PokeLSouma | it's hard when i hate myself | multifandom @PokeLSouma | Uploaded May 2022 | Updated October 2024, 2 days ago.
"And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself"
Sooo, this started out as a sort of vent to get my brain back to focus on work and instead it took over my entire being these past 2 days, as these things tend to do lol.
I've always wanted to try my hands at an edit that isn't really fanwork but more of an.. expression? I mostly picked scenes that resonated with me and tried to tie them together somehow so it's kind of a personal edit. It's kind of a mess but then again, so is mental health isn't it?
Song: Hate myself - NF
Coloring: Evelyn Jackson
"And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself"
Sooo, this started out as a sort of vent to get my brain back to focus on work and instead it took over my entire being these past 2 days, as these things tend to do lol.
I've always wanted to try my hands at an edit that isn't really fanwork but more of an.. expression? I mostly picked scenes that resonated with me and tried to tie them together somehow so it's kind of a personal edit. It's kind of a mess but then again, so is mental health isn't it?
Song: Hate myself - NF
Coloring: Evelyn Jackson
![Malec | I will follow you. [HLBD Lili ♥]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/XF7bzwE61z0/hqdefault.jpg "Malec | I will follow you. [HLBD Lili ♥]
So you can drag me through hell
If it meant I could hold your hand
Yo, its me again!
Welcome to the first FULL edit I’ve done in like 8 years or sth lmao.
I discovered this song through Mitzi’s beautiful AMV (which is also a full and I will like below) and ever since, I couldn’t get it out of my head for this ship. I know it’s a… very negative song by nature, but if you see it as a positive one, it suits them perfectly. They LITERALLY go through hell for one another okay?
I know this is.. very far from being my best edit, but I generally struggle with these types of songs , I lack experience with liveaction edits and my Vegas got so laggy at some point, it was impossible to fix things. So this is what my editing looks like when I don’t spent 5 iterations of rendering and fixing. Also, my style changed quite a bit while I was working on this, so it’s a bit messy and incoherent in parts, I’m super sorry about that. I do enjoy the ending tho, that worked out well at least.
Also, this took 4 hours to render. I cried. A lot. And my computer suffered.
Anyway, MALEC. Man, I love them so much. I loved them in the books (which I hate, but hey), and I love them so so much more in the TV show. You can’t imagine how many times I cried while watching it but.. I did lol. They broke my heart into so many pieces. And THAT ENDING. AAAAHHHH. It made me so happy.
Oh well, most importantly, this is a (VERY) late birthday present for one of the most wonderful people in my life.
HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY LILI. Im sorry this is so awfully late but I promised you, and here it is. Had my internet not been out for a month I wouldve been done quicker but heeey, I made it. Also I PROMISE one day I wont make heartbreaking edits for your birthday, but this year is not that year.
I... cant even begin to tell you how thankful I am for you. This year more than ever but.. always, honestly. I wrote you a long ass essay a while ago so lets just... imagine I write the same thing here bc Im tired and would end up in rambeling lol. But damn, I love you so much, and I hope this will make you happy! Thanks for being part of my life, and I hope the coming years will have good things in store for you, despite the hardship life keeps throwing at you. Ill be there for you all along on the journey and help you get through whatever it is. I hope you enjoy our babies being awful and adorable together as much as I did editing them being just that!
Song. Follow You - Bring Me The Horizon
Footage. Shadowhunters
Coloring. SunnyVids
Inspo. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=On-HC3KxHn4
#fanvidfeed")
![Heartbeat | HBD Dicey [w/ Skype Crew]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/XuZ2uvTy1X8/hqdefault.jpg "Heartbeat | HBD Dicey [w/ Skype Crew]
Hey hey, beautiful the sunshine shines oh oh so bright
(and it shines just for Dicey today!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DICEY!!!
I dont think we even need to act like this is a surprise at this point but it comes from the heart. We love youuuuuu.
I hope you enjoy this throwback SatoKasu collab we put together for you! The song was suprisingly hard to edit but also a lot of fun!!
Prove how much we love you:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1UWWtEJ2MwELnWdBjl9X-4sRBgCR6ZDf-5TjcuJVRz8w/edit?usp=sharing
Part 1: Gany
Part 2: Dina
Part 3: Lena
Part 4: Sapphy
Song: Heartbeat - Stereo Skyline
Part 3 art credit:
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/1908959
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/263803
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/841188
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/2598912
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/16029633
https://ikari-cat.tumblr.com/
https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/1394030")
![[MLS] Lifes like this..](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZCJjlthghBM/hqdefault.jpg "[MLS] Lifes like this..
Majestic Lie Studio
[マジェスティックリースタジオ]
Where kids are never safe...
Full Mep: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dE5nhGbXtU&feature=plcp&context=C4d5ee99VDvjVQa1PpcFMVily0y4lpt8lnecjwIi9kvq3RW3MKiVY=
Another mep part uploaded. But I really like this part a lot so I just HAD to upload it :) Can you believe I made this within a day, as fill in? It is my part for MLS 1 year mep btw. The mep is amazing you should totally watch it!
For song & anime, sent me a pm :)")
