Uploaded October 2024 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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"First Try" is my reflection on the year 2023/24.
Hope you enjoy! (cries)

Lead Vocals: Autumn Jessel @autumn_jessel
Violin: Ariana Mares @arianasmares
Viola: Andy Park @4ndy_park
Cello: Magdaline Kovalchuk @magster13
BGVs: Melody Hake @melodykimberly_music & Selah Hoerger @selalalah_

Music and lyrics by Lauren Biggs (Laureli Amadeus)

“Life ain’t fair” is what I’ve learned, a couple times over.
October couldn’t break me down,
But the damage builds up slower.
Like a bruise on the neck of a guy I liked;
Jealousy is where hurt goes to hide.
Feels like I’ll never be loved in the ways I need.
God—!
How did he get it on the first try?
…and why not me?
Why not me?
How did he get it on the first try,
…and why not me?
Why not me?

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