Uploaded May 2020 | Updated September 2026, 12 hours ago

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'That's absurd! I am fine!'
'I'm fine don't worry about me!'
'I'm fine'
'Yes I'm okay'

Believe those?

Yeah




t̰́̈́ḥͩ͘e̬̋̇ŷ̗̮'r̙͝e͒̈ͬ aͬ̍ͫl̟̇l̮̫̬ l͈͉͟ i̓ͨͮ e̙͛̌ s̮ͪ̉



I'm not okay, I wish to be, but I couldn't.

I worry about my friend's feelings because seeing them hurt makes me hurt
I didn't want them to be hurt, so I do what I can to cheer them up
Sure, they can succeed.
But doing it and they're still upset makes me upset, because I felt like I wasn't good enough to cheer them up.
Hey
Seeing my friends happy makes me happy
So I try my best to make them happy.

I feel stressed with my school work
They're stressful and making me panic from time to time
I've missed some English homework
Doesn't seem like a big deal...right..?
How would you feel if you were to not hand in the homework,
and just so happens that in that subject
you're the first place in the entire grade.
It's scary because I felt like I'm making a bad example due to how I feel.

I had friendship problems.
Twice.
I had hurt my friend t͉̂̌ w̡͏́ i̫͎̿ c̼͔̒ e̱ͨ
I apologised.
Sure
We became friends again
But it felt painful and hurting
It was the worst feeling I had
Why did I explode..?

Everything it's just, not fine for me.
Okay
I admit
My mental health is on a roller coaster.
I get mood swings from time to time.
It feels awful because they're from
Happy, to upset, to stressed out, to panic attacks.
repeat
and repeat.

That's what I get for being a bad student, a bad friend, and genuinely
a̪͖ b̼̀͢a̟̋ḏͮ̈ ṗ̙̙ ë̯́ r͎̪̅ s͇ͣ͐ ȯ̙ n̻͓̝

I cry even more when people ask if I'm okay
I don't know why.
Please don't ask why.
It pains me to answer.








"Everything would be fine :)"
"D̦̈ͦo̱̊̎n̤ͬͥ'ẗ͚ͣ ẉͦ̎o̞ͭ̎ȑ̗ͬr̞̕͞ỵͧ a̘͂͡b̔̆ͬǫ̔̀u͎̤̕ṭ̴̂ m͔̭͉e̞̦̥"










Original by {• Monster Storm •}