Uploaded November 2022 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago
WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK I CAN ACTUALLY DO THIS WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK
~20k attempts
WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK I CAN ACTUALLY DO THIS WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK
~20k attempts
![[NEW HARDEST] The Hallucination by SyQual](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/QC6Ii1T-ybg/mqdefault.jpg "[NEW HARDEST] The Hallucination by SyQual
so happy to have finally beaten this, i finally have a new hardest after 11 months. i initially spent about 30k just doing the wave in 2 runs over a year ago when i was far worse, and came back to it and grinded it nonstop 2 weeks ago. this level is very good and despite some problems was extremely fun to play for the most part. the waves are extremely satisfying to do and outside of a few parts felt very fair. this is definitely one of the best top 20s right now and i would highly recommend if youre good at wave.
with that being said, my experience with this level was rather miserable. it started off fine but ended up being by FAR the most draining grind of my entire life. the last week or so of playing was absolute mental torture and i really did not enjoy myself near the end. i passed the wave for the first time with a total of 50 list% deaths, and ended with 137 if that says anything about how my luck was. i basically ended up playing this nonstop as i did not have schoolwork which was extremely tiring and frustrating. though this definitely will not remain my hardest forever, i dont see myself putting myself through this again any time soon
Attempts: 60,629 (30,557 old, 30,073 new)
List Placement: 18
Personal Placement: idk its a hardest
Worst Fail(s): 45x6, 46x4, 47x3, 48x7, 49x5, 50x20, 52x8, 53x9, 54x9, 55, 58x20, 59x7, 61x3, 62x3, 64, 65x7, 66, 67x3, 68x3, 69x5, 70x3, 71x2, 72, 73, 74, 75, 77, 84, 92
Gameplay: 8/10
Decoration: 9.5/10
Enjoyment: 0/10")
![[Verification] Collapse by Me // Solo Top 50](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/RCFpXyf6bn0/mqdefault.jpg "[Verification] Collapse by Me // Solo Top 50
ID: 113256247
edit: IT GOT RATED OMGGGGG
Well, this has been a long time coming. 11 months of creating/verifying, over 240 hours in the editor, and over 80,000 attempts across all my copies, Collapse has finally been verified.
This has sort of been a dream level of mine, Ive wanted to make a level using this song for years and now that Ive finished it I think Im fairly happy with how it turned out. It isnt perfect, but Im proud of what Ive made. Basically everything about this level from the deco to the gameplay was designed around representing to intensity of the song, and I think I did well in that regard. Though I had a completely awful experience dying past 58% a total of 123 times as well as 24 times past 80%, I still think this level plays well and I hope it can be an enjoyable level for anyone who may try it. I have no sense of the difficulty or balancing and it was insanely hard to make playable given how difficult the older copies of the level were, but I think I did a good job with it. To anyone who may see this and think that the level doesnt play good, know i at least tried my very best.
I talk more about my thoughts about every part as well as the design process of the level in general in the link below (its too long for a youtube description)
https://pastebin.com/WMAcs0Vy
Overall I really am quite proud of how this level turned out. Again, I tried my best to make the level play well and if anyone in the future who may play it and doesnt think it does Im sorry for that. It was super difficult to properly balance considering I made all the gameplay and how hard it used to be. This level has been a genuine passion project of mine, and I really want it to be enjoyable for people. If youre curious Ive uploaded the unnerfed copy from when I first finished the level (113258381) and the oldest copy I still have saved (113258444)
Attempts: 26,965 or 81,020 including attempts from before I finished building the level
List Placement: N/A
Personal Placement: Genuinely have no clue, it could be top 20 or not top 50 and either way I wouldnt really be surprised. I built the level and my old copies were far harder, but at the same time I got incredibly unlucky and verifying a level this hard was really stressful and mentally challenging for me. Ill say harder than arcturus easier than Midnight, but take that with a MASSIVE grain of salt.
Worst Fails: (keep in mind many percentages I have a lot of deaths to ended up getting nerfed, such as 91)
ship
59x10
60x14
61x16
62x14
63x16
64x7
65x4
(81)
cube
66
67x3
68x4
72x2
73x3
74x2
75x3
(18)
ending
82x2
83x3
84x3
86
87x3
89
90x2
91x6
93
94
95
(24)
total: 122")
![[New Hardest] Snowbound by Amplitron (Extreme Demon)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/RqRPrriC-8I/mqdefault.jpg "[New Hardest] Snowbound by Amplitron (Extreme Demon)
New hardest and first main list in over 3 months! Super happy to have beaten this, it feels really good to beat something hard again. This level is really good, though it was occasionally frustrating to not get anywhere at all. I wish the section from 15% to 30% was a little easier as that was definitely the hardest part of the level and served as a huge wall for quite some time, though I did eventually get consistent at it. I got kind of unlucky with over 30 deaths in the second half which is the far easier half but I still enjoyed this quite a lot. Id definitely recommend this level if you have the cps and youre okay with long levels, I feel like this was a perfect level to do for my hardest.
Attempts: 10,669
Playtime: 21h 2m (switched to playtime tracker since death tracker is very inaccurate)
List Placement: 33
Personal Placement: feels closer to deimos/firework than saul but i havent beaten either so im not very reliable
My hardest demons spreadsheet: https://tinyurl.com/nexellist
From 0:
0% x658
1% x443
2% x333
3% x296
4% x127
5% x30
6% x8
7% x12
8% x280
9% x7
10% x7
11% x15
12% x94
13% x13
14% x21
15% x68
16% x65
17% x20
18% x48
19% x24
20% x39
21% x33
22% x22
23% x13
24% x37
25% x24
26% x17
27% x6
28% x7
29% x2
30% x5
31% x12
32% x6
33% x11
34% x24
35% x2
36% x9
37% x4
38% x1
39% x3
40% x9
41% x3
42% x5
43% x2
44% x2
54% x1
56% x1
57% x1
59% x1
60% x3
62% x2
64% x2
65% x1
67% x2
68% x5
70% x1
71% x1
72% x1
73% x4
76% x2
77% x1
82% x1
84% x4
100% x1")
