Uploaded May 2024 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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I don't normally post vent videos but I've had a lot on my mind lately. I'll delete this later.
I wouldn't necessarily classify myself as a "popular gachatuber" but you get it.

This isn't for a trend or anything, I just wanted to use this audio to explain my struggles as a gachatuber. This shouldn't be a reason why you shouldn't be a gachatuber because trust me, there's its upsides like the fun you get. I just wanted to talk about my struggles.
I've struggled with a lot of obsessive fans, people who made NSFW of me, those who create rumors about me, and a lot of things that are frustrating. People would constantly stalk me, look into my life as much as possible and try to interfere with the people in it. It's terrifying honestly. I've tried to talk with copycats directly but for some reason they manage to twist my words and play victim which leads to everyone seeing me as the bad guy. It sucks to know how easily the sides can switch.
Not to mention, the people who are willing to expose you no matter what is so EXHAUSTING. I had to overthink EVERYTHING and people are just desperate for fire. It's disappointing to see what this community has become. From the way they go to gachatubers and say "All we have is you now", it makes me feel pressured. I'm not a good person, nor is anyone else. We all have our flaws but what matters is the efforts we take to change and improve.
It feels impossible for me to meet friends to the point where I've just isolated myself. If anything, I don't talk to anybody because I have to be aware of the fact that people will hurt me. Hurt me because of my status and abuse it. It's true, I get manipulated easily and refuse to speak of for myself. Meeting friends is just hard as not everyone is trustworthy. Or if anything, they'll only see me as an idol. That's why I try to avoid befriending my fans because I want them to see me as their friend, not an idol but I struggle to state my boundaries.
I'm an anxious person and things like this get me REALLY overwhelmed. The way people judge you, hate, and do things simply because they don't like you is upsetting. However, being gachatuber was definitely an experience for me and I had my fun.

I've come across different people and I said I've never been ashamed to be a gacha kid. In the end, as long as you're doing what you love and you're not hurting anyone, all these flaws will mean nothing to you.