Uploaded May 2018 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
sorry. I dont really like to publicly vent i try to keep it to twitter but honestly idc any more,,,
feel free to ignore this video its more just for my self
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honestly i've been having the worst time worst year just the worst and nothing is getting better NOTHING. every one around me irl is so toxic... no one believes me no one listens to me every one is so selfish and wants me to listen to them.
Im so scared im so lonely I barely even want to keep going, its not worth it nothing gets better, people dont care Im worthless im absolutely miserable i have been for years and every one expects me to be fine. NO ONE listens I cant do anything right.
I've tried to get help I"VE TRIED FOR YEARS 4 COUNCILORS in the span of 3 years but if your problem isnt a drug one in my area they dont care and it doesn't exist I've tried so many "medications" and all they do is make me twitchy to the point i cant sleep. I gave up on getting help its impossible I can't be fixed.
my mom is so verbally abusive and any opportunity she gets she will take to scream at me my grandma is so much worse, I get to the point some nights where i cant do anything but nervously sit at the computer and stare at the wall.
I dont have any real life friends i havent had one sense i was 15 most of the people i met that i thought i was becoming friends with have just been rude and only use me and just take advantage of my nature or my art but then are never there when I need them,, I have 1 online friend left that i feel 100% comfy to be my self around and honestly im so grateful, they are my best friend but i also feel like i bother them too much and im really sorry
i know every one hates each other now but miss the nights the 3 of us would call i miss talking,,, i miss taking a sandwich to crack an egg and the community fursona
sorry for this I've been bottling up everything for so long I dont like venting to people i dont want to bother anyone,, im just... tired
im tired of crying i'm tired of feeling lonely and lost
sorry
sorry. I dont really like to publicly vent i try to keep it to twitter but honestly idc any more,,,
feel free to ignore this video its more just for my self
---------------
honestly i've been having the worst time worst year just the worst and nothing is getting better NOTHING. every one around me irl is so toxic... no one believes me no one listens to me every one is so selfish and wants me to listen to them.
Im so scared im so lonely I barely even want to keep going, its not worth it nothing gets better, people dont care Im worthless im absolutely miserable i have been for years and every one expects me to be fine. NO ONE listens I cant do anything right.
I've tried to get help I"VE TRIED FOR YEARS 4 COUNCILORS in the span of 3 years but if your problem isnt a drug one in my area they dont care and it doesn't exist I've tried so many "medications" and all they do is make me twitchy to the point i cant sleep. I gave up on getting help its impossible I can't be fixed.
my mom is so verbally abusive and any opportunity she gets she will take to scream at me my grandma is so much worse, I get to the point some nights where i cant do anything but nervously sit at the computer and stare at the wall.
I dont have any real life friends i havent had one sense i was 15 most of the people i met that i thought i was becoming friends with have just been rude and only use me and just take advantage of my nature or my art but then are never there when I need them,, I have 1 online friend left that i feel 100% comfy to be my self around and honestly im so grateful, they are my best friend but i also feel like i bother them too much and im really sorry
i know every one hates each other now but miss the nights the 3 of us would call i miss talking,,, i miss taking a sandwich to crack an egg and the community fursona
sorry for this I've been bottling up everything for so long I dont like venting to people i dont want to bother anyone,, im just... tired
im tired of crying i'm tired of feeling lonely and lost
sorry
