Uploaded January 2026 | Updated September 2026, 3 weeks ago

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“Such a Big Man” is a dark-leaning synthpop track that examines power, intimidation, and emotional consequence through a restrained, adult perspective, pairing cold electronic textures with a slightly more driving rhythm.

This is the second track in the forthcoming "The Secret Smile" EP. "Such a Big Man" is about my stepfather, who graduated from San Quentin Prison and brought his racism, sexism, homophobia and misogyny home to me when I was very young.

You're such a big man
such a big man
you can tell by
all the ink on your hands
and by the slurs you say
each and every single day
you're such a big man
You lord it over women and kids
I'm sure you impressed them
in the penitentiary
I'm sure you did it
every day
anyone you could make feel
powerless
you'd just rule with your fists
such a big man
If I had only known your fate
back when I was eight
I'd have to wait over 40 years
to know you'd end up all alone
it's fitting for someone who could
never atone
for all the pain that they caused
you'd never once paused
and considered your actions
you're such a big man
such a big man
You were all about control
you ruled by fear
everyone who you held dear
all it was, year after year
was pain you inflicted
in an environment you restricted
it was a prison of your making
and was one made for escaping
so glad I could find my way out
yeah there can be no doubt
you were such a big man


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