Uploaded November 2022 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
I had a day today and needed to get it all out in the practice room.
Love y'all.
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How vague does vague have to be?
Gimme the words, God, help me to speak
‘Cause I never felt less like I existed
Hello friends, I’m back into fiction
‘Cause I can’t read him the way I read prose
‘Can’t highlight his words or write in footnotes
Shouldn’t lean too much on intuition
Or skip to the end,
And write my own.
Girl you’re going in too deep
Girl you’re going in too fast
They never even said goodbye
Barely even eye contact
And I had a friend that told me today
That I would be a damn hard person to hate
So how do I move, y’all, how do I play?
When they act like I’m invisible
Invisible
I had a day today and needed to get it all out in the practice room.
Love y'all.
♬♩♪♩
BUY MY MUSIC: laurenbiggsmusic.com
MY LINKS: solo.to/laureliamadeus
BUY ME A COFFEE:
ko-fi.com/laureliamadeus
♬♩♪♩
How vague does vague have to be?
Gimme the words, God, help me to speak
‘Cause I never felt less like I existed
Hello friends, I’m back into fiction
‘Cause I can’t read him the way I read prose
‘Can’t highlight his words or write in footnotes
Shouldn’t lean too much on intuition
Or skip to the end,
And write my own.
Girl you’re going in too deep
Girl you’re going in too fast
They never even said goodbye
Barely even eye contact
And I had a friend that told me today
That I would be a damn hard person to hate
So how do I move, y’all, how do I play?
When they act like I’m invisible
Invisible


![Im Alive, Arent I? (Sometimes, Karma Isnt a Bitch Richie Branson remix)
So a while back I heard this song at the end of the episode The Forest of Camp Camp and I just loved the mellow, melancholic vibe and wanted to write my own lyrics and melodies. Richie Branson, who writes all the ending music for the show on Rooster Teeth, is super talented and hes got some great stuff, give him a look!
Richie Bransons Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV7eKepD9v4IeU99ndTV14Q
& Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/richiebranson
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ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/juvenescence/1450328437
BANDCAMP: https://laureliamadeus.bandcamp.com/
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INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/laureli.amadeus/
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[Verse]
Grinding my teeth even when I’m awake
What do I gotta do to extinguish the ache
In my legs, they’re shaking, heart is breaking
Down, down, down, down
Rip the air from my lungs
Even half-dead I’ll be tryna run
But what am I looking for?
What am I looking for?
Just one of my friendly shadows
That way I’m not alone
They’re crawling through my dreams
But when I wake up, it’s all floating downstream
Just take me back to right before all the hurt
So I can take a breath, roll up the sleeves of my shirt
Cause I been missing my friends ever since we tore apart
[Chorus]
It’s all right, I’m doing fine
Out here in the forest with nobody but my mind
Don’t think, just move
I been living for myself too, myself too
I’m alive, aren’t I, what more I gotta prove?
[Outro]
In my legs, they’re shaking, heart is breaking
Down, down, down, down
In my legs, they’re shaking, heart is breaking
Down, down, down, down
In my legs, they’re shaking, heart is breaking
Down, down, down, down
In my legs, they’re shaking, heart is breaking
Down, down, down, down Im Alive, Arent I? (Sometimes, Karma Isnt a Bitch Richie Branson remix)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZKLizEEOEeg/mqdefault.jpg)


![Lament
not to kill the mood but whenever I see this painting all I can think of is that is he...you know meme
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ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/juvenescence/1450328437
BANDCAMP: https://laureliamadeus.bandcamp.com/
SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/user-272629114
TUMBLR: laureli-amadeus-music.tumblr.com
INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/laureli.amadeus/
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My blood so bright on Your creation
This sure ain’t what I envisioned
I’ve been chased out of Your temples
By those who claim they’re Yours
God, there’s so many like me
When will they act how they preach
I didn’t think my heart could sink any lower
My heart could sink even lower still
I see things I can’t identify
I can’t breathe, these words are flying by
This heat has got its own rhythm
Now when will I get big and strong like You?
Big and strong like You?
Darkest pitch in September
My fingers going black
The days are getting colder
Days I can’t play back
The curtains plaid; blue and yellow
Eleven beds, all ramshackle
They say they want me here
Which parts do they desire?
Should I go back to the party?
Hide behind my phone?
Watch as they’re all singing
And yearn to sing along
This ain’t my place
These aren’t my people
You’d think we’re the same
But I know these streets
And here they stumble
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
Cause those right there are my people
I count them all by hand
Spread across the nation
We share Your holy land
All I wanted was some peace
Oh, brother
All I wanted was some peace of mine
Oh, brother
[Outro]
Dont wanna say I wanna stay
Dont wanna say I wanna go
Disappointment reigns
Even in the gentlest snow
It never stops, it never ceases
Stop...
Im falling in, Im falling in, Im falling in
Youre rushing in, youre rushing in, youre rushing in
God these arent my people
Theyre quite close by in fact
Spread across the nation
And I just want em back Lament](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZmCfTGY3dyQ/mqdefault.jpg)
![Wanderlust
ay marimba
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ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/juvenescence/1450328437
BANDCAMP: https://laureli.bandcamp.com/releases
SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/user-272629114
TUMBLR: laureli-music.tumblr.com
INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/laur_eli_/
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[Verse]
You were the sun, and I was sunlit
You were, I was; we’re in the past tense
I ain’t lettin’ you waste me away no more
[Chorus]
You had that wayfare way about you
So far apart, I hated falling through
A little more savoir faire, a sway to my step
My faith and your love ain’t back-to-back baby
Oh
[Verse]
My heart is gonna stay right where I left it
I’ve made peace with those parts of us
My frame of mind and your wanderlust
I guess love is just a hit-and-run for you
[Chorus 2]
You had that wayfare way about you
So far apart, I hated falling through
You were the sun, and I was sunlit
What a fool, you and I would never make it
You and I would never make it
You and I would never make it
Wait a minute–are you hearing what I said?
Without you, I’m painting the town red
Baby you know I’m chill with that
I’ll be leaving the ghost of you I’ve kept
Used to feel your smile from a thousand miles away
(What a fool, you and I would never make it)
I was falling, now I’m flying
I was never gonna let you go, oh, oh
But now you’re in the past-tense, babe, you hear?
Now you’re in the past-tense, babe
But now you’re in the past-tense, babe, you hear?
Now you’re in the past-tense Wanderlust](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/_6EMNcqmu0Q/mqdefault.jpg)



![War Hands (reupload)
reupload to make it louder... :)
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INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/laureli.ama...
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[Verse]
Whatever names I’m thrown, it ain’t set in stone till you
Meet me on the playground for a war
Cause if you push, I’ll shove (I’ll shove)
I won’t fall to the likes of you
You can make my little life a living Hell
Till you can’t hold this guilt all by yourself
[Pre-chorus]
I know I’m not supposed to be cross
These are dire times
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
[Chorus]
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
Though our height ain’t too distant
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
Though our height ain’t too distant
[Verse]
Morph me a catastrophe to swallow
Until my limbs are pulled apart
It’s been a tragedy right from the start
So mourn me, mourn me, mourn me everyone
[Bridge]
Now that I’m finally free
I’d like to say to younger me
It gets better
It gets better
Better, it gets better
Better, it gets better
[Pre-chorus]
I know I’m not supposed to be cross
These are dire times
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
And what you know, you know
[Chorus]
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
Though our height ain’t too distant
I can touch the sky better better than you, better better than you
Though our height ain’t too distant
Cause if you push, I’ll shove
I won’t fall to the likes of you War Hands (reupload)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/aFJiTsqBU80/mqdefault.jpg)