Uploaded November 2018 | Updated September 2026, 2 hours ago

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Mixed & Mastered by Kevin Walker
Filmed by Justin Patterson
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lyrics

(verse)
getting
caught up in myself
caught-a-at-at up
in myself now
i can’t help but yell
i cannot not not help but get loud

caught up in myself
caught-a-at-at
cause i’m such a sellout
all i eat is self doubt
& midday meltdowns
oh oh

& i can yell
but u won’t
fold fold

i’ll go to hell
just as i’m
told told

you’re just like gel
u never
hold hold
hold hold
hold
on
to
me,

(hook)
& i can’t tell if i
hate everything about myself
or if i just want the attention
oh &
i can’t tell if i
hate everything about myself
or if i just love fabricating
(x2)

(verse)
feeling
sorry for myself
so so so sorry for myself now
i can’t help but dwell
i cannot not not help but bail out

get drunk by myself
ge ge ge get drunk by myself wow
all i drink is stress now
& try to chase clout
oh oh

& i can flex
then take u
home home

ignore your texts
then break my
phone phone

i just want sex
i never
hold
hold
hold
onto
anything

(hook)
& i can’t tell if i
hate everything about myself
or if i just want the attention
oh &
i can’t tell if i
hate everything about myself
or if i just love fabricating
(x2)