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![Calm My Fears [official lyrics]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/u9VUgggj9nE/mqdefault.jpg "Calm My Fears [official lyrics]
Track 12 of my #percabethalbum #seaweedbrainandwisegirl")
![Almost Strangers, Barely Friends [piano] - audio](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/u_G92VPMSp4/mqdefault.jpg "Almost Strangers, Barely Friends [piano] - audio
Track 13 from FEEL MY AGE
LYRICS
VERSE
You left without a proper goodbye
So it hurt like hell when you caught your flight
For months and months I’ve seen it comin’
It still hurt like hell when you said nothin’
Friends for a while, connected for life
But you made your choice and threw your knife
It hit your target, stabbed me in herat
I watched my soul slowly depart
CHORUS
I stopped holding my breath
Finally accepted our death
I saw what we were through a new lens
Almost strangers, barely friends
When you held me, I wasn’t along
But now I seen just how you’ve grown
Should’ve known we couldn’t make amends
As almost strangers, barely friends
VERSE
Said I’d never leave you and I never did
Which is more than what you ever said
The last few years were writ with pain
No matter what you couldn’t explain
Loved you for a long time, loved you every night
Loved you no matter what and after every fight
As the weeks went on, my lungs filled with water
But my parents couldn’t lose their last daughter
CHORUS
I stopped holding my breath
Finally accepted our death
I saw what we were through a new lens
Almost strangers, barely friends
When you held me, I wasn’t along
But now I seen just how you’ve grown
Should’ve known we couldn’t make amends
As almost strangers, barely friends
BRIDGE
Don’t know what I was thinking
Tryin’ to save you from your ghosts
Don’t know what I was thinking
Only you can save you from yourself
I know what I was feeling
I let my ghosts possess me
I know what I was feeling
I couldn’t face reality
But I’ve been scared of drowning for so long
Couldn’t find a way to right what was wrong
Been falling apart limb by limb
I forgot I could learn how to swim
CHORUS
I stopped holding my breath
Finally accepted our death
I saw what we were through a new lens
Almost strangers, barely friends
When you held me, I wasn’t along
But now I seen just how you’ve grown
Should’ve known we couldn’t make amends
As almost strangers, barely friends
ENDING
You left without a proper goodbye
So it hurt like hell when you caught your flight
For months and months I’ve seen it comin’
It still hurts like hell when you said
Nothin’
https://open.spotify.com/album/1SszYn9stKW3fE00ToI8zU?si=n8YLJJpCRvqZXy_1zHXkhQ")
![Eulogy to My Past Self [official audio]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/vp1keebnP74/mqdefault.jpg "Eulogy to My Past Self [official audio]
Track 1 from my album Turbulence
LYRICS
Verse:
In the land of rhododendrons
Of a much younger age
You would always laugh with friends
But now you just feel fake
You used to be a lot of things
Happy, innocent, content
You are still a lot of things though
Strong, brave, independent
Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self
Verse:
Welcomed most with shy little arms
But now your arms are crossed
Now nearly unbreakable, closed
With many iron locks
There are few that can unlock them
Few who can break inside
You’ve made extensive barriers
Forgot they’re on your side
Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self
Bridge:
You didn’t stay as long as you should have
Used to be forgiving, quiet and nice
You’re taken away at too young an age
Now yourself you have got to recreate
Never cruel or cowardly, never give up
Be honest and truthful, never give in
Got’ be qualified to be on your side
You put people through more tests, but still kind
Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self
Ending:
I’m sorry you are dead
You can be reborn now
Go recreate yourself
I promise it’s allowed
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![Gen Z [explicit] - audio](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/whg-haLnSfk/mqdefault.jpg "Gen Z [explicit] - audio
Track 1 from SLOW BURN
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