Uploaded October 2025 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago
Episode 31: What happens when you grow up with 44 siblings in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult—and realize the whole world might just be...a cult?
In another raw, late-night (after 2am) “sleep-drunk” episode in New York City, I talk about what it’s like to wake up from a belief system, how cult documentaries miss the real story, and the one simple practice that can keep any of us free from cults.
Ready to dive in? Always follow the white rabbit.
Follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and X — @calvinwayman
⏱️ YouTube Chapters
0:00 – Sleep-drunk honesty returns 🌙
1:04 – Building a little “culty” community 🌀
2:03 – Wait…44-siblings? 😳
7:17 – Turning the Wayman name cool again 😎
7:47 – Realizing I was born into a cult 🧠
9:46 – The mind-fuck of doubt, while in a cult 🪞
10:18 – Why cult documentaries miss it 🎥
12:50 – The fish story: “what is water?” 🐠
13:52 – You are the fish? (Hint: we all are) 🌊
17:04 – The good news: you’re not alone 💛
19:20 – Cultiness is everywhere 🌍
24:50 – Doing “the right thing” = cult rule #1 ⚖️
27:44 – Beyond religion: politics, media, academia 🧩
29:35 – The gift of seeing through illusions 👁️
31:42 – The danger of missing the good 🌤️
35:22 – Why I still love America 🇺🇸
36:39 – Higher education as a modern cult 🎓
47:55 – The hardest, bravest thing: curiosity 💫
49:33 – We’re all believing some BS right now 💩
53:04 – Why America’s core values still matter 🗽
56:36 – Leaving despite eternal punishment 🔥
58:00 – The human story of leaving ❤️
1:00:46 – How to avoid being trapped in a cult: state the obvious 🪩
1:03:05 – Replace righteousness with honesty 💬
1:05:17 – Mormonism is a cult—and full of good people 🤝
1:06:16 – We’re all participating in the system 🔄
1:07:02 – Honesty is freedom 🕊️
1:07:30 – The next chapter of Cultured Boy 🎬
Episode 31: What happens when you grow up with 44 siblings in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult—and realize the whole world might just be...a cult?
In another raw, late-night (after 2am) “sleep-drunk” episode in New York City, I talk about what it’s like to wake up from a belief system, how cult documentaries miss the real story, and the one simple practice that can keep any of us free from cults.
Ready to dive in? Always follow the white rabbit.
Follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and X — @calvinwayman
⏱️ YouTube Chapters
0:00 – Sleep-drunk honesty returns 🌙
1:04 – Building a little “culty” community 🌀
2:03 – Wait…44-siblings? 😳
7:17 – Turning the Wayman name cool again 😎
7:47 – Realizing I was born into a cult 🧠
9:46 – The mind-fuck of doubt, while in a cult 🪞
10:18 – Why cult documentaries miss it 🎥
12:50 – The fish story: “what is water?” 🐠
13:52 – You are the fish? (Hint: we all are) 🌊
17:04 – The good news: you’re not alone 💛
19:20 – Cultiness is everywhere 🌍
24:50 – Doing “the right thing” = cult rule #1 ⚖️
27:44 – Beyond religion: politics, media, academia 🧩
29:35 – The gift of seeing through illusions 👁️
31:42 – The danger of missing the good 🌤️
35:22 – Why I still love America 🇺🇸
36:39 – Higher education as a modern cult 🎓
47:55 – The hardest, bravest thing: curiosity 💫
49:33 – We’re all believing some BS right now 💩
53:04 – Why America’s core values still matter 🗽
56:36 – Leaving despite eternal punishment 🔥
58:00 – The human story of leaving ❤️
1:00:46 – How to avoid being trapped in a cult: state the obvious 🪩
1:03:05 – Replace righteousness with honesty 💬
1:05:17 – Mormonism is a cult—and full of good people 🤝
1:06:16 – We’re all participating in the system 🔄
1:07:02 – Honesty is freedom 🕊️
1:07:30 – The next chapter of Cultured Boy 🎬
