M] 27. Diabarha - Tomorrows No Day](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/nbGBPCaqqGs/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 27. Diabarha - Tomorrows No Day
_TOMORROWS NO DAY
Nobody can live the same day twice. And this applies to Ilda as well.
Yet she spends another day on doing nothing, trying to rest from... nothing. Trying to come up with idea how she could spend the day, as best as possible, and it results in... nothing. Trying to not waste her precious time on worthless pleasures, but what is worthy? Nothing. If tomorrow was our last day, how would we spend this time? Many of us - including Ilda - wouldnt be able to come up with anything.
And if today was the last day, would we be proud of our life? Neither Ilda is.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Deranged Souls https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jo6ZkFHv1U
~~~
Title: Tomorrows No Day
Track number: 27/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone 1100 BPM
Used scale(s): C# Phrygian
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[Splittercore/Extratone Mix] Glitch Obsession #005 (Elise) @ SLN, 04.06.2022 @ Bydgoszcz, Poland](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/noPIUdrupg8/mqdefault.jpg "[Splittercore/Extratone Mix] Glitch Obsession #005 (Elise) @ SLN, 04.06.2022 @ Bydgoszcz, Poland
Important - this mix is a full version, recorded again after party. Unfortunately, I had shortened play time due to other circumstances. Live set is similar, but obviously shorter and missing some tracks.
Enjoy the rush; tracklist:
00:00 [Intro] Beethoven - Für Elise
00:50 Throttle Leak
03:26 A Tale of Abandoned Cat (ultraphrygian version)
05:57 Feather From Heaven
07:47 Mental Cage
10:29 Antarctica
11:51 Monastery
16:25 Prayer
18:47 3.A.M.
21:34 Once We Met
23:19 Imperial Mastermind
25:18 Off The Phone
28:09 Air Raid
30:36 Dead Zone
32:01 Angels Back Alive
34:35 Way Paved With Thorns
36:57 Belfast Hakken (extended version)
41:20 Crossfire
43:02 Ur Pretty
45:04 Crazy Beauties
47:11 Silent Seconds
49:57 Schrapnel Fangs
51:42 Paranoid
53:51 A Tree Without Bark
55:48 Domain of Downfall
57:07 Its Always Fun
59:46 Bleeding Teeth
1:01:53 No.24 x MTS-6 Entering Hell (furious mashup)
Event: SKRD!!! LABEL NIGHT - pranie mózgu https://www.facebook.com/events/684687072788251
Event start date: 04.06.2022
Mix name: Glitch Obsession #005 (Elise)
Background image: https://images.alphacoders.com/121/1214609.jpg and I consider this one, a beautiful one, exactly straight from my dreams... wish I knew the author. I feel like its been waiting for me there, deep in Google Images.
Nightclub: MÓZG @ Bydgoszcz, Poland")
![[SAR-001] Diabarha - Eternal Space](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/o2KLHlQD0kw/mqdefault.jpg "[SAR-001] Diabarha - Eternal Space
Eternal Space
Basing on level 998 / Zenith
Quote from New-Backrooms fandom wiki:
(...) The floor of the zone is repeated images of clouds that have the texture of smooth concrete. The sky of this level is also an image of clouds. The level is completely flat and consists of 3 zones.
In this zone, the floor is a repeating image of clouds. There are no entities in this area.
In Zone 2, the floor is still a repeating image of clouds, but here it is much darker. Dark gray clouds also appear in the sky. This area is a ring around Zone 1, 25 miles (40 kilometers) thick and filled with dangerous entities. Mobs (...) will attack in groups.
Zone 3 is as flat as possible, just like the previous zones. But unlike the previous zones, the floor and sky are completely black here. The only thing you can see is your body.
https://the-new-backrooms.fandom.com/wiki/Archived:Level_998
Release title: Be Quiet, Wanderer
Label: Speedcore Abyss Records
Cat. no: SAR-001
Genre: Splittercore 760BPM
Scale(s): E Minor Harmonic
Background image: https://images6.alphacoders.com/765/765064.png
SAR release info: https://www.speedcoreabyss.net/?action=releaseDescription&objectId=1
Download link: https://archive.org/download/sar-001-v.-a.-be-quiet-wanderer/%5BSAR-001%5D%20V.A.%20-%20Be%20Quiet%2C%20Wanderer.zip")
![[IO2M] 29. Diabarha - FILE._sf#3](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/oCIkU2t1y7A/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 29. Diabarha - FILE._sf#3
_FILE._SF#3
She keeps many files on her hard drive named like that. This way they will never know the content, of course.
