Radiarc - Loose @Radiarc

Radiarc | Radiarc - Loose @Radiarc_ | Uploaded August 2018 | Updated October 2024, 19 hours ago.
Slowly falling apart.

radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/loose

Artwork: deviantart.com/segraece/art/Road-to-nowhere-639750740

Loose like the untied, loose like the untamed, loose like the promise of another day.
Not quite sure why I made this, I just...felt it. I felt everything.
Every aspect of this was just something I needed to make, and about halfway through making it, I realized that I'd been influenced pretty heavily by Risk of Rain without even realizing it, so I decided to go as far as I could with the blending of styles.
Coalescence is one of my all-time favorite songs, and Chris Christodoulou is a genius, so I gotta say I'm pretty happy with this one, even if it is weird.

As far as why the song was made...
Things have been kinda sucky as of late, despite married life going pretty well and getting a new car.
I just always feel tired and upset, like everything's spiralling out of control, and I don't know why.
I''m getting hired in to work full time soon, and I'll be making a lot more money, but...I dunno.
I feel like ever since my wife and I watched Aggretsuko, I've wanted something greater in life, something that I just can't have.
I can't relate to most of my coworkers because they're old and stubborn and have no life goals or ambitions outside of the factory, and the few people I can talk with are suffering, or just as broken as I am.
At the end of the day, at least I have music, I suppose.
Hopefully, there will be more where this came from.

As always, if you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find on youtube.

And, if you're feeling extra generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All donations go right back into the music.

I also have a Discord server, for those that are interested:
discord.gg/BWFy7c

I've got something killer in waiting right now, and it tears me up inside that I can't show it yet, but it's gonna be part of the next Ponies at Dawn album.
It's something I've been really, really wanting to make, but I'd been waiting for the perfect time to do it.
If you liked Kyrie and Always There, it's...something along those lines.
All I can give you is a picture and a name...

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Aleph Null.

Radiarc - Forgive Me, Child (Heartache Remix)

$Radiarc - Remember me Hours, days...I wasnt aware anymore. I was at the mercy of the world surrounding, terrifying in its beauty, waving and flowing with colors one could only dream of. Tessellations and fractals surged through the flowers and grass, and I, too, emanated an aura infinitely intricate, yet idiosyncratic; no other soul was to be seen, yet I felt as though I was not alone. It was then that I gazed into the distance and I saw a faint figure wading through the flowers, but for as long as I stared, I could not understand. I began to approach, but she appeared before me in an instant, her long hair flowing as though submerged in the atmosphere itself. Remember me? she asked in a familiar voice, freezing me completely in place. I couldnt speak. https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/remember-me The picture was a commission by Amaryllis: https://www.deviantart.com/amaryllisno Come on, she continued, Remember me. I know you do. I staggered back briefly and inhaled slowly and deeply, regaining composure. Id...seen her before, but her face was obscured in a way I couldnt understand. She stood still for a minute before she sighed and put her hands in her pockets, then turned around, looking into the horizon, growing darker with every word she spoke. It isnt me, and its not you, either, she said in a mournful tone, walking into the night ahead. I just cant believe you never saw. The world was still, but I was shaken. Yet I knew the only way forward was to give chase, so after a moments pause, I did, and the sky split in two as the fields opened into a grand valley, dividing as the figure walked away. She turned and I stopped, inciting an uncomfortably familiar smile, though her eyes remained a mystery. I could sense the impending denouement, but I knew it was too soon, and I believe she did, too, but the overwhelming uncertainty I felt compelled me. I leapt forward and swung first, and she swiftly responded. The rest was a blur. All I can remember now are thoughts and emotions, and the beginning of a sense of clarity. Perhaps I did remember, but not completely. I was sad, nostalgic...I recall the scent of ashes scattered in the wind and a pain gradually welling in my heart. I liked her hair, though. https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/ https://www.patreon.com/radiarc I dont even know what to say about this, other than Ive never made a song that I felt represented me more than this one. This is going to be the art used for the album when I complete it, and I feel it says everything I want to convey. Ive gone through many things in life, but this year, I feel completely different, like Im seeing a world that I couldnt before. And its wonderful. The last trip I took was so beautiful and vivid, and Im so incredibly positive that Im on the path to live the life I truly want. It was surreal...its as though Ive never been happy before. About the song, though, the chords were heavily inspired by a song I deeply resonate with called Valentine by Kupla, I believe. It shows up on the lofi hiphop station every now and then, and it just hits so much differently from other tracks. Im normally a critical listener inadvertently, but I just...feel that song, and I love it to pieces. Speaking of the album, though, this song is at the beginning of the point where Tammy, the figure on the right (also the same one in If Only) starts to understand everything about this place and what it is, but theres still more to witness and wander through before the truth is discovered. Ive already written (and uploaded) two songs chronologically ahead of this one, but Ive got a few more before the project will be complete. The more I write, the more I see myself as Tammy, and its strange. Ive never connected with my characters like this, but its nice, and if this keeps going as planned, Ill finally have something that Im truly happy with. I hope you all enjoy it, too.$

Radiarc and Frozen Night play Hollow Knight randomizer

$Radiarc - In these brief moments https://www.deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/squeaky-589658814 https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/in-these-brief-moments In these brief moments, I look back, to all that has been, to all I have been. All Ive done in ignorance, all that has fallen to ruin before me, all Ive sought but never found, and in my desperation to love and be loved, the lies Ive believed. I see nothing was as I thought, and the world I live in resembles nothing of memory; a sterile pit of troubled husks is all that will remain, a false peace built atop a people misled, divided, betrayed, and slaughtered by avarice, though none care to acknowledge, and I am left alone to watch everything drift away. In these brief moments, Ive since returned to the fields ever waving in search of the path forward. In the disquiet of night, I see a world bathed in sin, and I am no different. Loathesome, wretched, vile, detestable. I hear nothing else, for Ive felt nothing else, nor am I deserving. In the fields I lay, pierced, lacerated, every familiar tie to my form severed, the weight of my sin rending my sanity as sawblades pressed into my mind, ringing through every percievable frequency, the taste of blood inescapable; that Ive felt even a fraction of hell, I cry out for forgiveness and cling to life, though I witness reality breaking apart everywhere I look, everywhere I think. Imperfection is woven into every fiber of my being, and feeling with every step how thoroughly Ive been torn to rid myself of it, I breathe deeply and walk the path of repentance. In these brief moments, I see what lies ahead, but so much as I am able, I will be there for those around me, and for those that hear my words, know that you are loved. For as long as I am here, I will speak, and its my hope and prayer that what Ive said over the years has resonated to any degree. As promised, this is free, though any and all help is immensely appreciated. That you listen to me at all, I am thankful, and I wish you the best. https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/$