CsillaLoli | I know I'm a mess | vent @CsillaLoli | Uploaded 6 years ago | Updated 18 hours ago
tbh I finished this video a couple weeks ago but I held off because I didn't want to worry anyone about my anxiety. Well seeing someone I care about posting a recent vent kind of gave me the courage to post this one...

why this song? well I had been considering vanishing - just log off of everything, delete whatsapp, and any means of anyone contacting me. I wasn't feeling suicidal, it was just that the littlest of things were making me feel horrible and what made me feel worse was acknowledging that these THINGS were silly to be upset about. I actually didn't want to tell anyone that my anxiety had started acting up back then, I really only ended up telling two people (one I share a bed with and the other because she's been the easiest person to admit these things to)

So to the friends I hadn't confided in, please don't feel like I can't come to you!! I want to, but at the same time when things get bad: I'm scared that my constant whining will annoy one of you to say "fuck that" and disappear. I love every single one of you, girls! &I feel constantly blessed having met all of you...

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footage: black clover, kuroshitsuji, trickster, danganronpa 2.5, charlotte, koe no katachi, more dr, voltron