Uploaded March 2019 | Updated September 2026, 36 minutes ago

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SHOT & DIRECTED BY NICK MARTINEZ

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MICKEY'S business email // mickeydarlingmusic@gmail.com

COVER ART DONE BY // Gillian Gonzales
gillian's instagram // @gilllboard
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lyrics

(verse)
i never noticed the booze
or all the context clues
my dad hurt u
he hurt me too

i kissed a couple of dudes,
but that was in my youth
i’m still confused
i’m still confused

how’m i the family glue?
i’m only 22
my egos huge
i’m still a douche

breaking hearts till they bruise
or at least trying to
sex doesn’t do
what it used to do


(pre chorus)
i’m a coward too
with the shortest fuse
always sad & blue
& then i realized


(hook)
i’m just a buzzkill
looking for a lover
i’m just an asshole
working undercover
like
what do u see in me?
what do u see in me?


(verse)
i haven’t moved on from u
i only pretend to,
you’re just a muse
that’s nothing new

& i don’t mean to intrude
but could u tie my noose
it’s a little loose
kind of like u

i’m sorry all that i knew
was how to tell the truth
i swear to u
i’m not that rude

i know u hated me too
cause i am not like u
i do the things
that u can’t do


(pre chorus)
i’m a coward too
with the shortest fuse
always sad & blue
& now/then i realized


(hook)
i’m just a buzzkill
looking for a lover
i’m just an asshole
working undercover
like
what do u see in me?
what do u see in me?


(bridge)
i don't wanna fall in love again
i don't wanna fall in love again
i don't wanna fall in love again
i don't wanna fall in love again