Uploaded July 2017 | Updated September 2026, 4 hours ago

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But there's a reason that the road is long
It takes some time to make your courage strong

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hello, I'm not dead (yet) just really stressed which is why I'm so inactive and I have zero motivation and inspiration to work on anything so this is why 80% of the video is kinda... lame lmao

The video was kind of a vent but more like a reminder to hold on and not choose the easy way out. Lenny means the world to me because I can identify with him and his struggles so much, it's never clearly stated on the show but to me he clearly suffers from depression due to his childhood trauma and even though our stories aren't the same, I feel him so much. His constant 'i don't need anyone but myself' attitude when in reality he is just longing to be loved and love but is incredibly scared of getting hurt again. His sleeping trouble, his lack of trust and self-confidence in a way.
And it means so much to me that Jude always expresses of much he loves Lenny and how he cares about him, because not only does that show me that he thankfully understands Lenny but it also (and I know how stupid that sounds) makes me feel like - maybe one day someone can love me too then. And care about me. And takes the time to understand me and tries to help me.
So I'm really really thankful for Lenny, the show in general, and Jude because without them I honestly wouldn't be around anymore.

Anyway, shout out to everyone who can figure out why the video is titled like that.

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