Uploaded May 2022 | Updated September 2026, 3 hours ago
From the album "Punishing Myself Before God Does", out now on Facedown Records.
US Merch - facedown.merchnow.com/collections/Confessions-Of-A-Traitor
EU / UK Merch - confessions-of-a-traitor.myshopify.com
Spotify - open.spotify.com/album/222AtgmkJIArvoRoP5KC8S
Apple / iTunes - music.apple.com/album/punishing-myself-before-god-does/1617376556
Facebook - facebook.com/confessionsofatraitor
DIRECTED & FILMED BY Matt Daley clearwaymedia.co.uk
MIXED & MASTERED BY Andrew Wade
VOCAL RECORDING BY Justin Hill
DRUM RECORDING BY Mike Bennett
GUITAR/BASS RECORDING BY Jacob Brand
Lyrics:
Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?
Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?
It’s like a story that plays in the back of my head
Nowhere to hide, so face it instead
A voice screaming louder when you push it aside
Nowhere to run so look inside
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
I refuse to play pretend
It’s white noise in a dark room
Clawing out from your skin
Echoes tower over me, echoes tower over me
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end
Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
Now you tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name
Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?
Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt
Please have mercy on my soul
Is the guilt that I’ve got, the good I didn’t do?
I’ll punish myself before God does
I’ll punish myself before God does
Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
You tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name
Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Turn to face my fears this time
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end
#ConfessionsOfATraitor #FacedownRecords #PunishingMyselfBeforeGodDoes
From the album "Punishing Myself Before God Does", out now on Facedown Records.
US Merch - facedown.merchnow.com/collections/Confessions-Of-A-Traitor
EU / UK Merch - confessions-of-a-traitor.myshopify.com
Spotify - open.spotify.com/album/222AtgmkJIArvoRoP5KC8S
Apple / iTunes - music.apple.com/album/punishing-myself-before-god-does/1617376556
Facebook - facebook.com/confessionsofatraitor
DIRECTED & FILMED BY Matt Daley clearwaymedia.co.uk
MIXED & MASTERED BY Andrew Wade
VOCAL RECORDING BY Justin Hill
DRUM RECORDING BY Mike Bennett
GUITAR/BASS RECORDING BY Jacob Brand
Lyrics:
Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?
Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?
It’s like a story that plays in the back of my head
Nowhere to hide, so face it instead
A voice screaming louder when you push it aside
Nowhere to run so look inside
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
I refuse to play pretend
It’s white noise in a dark room
Clawing out from your skin
Echoes tower over me, echoes tower over me
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end
Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
Now you tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name
Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?
Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt
Please have mercy on my soul
Is the guilt that I’ve got, the good I didn’t do?
I’ll punish myself before God does
I’ll punish myself before God does
Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
You tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name
Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?
God may forgive me, but I won’t
Turn to face my fears this time
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end
#ConfessionsOfATraitor #FacedownRecords #PunishingMyselfBeforeGodDoes
