Uploaded February 2011 | Updated September 2026, 48 minutes ago
i wish i could tell you guys what im dealing with on the inside. i wish you guys could use that to relate to me that much more. but i... just.. cant. honestly, im scared.
do you ever feel like youre alone? that no one understands you? like, that you want to talk about it, so that you can have someone understand you? but you dont, and you cant. you dont want to be a sob story that people have to listen to you every night about. you dont want people to feel bad for you. and that even though you have someone that you can tell anything to about, that they just cant understand how youre feeling?
and you know it has nothing to do with anyone else and that its no one elses fault. you feel like somethings wrong with you. and you get angry and frustrated at yourself that youre not like the other people, that something is just wrong with you.
and you'd give anything, be anything, put on a fake smile every single day just to try to fit in. but deep down, you dont even understand what youre feeling, or why youre feeling this way. and thats scary. most of the time, you just want to stay in bed all day, not because youre lazy, but because its easier then gaining the courage to get up and face the world.
And on the inside, theres that voice, just screaming to get out. and it kills you. and you wish that someone would just ask you whats wrong, and actually show that they care about you. but no one does, and that makes you feel even more alone and unwanted.
"You once told me, our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch. Is that true for everybody, or is it just poetic bullshit?"
Will I leave a lasting impression on people? Will I change their lives?
I want to make an impact on people, whether it be helping a kid get an A on their math test, or even a whole group of people.
"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up"
Everyone has something they're dealing with. Everyone. And everyone has a choice, to just give up, or to keep on going through hell and hope that maybe, things will turn out for the better. That through it all, things finally worked in your favor, and not lost it all. You can either be put down by haters and non believers or tell them to just fuck off.
"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it. Because nobody else will."
There are two kinds of people in this world. People who get everything handed to them, and people who work for everything. Person 1 will get all the nice horses, get to go to all the big shows and finals every year, but never seems to come out on top. Person 2 catch rides everything or is training up a green horse, and is lucky to get to go to an A show. But person 2, on the other hand, will get that one special opportunity, and that opportunity will lead them to the top. Through all the tears and hardships, they will get farther than the person whos been handed everything.
And honestly, im glad to be person 2, and I wouldn't want it any other way.
We all sit here and say "I wish I had more money" "I wish I had a nicer horse" etc etc.
But in fact, if you had money, or you had a nicer horse and you had everything handed to you and life easy, you wouldn't be half the rider or person you are today. Because, truth is, you wouldn't have had the experience of training a completely green horse, or falling off every time you rode, or being made a fool out of in the show ring. In the end, you will be glad you weren't person one.
So can you please just promise me one thing. don't give up on your dreams. No matter how bad it is, just, please, don't give up.
_______________________________
people want to see my fails.
get my fs to 1500 questions and ill upload them.
formspring.me/xxJUSTdoITxx
i'll have the wmm tutorial up this week so quit getting your panties in a twist.
_____________________________________
honors♥
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i wish i could tell you guys what im dealing with on the inside. i wish you guys could use that to relate to me that much more. but i... just.. cant. honestly, im scared.
do you ever feel like youre alone? that no one understands you? like, that you want to talk about it, so that you can have someone understand you? but you dont, and you cant. you dont want to be a sob story that people have to listen to you every night about. you dont want people to feel bad for you. and that even though you have someone that you can tell anything to about, that they just cant understand how youre feeling?
and you know it has nothing to do with anyone else and that its no one elses fault. you feel like somethings wrong with you. and you get angry and frustrated at yourself that youre not like the other people, that something is just wrong with you.
and you'd give anything, be anything, put on a fake smile every single day just to try to fit in. but deep down, you dont even understand what youre feeling, or why youre feeling this way. and thats scary. most of the time, you just want to stay in bed all day, not because youre lazy, but because its easier then gaining the courage to get up and face the world.
And on the inside, theres that voice, just screaming to get out. and it kills you. and you wish that someone would just ask you whats wrong, and actually show that they care about you. but no one does, and that makes you feel even more alone and unwanted.
"You once told me, our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch. Is that true for everybody, or is it just poetic bullshit?"
Will I leave a lasting impression on people? Will I change their lives?
I want to make an impact on people, whether it be helping a kid get an A on their math test, or even a whole group of people.
"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up"
Everyone has something they're dealing with. Everyone. And everyone has a choice, to just give up, or to keep on going through hell and hope that maybe, things will turn out for the better. That through it all, things finally worked in your favor, and not lost it all. You can either be put down by haters and non believers or tell them to just fuck off.
"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it. Because nobody else will."
There are two kinds of people in this world. People who get everything handed to them, and people who work for everything. Person 1 will get all the nice horses, get to go to all the big shows and finals every year, but never seems to come out on top. Person 2 catch rides everything or is training up a green horse, and is lucky to get to go to an A show. But person 2, on the other hand, will get that one special opportunity, and that opportunity will lead them to the top. Through all the tears and hardships, they will get farther than the person whos been handed everything.
And honestly, im glad to be person 2, and I wouldn't want it any other way.
We all sit here and say "I wish I had more money" "I wish I had a nicer horse" etc etc.
But in fact, if you had money, or you had a nicer horse and you had everything handed to you and life easy, you wouldn't be half the rider or person you are today. Because, truth is, you wouldn't have had the experience of training a completely green horse, or falling off every time you rode, or being made a fool out of in the show ring. In the end, you will be glad you weren't person one.
So can you please just promise me one thing. don't give up on your dreams. No matter how bad it is, just, please, don't give up.
_______________________________
people want to see my fails.
get my fs to 1500 questions and ill upload them.
formspring.me/xxJUSTdoITxx
i'll have the wmm tutorial up this week so quit getting your panties in a twist.
_____________________________________
honors♥
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2.20.11
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