Uploaded March 2020 | Updated September 2026, 59 minutes ago
I am beginning to think of the prospect of having children.
After starting testosterone, I was able to visualize myself having a family of my own; I was no longer constricted to thinking of myself as a mother.
This revelation fueled thoughts of family that have now been constant on my mind.
I find myself revisiting the possibility of giving birth.
I, now, understand it is an experience owned by many, not solely cisgender women.
Would this be something I want to do?
I understand choosing “yes” would mean halting my testosterone injections for over a year.
I also understand this would cause me extreme dysphoria.
Could I conquer this in order to bear a child of my own?
How important is this to me?
I wanted to create a visualization of this inner dialogue by comparing my body, pregnant versus on testosterone.
Behind me, shots spell out the primary question I do not yet have an answer to.
The question, unfinished. represents the stage I am in while posing it.
However, I consider my literal actions underneath the needles to embody the final word, “doing.”
Is it worth doing?
I am beginning to think of the prospect of having children.
After starting testosterone, I was able to visualize myself having a family of my own; I was no longer constricted to thinking of myself as a mother.
This revelation fueled thoughts of family that have now been constant on my mind.
I find myself revisiting the possibility of giving birth.
I, now, understand it is an experience owned by many, not solely cisgender women.
Would this be something I want to do?
I understand choosing “yes” would mean halting my testosterone injections for over a year.
I also understand this would cause me extreme dysphoria.
Could I conquer this in order to bear a child of my own?
How important is this to me?
I wanted to create a visualization of this inner dialogue by comparing my body, pregnant versus on testosterone.
Behind me, shots spell out the primary question I do not yet have an answer to.
The question, unfinished. represents the stage I am in while posing it.
However, I consider my literal actions underneath the needles to embody the final word, “doing.”
Is it worth doing?
