Uploaded January 2022 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
I wrote this in the middle of nowhere Alaska while strangers partied in the lodge next door. the rain throughout and the demo at the end were recorded directly from the cabin I was hiding out in. in the demo I paused a few times because I was still composing the lyrics as I went along, but I decided to keep that in the official version because it was a very raw and lonely evening for me.
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SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/artist/2dyX0QEcKG56dd5l9Pd2G5 AND open.spotify.com/artist/5g0bnBLy36bFr7ssEW2vcS?si=q0Po5CSaRT2hAk-xB4kUzQ
ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: itunes.apple.com/us/album/juvenescence/1450328437
BANDCAMP: laureliamadeus.bandcamp.com
SOUNDCLOUD: soundcloud.com/user-272629114
TUMBLR: laureli-amadeus-music.tumblr.com
INSTAGRAM: instagram.com/laureli.amadeus
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My blood so bright on Your creation
This sure ain’t what I envisioned
I’ve been chased out of Your temples
By those who claim they’re Yours
God, there’s so many like me
When will they act how they preach?
I didn’t think my heart could sink any lower
My heart could sink any lower still
I see things I can’t identify
I can’t breathe, these words are flying by
This heat has got its own rhythm
When will I get big and strong like You?
Big and strong like You?
The darkest pitch in September
My fingers going black
The days are getting colder
Days I can’t play back
The curtains plaid, blue and yellow
Eleven beds, all ramshackle
They say they want me here
Which parts do they desire?
Should I go back to the party?
Hide behind my phone?
Watch as they’re all singing
And yearn to sing along
This ain’t my place
These aren’t my people
You’d think we’re the same
But I know these streets
And here they stumble
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
‘Cause those right there are my people
I count them all by hand
Spread across the nation
We share Your holy land
All I wanted was some peace
Oh, brother
All I wanted was some peace of mine
Oh, brother
Don’t wanna say I wanna stay
Don’t wanna say I wanna go
Disappointment reigns
Even in the gentlest snow
It never stops, it never ceases
Stop
I’m falling in, I’m falling in, I’m falling in
You’re rushing in, you’re rushing in, you’re rushing in
God, these aren’t my people
They’re quite close by in fact
Spread across the nation
And I just want ‘em back
I wrote this in the middle of nowhere Alaska while strangers partied in the lodge next door. the rain throughout and the demo at the end were recorded directly from the cabin I was hiding out in. in the demo I paused a few times because I was still composing the lyrics as I went along, but I decided to keep that in the official version because it was a very raw and lonely evening for me.
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SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/artist/2dyX0QEcKG56dd5l9Pd2G5 AND open.spotify.com/artist/5g0bnBLy36bFr7ssEW2vcS?si=q0Po5CSaRT2hAk-xB4kUzQ
ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: itunes.apple.com/us/album/juvenescence/1450328437
BANDCAMP: laureliamadeus.bandcamp.com
SOUNDCLOUD: soundcloud.com/user-272629114
TUMBLR: laureli-amadeus-music.tumblr.com
INSTAGRAM: instagram.com/laureli.amadeus
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My blood so bright on Your creation
This sure ain’t what I envisioned
I’ve been chased out of Your temples
By those who claim they’re Yours
God, there’s so many like me
When will they act how they preach?
I didn’t think my heart could sink any lower
My heart could sink any lower still
I see things I can’t identify
I can’t breathe, these words are flying by
This heat has got its own rhythm
When will I get big and strong like You?
Big and strong like You?
The darkest pitch in September
My fingers going black
The days are getting colder
Days I can’t play back
The curtains plaid, blue and yellow
Eleven beds, all ramshackle
They say they want me here
Which parts do they desire?
Should I go back to the party?
Hide behind my phone?
Watch as they’re all singing
And yearn to sing along
This ain’t my place
These aren’t my people
You’d think we’re the same
But I know these streets
And here they stumble
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
Bring in the cavalry
To call back summer
‘Cause those right there are my people
I count them all by hand
Spread across the nation
We share Your holy land
All I wanted was some peace
Oh, brother
All I wanted was some peace of mine
Oh, brother
Don’t wanna say I wanna stay
Don’t wanna say I wanna go
Disappointment reigns
Even in the gentlest snow
It never stops, it never ceases
Stop
I’m falling in, I’m falling in, I’m falling in
You’re rushing in, you’re rushing in, you’re rushing in
God, these aren’t my people
They’re quite close by in fact
Spread across the nation
And I just want ‘em back
