Uploaded November 2024 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
A song about the loss of a parent at Christmas time.
Lyrics written by me:
(Verse 1)
The lights are glowing on the tree,
But they don’t shine as bright to me.
The stockings hang, the fire's warm,
Yet here I sit, lost in the storm.
I hear the carols, the joyful cheer,
But all I want is to have you here.
I close my eyes, your face appears,
A wish I’ve whispered through the years.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Verse 2)
The world is wrapped in red and green,
But memories lie in between.
Your voice, it lingers in the air,
A gentle song, a whispered prayer.
I’ve hung an angel on the tree,
It’s just a piece of you with me.
The snow falls soft, the world turns white,
But nothing fills this empty night.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Bridge)
I know you’d tell me, "Don’t feel sad,
Remember the love and the times we had."
So I’ll unwrap my heart, let the memories play,
And find the joy you’d want today.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Outro)
So here I sit, beneath the tree,
A little child, your memory.
And as the bells ring through the skies,
I feel your smile in my goodbyes.
A song about the loss of a parent at Christmas time.
Lyrics written by me:
(Verse 1)
The lights are glowing on the tree,
But they don’t shine as bright to me.
The stockings hang, the fire's warm,
Yet here I sit, lost in the storm.
I hear the carols, the joyful cheer,
But all I want is to have you here.
I close my eyes, your face appears,
A wish I’ve whispered through the years.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Verse 2)
The world is wrapped in red and green,
But memories lie in between.
Your voice, it lingers in the air,
A gentle song, a whispered prayer.
I’ve hung an angel on the tree,
It’s just a piece of you with me.
The snow falls soft, the world turns white,
But nothing fills this empty night.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Bridge)
I know you’d tell me, "Don’t feel sad,
Remember the love and the times we had."
So I’ll unwrap my heart, let the memories play,
And find the joy you’d want today.
(Chorus)
This Christmas night, I’ll hold you near,
In every star, I’ll feel you here.
Though you're gone, your love’s my light,
Guiding me through this Christmas night.
(Outro)
So here I sit, beneath the tree,
A little child, your memory.
And as the bells ring through the skies,
I feel your smile in my goodbyes.







![SCHIZOMANICMAN - BLACK SHEEP
This is two of my tunes mashed into one. I hope you enjoy my tune!
Lyrics:
[Intro]
Let me tell you about the black sheep
The one who plays the victim at every family gathering
Cries at the table
Then causes the scene theyre crying about
Yeah
I know the type
[Verse 1]
Youre the black sheep you said it yourself with pride
Like the label was a trophy you were wearing on the side
Every family has one but not every family has you
The kind that manufactures every wound that they construe
You showed up late you left early you made every moment
About yourself and then complained that no one ever noticed
You played the victim so convincingly for so goddamn long
That you actually forgot you were the one who did the wrong
I watched you work the room like a surgeon with a knife
Cutting everyone around you just to feel something like life
And when we called you out on it you flipped the whole script
It didnt happen
And if it did it wasnt that bad
And if it was that bad it wasnt a big deal
And if it was a big deal its not your fault
And if it was your fault you didnt mean it
And if you meant it they deserved it
Sound familiar?
Yeah
I wrote that about you
[Verse 2]
You didnt happen and if you did you werent that bad
And if you were that bad well its the worst I ever had
To sit across a table from someone so convinced
That every single person in the room is just incensed
With jealousy and hatred for the greatness that you are
Never mind the wreckage never mind the mental scars
You left on every person who got close enough to see
The thing behind the curtain that you never let run free
Youre the black sheep but the shepherd didnt make you stray
You walked into the darkness and you chose to fucking stay
And blamed the whole damn flock for not following you in
Then cried about the loneliness like loneliness was sin
Ive seen you flip the narrative so fast it gave me whiplash
Seen you take the credit and then dodge the fucking backlash
Let me paint a picture of a person that I know
Someone who needs mirrors everywhere they go
Thats you
Thats been you
Thats always been you
And every single person in this family knew
Heres what a narcissist does
They make you feel crazy for having feelings
They make the argument about your tone
Not their actions
They apologise like this
Im sorry you feel that way
Im sorry you took it wrong
Im sorry youre so sensitive
Notice whats missing?
Accountability
Nowhere in the dictionary of your sorry ass apologies
Does the word I did wrong appear
Because in your version of every story
You are always
Always
The victim
[Verse 3]
Youre always the victim always the one that got done dirty
While you were busy being wronged by everyone you kept
At arms length just to pull them close enough to hurt
Just to make them feel the weight of all your bullshit and your dirt
You rewrote history so many times the originals gone
Youve been singing your sad song for so goddamn long
That you believe it now and thats the scariest part
Youre not a villain in your head youre a work of art
To the version of yourself that could have just been real
Could have dropped the act and let somebody actually feel
Something true from you but truth was never in your toolkit
You preferred the drama and the chaos and the bullshit
So here we are the family you burned on your way out
Standing in the ashes that you left without a doubt
In our minds about exactly what you are
A black sheep by design a self-created scar
On everything we built before you started your campaign
To be the centre of the universe and never feel the pain
Of being just a person just a flawed and broken human
Instead you chose the myth and now youre out here still pursuing
The validation of a family you already torched
The warmth of people standing in the house that you scorched
Good luck with that
[Outro]
[spoken, cold and final]
You want to know what the black sheep really is?
Its not the rebel
Its not the misunderstood one
Its the one who looked at a family that loved them
And decided
That wasnt enough
That they deserved more
That everyone else was the problem
Thats you
That was always you
And the saddest part?
Youll never know
Because you never do......
Black Sheep...... SCHIZOMANICMAN - BLACK SHEEP](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZHb33EUwwjA/mqdefault.jpg)

![Schizomanicman - You Unlocked Me
I wanted to create a chilled out song full of harmonies in the vocals. I hope you enjoy my song.
Lyrics, by me:
[Verse 1]
I wasnt looking for anyone
Walking through life on my own
Content in the silence
In a world Id always known
Then you appeared like morning light
Breaking through my careful walls
[Pre-chorus]
Something sleeping deep inside
Started waking up
[Chorus]
You unlocked me
Showed me who Im meant to be
Never knew I was incomplete
Till you set me free
[Verse 2]
I thought I knew myself before
Had my life all figured out
But loving you opened doors
Every dream I kept locked away
Started flooding to the surface
[Pre-chorus - Harmonies building]
Something dormant came alive
Colors bleeding through
[Chorus]
You unlocked me
Now I finally understand
Im whole when Im holding your hand
Youre the missing key
[Bridge]
I wasnt searching
Wasnt lost
But I wasnt living
Till you came along
[Final chorus]
You unlocked me
Showed me who Im meant to be
Never knew I was incomplete
Till you set me free
Youre the missing key Schizomanicman - You Unlocked Me](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/ZSDNkcEUKgc/mqdefault.jpg)
