Uploaded January 2017 | Updated September 2026, 12 minutes ago
This was the first really good film I made. I was experimenting with color reversal film stock, particularly shooting in low light conditions to achieve extreme color saturation, I shot various situations including during one of my favorite pastimes, driving across the bay bridge at dusk. When I got the footage developed I got the incredible saturation I wanted, but I also got something unexpected. Something was wrong with my Bolex 16mm, wherein the film was not stable during exposure, which gave everything this vibratory, dripping quality, especially in highlights. After watching it a few times I feel in love with the look and set about putting the footage to use. I wanted to create a totally subjective experience, a representation of a psychological state; paralyzing rage. The vibrating footage became representational of dizzying anger, and being so mad "you can't see straight". Memory fragments, flashes of the source of anger, blood rushing through the body, music that breaks and pulses with the images, and scenes of attempting to calm down combine to communicate a mindset. Matthew Turcotte makes an appearance at the end.
This was the first really good film I made. I was experimenting with color reversal film stock, particularly shooting in low light conditions to achieve extreme color saturation, I shot various situations including during one of my favorite pastimes, driving across the bay bridge at dusk. When I got the footage developed I got the incredible saturation I wanted, but I also got something unexpected. Something was wrong with my Bolex 16mm, wherein the film was not stable during exposure, which gave everything this vibratory, dripping quality, especially in highlights. After watching it a few times I feel in love with the look and set about putting the footage to use. I wanted to create a totally subjective experience, a representation of a psychological state; paralyzing rage. The vibrating footage became representational of dizzying anger, and being so mad "you can't see straight". Memory fragments, flashes of the source of anger, blood rushing through the body, music that breaks and pulses with the images, and scenes of attempting to calm down combine to communicate a mindset. Matthew Turcotte makes an appearance at the end.
