Uploaded August 2020 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago

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Track 1 from my album Turbulence


LYRICS


Verse:
In the land of rhododendrons
Of a much younger age
You would always laugh with friends
But now you just feel fake
You used to be a lot of things
Happy, innocent, content
You are still a lot of things though
Strong, brave, independent

Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self

Verse:
Welcomed most with shy little arms
But now your arms are crossed
Now nearly unbreakable, closed
With many iron locks
There are few that can unlock them
Few who can break inside
You’ve made extensive barriers
Forgot they’re on your side

Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self

Bridge:
You didn’t stay as long as you should have
Used to be forgiving, quiet and nice
You’re taken away at too young an age
Now yourself you have got to recreate

Never cruel or cowardly, never give up
Be honest and truthful, never give in
Got’ be qualified to be on your side
You put people through more tests, but still kind

Chorus:
In a eulogy to my past self
I’d apologize for how you felt
When the avalanche of rocks and pain
Fell and bruised and scraped your face
But you still held your head up high
Slowly started to defy
The world and its unavoidable hell
I’d commend you for it in a eulogy to my past self

Ending:
I’m sorry you are dead
You can be reborn now
Go recreate yourself
I promise it’s allowed







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