If someone tried to open it just by double-click, it lauches a malicious code that destroys the OS without warning.
So, what actually is there? Many information waiting for Pauline, whenever she will be free, files will be delivered to her.
Ilda isnt stupid. Shes just careful.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Relation to IOTM: Keep in Secret https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRHLV77Wpi8
~~~
Title: FILE._sf#3
Track number: 29/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Extratone 1350 BPM
Used scale(s): A# Minor H, A# Minor N, C Locrian M6
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
![[CoL] 27. Diabarha - Glued Pages](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/oyScb3hihkI/mqdefault.jpg "[CoL] 27. Diabarha - Glued Pages
Insight
Once forgotten pages in the book of your own life. Hidden. Unreadable. Glued together, so noone can read it, just casually skipping in some past memories.
This didnt happen. This didnt happen. What didnt? I dont know.
Its good to tear them apart, or just rip out of the whole book and throw away. Maybe those were glued by an accident, maybe you have glued them by yourself, to hide a thing or two, and you dont even remember that happened. And you dont want to.
Everything is better than skipping it again and again, hoping it will just solve itself without any help.
Separate the pages, face your fear.
~~~
Cat./Track number: SWAN-197/27
Release: Confession of Lazarus [CoL] @ Speedcore Worldwide https://archive.org/details/SWAN-197
Module: Fisher
Genre(s)/BPM: Gabber/HC/242.5
Used scales: C# Minor H
Background image: https://hg1.funnyjunk.com/pictures/Short+story+finally+found+you+even+after+all+you+did_7c9a1b_7284333.jpg
YouTube playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbBxTjo1PKSdUT709zAhyoaa
Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/people/Diabarha/100063559593503/
Speedcore worldwide FB page: https://www.facebook.com/SpeedcoreWorldwide/
Licensed as CC0 / no rights reserved. Dont mention CC3 below.")
![CoreNacja party/event Aftermovie [from Quato] - 10.08.2024 @ Wrocław, Poland](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/pR3sjIIHkdo/mqdefault.jpg "CoreNacja party/event Aftermovie [from Quato] - 10.08.2024 @ Wrocław, Poland
The aftermovie from Polish core party in Wrocław. See you next time, ALL of you are invited!
Video montaged by Quato: https://www.facebook.com/quatodevastation
Featuring:
- EUS
- SKRD/SKRD4EVER
- TERRORCORE.PL
- MACHINE DIVISION
- DEATHCHANT RECORDS
- REZYSTANCJA
- SAR
Event page: https://www.facebook.com/events/472966565160587
~~~
Event name: CoreNacja (with Khaoz Engine)
Event date: 10 August 2024
Location: Wrocław, Poland")
![[IO2M] 14. Diabarha - Rot](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/pc-XoZT1Kbc/mqdefault.jpg "[IO2M] 14. Diabarha - Rot
_ROT
An open coffin reminds Ilda that there was such phenomenon as zombie apocalypse, yet she doesnt believe it.
Unless...
She can feel someones presence. She turns around. There was only a small shadow of a dog that disappeared shortly after she saw it.
She can not tell if the shadow was even real, neither she can why there is a shovel lying nearby. And why are her hands dirty. And why is the coffin empty.
~~~
DISCLAIMER: the stories/images presented in following album are pure fiction and should be treated as novels. Following any of described immoral actions that break the law is discouraged. Any similarity to actual person, living or dead, or past event, is purely coincidental.
Some people may find the content as disturbing or unpleasant.
IO2Ms general purpose is to spread the awareness about mental health problems.
~~~
Title: Rot
Track number: 14/36
Release title: Ilda Owns Two Masters (IO2M)
Genre(s)/BPM: Speedcore 455 BPM
Used scale(s): D Locrian
YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgrY2FFICYbCEPYjpZo0TT8UvMZJ7dsmD
Netlabel: SKRD4EVER
Release/download link: https://skrd4ever.bandcamp.com/album/diabarha-ilda-owns-two-masters
Background GIFs were found in Google and Tenor. All rights belong to their creators.")
