Uploaded October 2021 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
hi, i thought about this all day today and yesterday and i have been vaguely thinking about it recently so what i am about to talk about here did not come up out of nowhere, this is something i have been thinking a lot lately.
basically geometry dash is not the same game to me as it used to be, i mean, ''competitively'', the reason for this is that it's not as fun as it used to be, every level i pick to play gets me annoyed or impatient, making it harder for me to have fun, all of this combined with my lack of free time to put as much effort in the game as i used to, it's just not being fun to me anymore, what i am trying to say is that i may start playing the game more casually than usual, that's because i want to play it to have fun, not to be the best or to push myself beyond my limits which is not healthy and not how i should be playing this game, lacking rest, lacking time to do other important stuff, etc, i know this might be disappointing to some of you but for me it's the right approach, i do not have the free time necessary to keep grinding things such as tartarus, swi and others anymore, i have played this game for over 7-8 years by now, and nowadays i can really feel the drastic damage this game is doing to my hand, do not worry, it's not that i can't play anymore or my hand is injured bad or anything, but i have noticed in the last couple weeks this game has been tiring me mentally and physically (my hand/finger) a lot faster than it used to, and that's quite concerning for me actually, i don't want to have any health issues because of a computer game, nor do i want to feel like i'm wasting my precious and small free time to do other stuff that i would enjoy much more, so for now, even if i beat extremes my upload schedule will drop drastically and i hope all of you can understand, i'm trying to have fun, not destroy my health just for some internet clicks.
this does not mean all my projects are dead though, beyond hell is certainly coming in the future and it's my top priority in this game right now, i also plan on making a gdbr rewind for this year with help of other people but i can't promise anything ok? i'm trying my best with what i have here, and also i'm not completely quitting the game, i'll just play way less than i used to, that's all.
another thing is that my motivation has completed vanished recently because of a couple things, first is that i don't feel like my efforts mean something, it feels pointless sometimes, especially because i'm banned from pointercrate (which i'll talk about it later still), and also because my desire to beat all red extremes although it's pretty ''close'' of happening it's actually very far away if you think about it, i have to beat tartarus, kenos and promethean, all really difficult top 15, top 10 and top 1 levels, and recently slaughterhouse got verified and it just demolished my hopes of ever achieving this goal, i'm so sorry to disappoint but i might not be able to complete it... and all of this combined with the other stuff i mentioned earlier is just destroying my fun with the game, it's like i'm playing because i feel the need to, not because i actually want to, which let's agree it doesn't feel right in the slightest.
now let's talk about my pointercrate ban, the whole situation is pretty sad actually, i've said before and i'll say it again, permabans are stupid and are not the right approach for hacking, i don't get how banning someone for their entire lives from participating in a record list, even if after years they change for good is reasonable, it feels unfair and as far as it goes, this won't change probably ever, friends tried everything they could, other pro players, brazilian pro players, creators, influential people, people who understand about hacking and many other people tried to get me at least a chance of redemption but it always got to nowhere, honestly it's a shame, i feel like i'll be forever doomed by what i did in the past and there's no recovering from it, pretty sad and disappointing honestly.
people who know me personally know that i work 12 hours a day and i just realized i can't be doing that and keep stressing myself with this game it's fucking up my confidence in doing stuff and making me feel worthless as time passes by, like i said it's not fun to me anymore, it's not the same, and i want to be happier in life because the way i'm living right now feels more like me slowly going insane than anything else, again sorry people, there's no video in this channel more honest to you than this one, i wish all the people who play this for beating hard stuff the best and that you can achieve all your goals, i'm counting on you for representing brazil, and for the rest of you who followed my journey all the way here since i got exposed and are still following me, i can't thank you enough, it was a wild ride, but everything has an end, and this is where my days of trying hard geometry dash end.
hi, i thought about this all day today and yesterday and i have been vaguely thinking about it recently so what i am about to talk about here did not come up out of nowhere, this is something i have been thinking a lot lately.
basically geometry dash is not the same game to me as it used to be, i mean, ''competitively'', the reason for this is that it's not as fun as it used to be, every level i pick to play gets me annoyed or impatient, making it harder for me to have fun, all of this combined with my lack of free time to put as much effort in the game as i used to, it's just not being fun to me anymore, what i am trying to say is that i may start playing the game more casually than usual, that's because i want to play it to have fun, not to be the best or to push myself beyond my limits which is not healthy and not how i should be playing this game, lacking rest, lacking time to do other important stuff, etc, i know this might be disappointing to some of you but for me it's the right approach, i do not have the free time necessary to keep grinding things such as tartarus, swi and others anymore, i have played this game for over 7-8 years by now, and nowadays i can really feel the drastic damage this game is doing to my hand, do not worry, it's not that i can't play anymore or my hand is injured bad or anything, but i have noticed in the last couple weeks this game has been tiring me mentally and physically (my hand/finger) a lot faster than it used to, and that's quite concerning for me actually, i don't want to have any health issues because of a computer game, nor do i want to feel like i'm wasting my precious and small free time to do other stuff that i would enjoy much more, so for now, even if i beat extremes my upload schedule will drop drastically and i hope all of you can understand, i'm trying to have fun, not destroy my health just for some internet clicks.
this does not mean all my projects are dead though, beyond hell is certainly coming in the future and it's my top priority in this game right now, i also plan on making a gdbr rewind for this year with help of other people but i can't promise anything ok? i'm trying my best with what i have here, and also i'm not completely quitting the game, i'll just play way less than i used to, that's all.
another thing is that my motivation has completed vanished recently because of a couple things, first is that i don't feel like my efforts mean something, it feels pointless sometimes, especially because i'm banned from pointercrate (which i'll talk about it later still), and also because my desire to beat all red extremes although it's pretty ''close'' of happening it's actually very far away if you think about it, i have to beat tartarus, kenos and promethean, all really difficult top 15, top 10 and top 1 levels, and recently slaughterhouse got verified and it just demolished my hopes of ever achieving this goal, i'm so sorry to disappoint but i might not be able to complete it... and all of this combined with the other stuff i mentioned earlier is just destroying my fun with the game, it's like i'm playing because i feel the need to, not because i actually want to, which let's agree it doesn't feel right in the slightest.
now let's talk about my pointercrate ban, the whole situation is pretty sad actually, i've said before and i'll say it again, permabans are stupid and are not the right approach for hacking, i don't get how banning someone for their entire lives from participating in a record list, even if after years they change for good is reasonable, it feels unfair and as far as it goes, this won't change probably ever, friends tried everything they could, other pro players, brazilian pro players, creators, influential people, people who understand about hacking and many other people tried to get me at least a chance of redemption but it always got to nowhere, honestly it's a shame, i feel like i'll be forever doomed by what i did in the past and there's no recovering from it, pretty sad and disappointing honestly.
people who know me personally know that i work 12 hours a day and i just realized i can't be doing that and keep stressing myself with this game it's fucking up my confidence in doing stuff and making me feel worthless as time passes by, like i said it's not fun to me anymore, it's not the same, and i want to be happier in life because the way i'm living right now feels more like me slowly going insane than anything else, again sorry people, there's no video in this channel more honest to you than this one, i wish all the people who play this for beating hard stuff the best and that you can achieve all your goals, i'm counting on you for representing brazil, and for the rest of you who followed my journey all the way here since i got exposed and are still following me, i can't thank you enough, it was a wild ride, but everything has an end, and this is where my days of trying hard geometry dash end.
